The most traumatizing moment in your life

[mike1921]

You don't tolerate people in the first place...

This isn't a lack of tolerance for people, but their views, though.

I don't want people to try to rationalize my behavior by pointing to any trauma that might've happened and saying "That is why he is so [x]!"

You know, you've already implied something traumatic happened to you and that it would give us an excuse to blame your behavior on it. Meaning that we know that something happened to you that causes it. Meaning, we've already won!!!

you're not a bad person maxie, you've just went through some trauma that we don't know about

 

[Xorghul]

I stopped trusting friends when one sent me 2 girls 1 cup.

I started trusting again when another sent me meatspin.

O...key?

 

[Xorghul]

A few things. The most recent one being the End of Evangelion. Before that, I usually ended up traumatizing myself, with the things I drew and my reactions to the murders and car thefts I constantly hear on the news.

That movie raped my mind through my eyes and left it in a ditch to rot. I'm a pretty smart person, but not even I could understand it.

Ghaaa! I hate you. Now I must see that movie, although I have no idea what it's about.

 

[Serious Samuel]

Now, my story is not as traumatizing as most here but it certanly did change my life.

I was starting my 7th grade at a new school, and everyone there was bigger than me (the school was for the grades 7-9) and there was a lot more people there too (300 instead of 200). So I got very nervous just by walking around as I'm afraid of big masses of people and it was even worse due to everyone being bigger than me. And of course, being socially inept (Asperger syndrome) and afraid I was picked on. I also followed a small group of people that I knew around, but one of them who I didn't know too well picked on me all the time for following them around and I stopped following them after some time. After that I pretty much lost my trust in my skills of interpating people, and I stopped trusting everything I thought I knew about other people.

In the 8th and 9th grade I got a bit more accepted, but I still didn't trust my social skills and I lost my last irl friend at that time too. It have gotten a bit better now, but I still can't talk properly with anyone else than my close family (when I do talk to anyone else I got to think a good 5-10 seconds extra to get a proper sentance thogether, and I also stutter a lot).

I hope it didn't get too whiny. Also, another thing that weren't that traumatizing, I saw "*insert porn title here* has finished downloading" when I was going to turn off a torrenting program that was leeching my connection. It was funny due to the ridicoulus title (the title was pretty much screaming "this is an ametour porno"), and I don't care much about what people do when they "are alone" anyway.

 

[Vocotrash829]

Most of these stories are laughable, not the slightest bit traumatic.

Excuse me. But you try being bound, groped, and passed around a van like a joint at a party. Then I dare you to come back and say that to my face.

There's a reason one uses the words "most of" rather than "all of". Yeah, your story is quite traumatic. No one would disagree with that. The fact that you feel the need to lash out at me when semantically I haven't said jack about you says to me that you need a better outlet for this besides internet gamer forums. Please don't take this as an attack on you, but out of legitimate empathy here I urge you to find that outlet.

PS: Also don't assume that what I posted about being starving was the most traumatic thing that's happened. Let's just say there are things I won't share in detail with the internet, and I don't know if I ever can. I will say that although circumstances were different...the core idea of what happened to me is similar. And I know how hard it is trying to convince yourself that it's not your fault, and that one day you're going to put it behind you, but trust me, it gets better.

 

[mike1921]

You know, you've already implied something traumatic happened to you and that it would give us an excuse to blame your behavior on it. Meaning that we know that something happened to you that causes it. Meaning, we've already won!!!

you're not a bad person maxie, you've just went through some trauma that we don't know about

The best you have is the ability to vaguely state "something bad happened so now he's bad."
Hardly a proper argument.

Also I will traumatize you in the face with a shovel.

Meh, it might still work to make people sympathetic of you.

You've been through so much, I'll forgive you , with a cleaver.

 

[Gotham Soul]

I was born with oculocutaneous albinism (basically, pale skin, white hair, and a few sight deficiencies) and got a lot of shit for it when I was a kid that lead to a nervous breakdown. After I recovered, some contacts, hair dye and a liberal application of cosmetics fixed me up quite nicely. I'm proud to say people didn't recognize me after that (but whether it was because of the appearance change or the fact that I hated everybody from that point forward is something I don't know).

 

[mike1921]

Meh, it might still work to make people sympathetic of you.

You've been through so much, I'll forgive you , with a cleaver.

I doubt it. Especially as I can easily say "I was just kidding."
How do you know I wasn't?

Better safe than sorry , we'll just assume you're lieing, as we know why you would say that

 

[Timotei]

A few things. The most recent one being the End of Evangelion. Before that, I usually ended up traumatizing myself, with the things I drew and my reactions to the murders and car thefts I constantly hear on the news.

That movie raped my mind through my eyes and left it in a ditch to rot. I'm a pretty smart person, but not even I could understand it.

Ghaaa! I hate you. Now I must see that movie, although I have no idea what it's about.

It would take an hour to explain, and there is no guarantee what I tell you is correct. You would have to see the whole Neon Genesis Evangelion series to get even a slight understanding.

If you are easily confused, I do not reccomend that movie.

 

[Insanum]

I'm used to be bullied and picked on from beginning of 4 grade to the end of 6 grade. I think i called in sick more than half of all schooldays. It was sort of fine in grade 7 cause i barely met the people that used to bullie me but i got placed in the same class as my best friend and cousin. Then in grade 8 he got back together with a former friend of mine.

We used to be friends until he decided that the best way to have some fun together with my cousin was to humiliate me. Example: they are athletic and they decided that we should play a Swedish variant of baseball with them hitting the ball and me trying to catch, alone. I live about 3-4 miles away so i couldn't go home either.

Anyway, that friend and a another former friend of mine that i got basically the same history with got together with my cousin and they decied that the best way to become friends with my cousin was to humiliate me. The only time i got a break was when they picked on another kid that followed us around simply because we were the ones that picked the least on him. But whatever i said or did someone would try to make a snarky comment about it or they'd try to make everyone around laugh at me, you get the picture. They also decided at times to ignore me completely. One of those times they decided to start kicking me as well. The worst thing about this was that everyone joined in on it. People i've never met before and my cousin/best friend.

The crescendo was reached the time i decided that my eyebrows looked stupid. They'd been telling me for a long time. So i decied to shave them down, but it just looked weird. The following day at school i got called ****** non stop by them. At breaks we used to go home to my cousin and play games on his computer. This time they ran ahead of me and when i got to the house the door was locked and they had put up a sign on the door saying: Faggots not welcome. Until this point they had always let me be with them and this felt like they decided that they wouldn't even let me do that anymore. I couldn't have found any other friends either.

I felt physically sick and to this day i still wonder why i didn't put my dads hunting rifle between my teeth and end it all because i felt that i had really good reasons for it. Partly because i felt that my life was over and partly because i felt that that was the only way i could get back at them. I was apathic for several days though.

Hopefully someone will read this massive text but even if you don't it still felt therapeutic writing it because i've never told anyone about his ever. I even refused to tell my psychiatrist about it. If you did read i believe a thanks is in order, Thank You.

My friend thats awful. I know what its like being alienated by so called "friends", but not on this scale.

One thing to bear in mind is that once school finishes you dont have to hang around with people you dont like, etc. If you have already finished then you'll probably know what im talking about.

/hug - Hope your felling better nowadays tho, And remember that the escapist loves you.

 

[fuckwit]

Finding links to Redtube in my dad's internet history.

What's shocking about this is that the only people that use my dad's computer are me, my dad and my little sister. And I don't go on Redtube.

Oh no, your dad (85% chance it's your dad I'd say) probably looks at porn -_- . Really, who cares? You didn't walk in on him masturbating to it and he's not in the porn.

Yeah, umm... Believe it or not, it still isn't really something I want to know. Seeing as he's 51 and he's, you know, my dad and everything.

Maybe your little sister watches redtube.

 

[CrashBang]

You're getting me to try and think of something and I'm scared of what I might dig up in my brain

 

[Zombie_Fish]

Finding links to Redtube in my dad's internet history.

What's shocking about this is that the only people that use my dad's computer are me, my dad and my little sister. And I don't go on Redtube.

Oh no, your dad (85% chance it's your dad I'd say) probably looks at porn -_- . Really, who cares? You didn't walk in on him masturbating to it and he's not in the porn.

Yeah, umm... Believe it or not, it still isn't really something I want to know. Seeing as he's 51 and he's, you know, my dad and everything.

Maybe your little sister watches redtube.

Still something I don't really want to know either way.

 

[IrrelevantTangent]

Oh, and there was that one time when I accidentally stumbled across Goatse...you can thank Encyclopedia Dramatica and that pile of trollcrap they call a 'wiki' for that.

 

[Hedberger]

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Wow, that's terrible. Very sad. I'm dreadful at comforting people, but just know that I have 'I want to comfort this person' sort of ideas in my head right now.

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My friend thats awful. I know what its like being alienated by so called "friends", but not on this scale.

One thing to bear in mind is that once school finishes you dont have to hang around with people you dont like, etc. If you have already finished then you'll probably know what im talking about.

/hug - Hope your felling better nowadays tho, And remember that the escapist loves you.

Thanks, both of you. It warms

I feel better nowadays and i've forgiven my cousin. We haven't talked about it but i think he knows that he acted like a prick. He's actually nicer to me than most people. I think he didn't think it through before he acted and i can forgive that. I like to think i was strengthened by this mess so i guess there is always some good in it.

 

[monkey_man]

my grandmothers funeral,, because we didnt visit her for very long and if we did, i wanted to get back home as soon as possible... im not a very patient boy

 

[LaughingTarget]

I got mauled by a German Shepherd when I was 3, still have the scars on my face to prove it. Took me 14 years to get over my fear of dogs.

 

[ZeeClone]

I don't want to go into it here. But suffice to say. Reading a letter can break you into small pieces that take years to gather back together.