One girl. It's not quite you want; which is to just have a girlfriend in general. I've had girlfriends, but this girl is something special in my eyes.
Although on a side note, I believe it's impossible to be "too ugly". I mean, I've met girls who are beautiful as a rose, but with their sour personality they look like a weed to me. Same with the opposite. You will always look handsome to the right girl.
However, back to what I was saying. She's somebody I can only describe as beautiful. I could probably write paragraphs about my feelings. She certainly is a pretty face, but there's more. I'm in the "friend zone" with her. Except, she won't 'release me' (watched season 6 of Weeds so comparing it to Andy and Nancy yet it's still somewhat different maybe) She says we have chemistry together but prefers we stay friends. All I want to hear is "it's never going to happen" I've pulled away from numerous other girls because it lingers in the back of my mind that I still have a chance, and going with this other girl could mess things up. I feel like she's leading me on all the time since we've had "moments" but apparently they don't mean anything. She's no whore, she's a kind, generous, tolerant person who lives by the same rules in life that I do: Live free, and always try to be happy yourself and make others smile. (I know, sounds pretty lame, but hey, that's why people love me)
In the end I know I'll move on. But that's when it's over. As long as even the slightest chance lingers, my mind won't budge; my body will but not my mind.