Kusanagi couldn't help but think back to the stories her patients in New Troy--the soldiers fighting to defend the city-- had told her about lying in wait for days at a time. Maybe it was because she hadn't received any formal training, but she couldn't help but feel an overwhelming sense of anxiety. She was never very patient to begin with and lying in the dirt, waiting for the enemy to make it's move was torture. Her blood was boiling. She was ready for the hunt to begin.
And then there was Nikolai. She couldn't quite see him from her position, but she knew where he was. Though she'd told herself she wouldn't worry too much, she couldn't help but think of the Dog and her friend, Acolyte. She'd already lost enough friends and she'd never forgive herself if she let another fall in battle... especially for a cause she didn't believe in.
No, they would never forgive you if you made a bad call on their behalf and got yourself killed. Focus on your orders. That's what soldiers do. That's what soldier do.
Kusanagi wasn't a soldier, but she'd play the part if it meant they'd make it out of this alive. Listening to orders... now that was something she'd never been good at. She was stubborn if nothing else.
"Convoy approaching."
Kusanagi's eyes widened, suddenly more alter than ever. It was too late to think now. Too late for any regrets. Things were about to happen and there was no turning back.
She never had the chance to talk things over with Nikolai. He probably hated her at this point.
Fuck, no! You can't think like that! You can't bring that kind of baggage into battle!
What if one of them died today? They couldn't just end things the way they were now! Kusanagi bit her lip, nervously and closed her eyes in an attempt to sneak a quick meditation in before the battle.
Just focus on the fight. Just focus on the fight. Just focus on the fight.
And then there was Nikolai. She couldn't quite see him from her position, but she knew where he was. Though she'd told herself she wouldn't worry too much, she couldn't help but think of the Dog and her friend, Acolyte. She'd already lost enough friends and she'd never forgive herself if she let another fall in battle... especially for a cause she didn't believe in.
No, they would never forgive you if you made a bad call on their behalf and got yourself killed. Focus on your orders. That's what soldiers do. That's what soldier do.
Kusanagi wasn't a soldier, but she'd play the part if it meant they'd make it out of this alive. Listening to orders... now that was something she'd never been good at. She was stubborn if nothing else.
"Convoy approaching."
Kusanagi's eyes widened, suddenly more alter than ever. It was too late to think now. Too late for any regrets. Things were about to happen and there was no turning back.
She never had the chance to talk things over with Nikolai. He probably hated her at this point.
Fuck, no! You can't think like that! You can't bring that kind of baggage into battle!
What if one of them died today? They couldn't just end things the way they were now! Kusanagi bit her lip, nervously and closed her eyes in an attempt to sneak a quick meditation in before the battle.
Just focus on the fight. Just focus on the fight. Just focus on the fight.