The worst and best emotional states you have been in.

[BloatedGuppy]

Worst: The sudden death of my father in 2008. He was only 56 years old, and in excellent health, and was two weeks away from early retirement after working his ass off his entire life to support the family. I had just finished making plans with my Mom to drive up and surprise him at the retirement party. He died of a massive brain aneurysm while chopping wood. I didn't find out until the following morning when my Mom called me at work to let me know what had happened. I went into total shock, followed by straight out emotional crisis. Losing a loved one is always horrible. Losing a loved one suddenly and unexpectedly breaks you in special ways. You can never again rationalize away your anxiety by believing that terrible things only happen to other people. You can't rest easy when people are late, or fall out of contact, by assuring yourself that they're fine. And you feel your own mortality EVER so keenly. It's five years later and I'm still not remotely recovered. My Mom will never be the same. It's a hole you carry with you your entire life. Tell your parents/friends/loved ones regularly that you love them, folks, because you genuinely can never be sure whether it'll be your last opportunity.

Best: Probably any of a number of magical first dates I've had over the years, some of which seemed airlifted right out of a Hollywood film. While I don't regret being in a long term relationship, and I don't miss the nauseating, butt clenching terror of dating, I DO miss those magical moments in brand new relationships where everything goes JUST SO, and you feel like you could levitate right off the ground, so complete is your happiness. That massive endorphin rush, that "first month buzz", is what makes monogamy so hard for some people. It's a wonderful feeling.

I basically cried for days when Bo died on Febuary 14th. (Yeah, Valentine's Day). I've gone off birth control, so my hormones are pretty fucked up, I turn 30 this year and am questioning and regretting everything I've ever done (which is apparently a real thing for people reaching milestones), my dad retires next week, the house I grew up in and lived in for 27 years is going on the market May 3rd, and my parents are moving 3000 miles away by this summer. I don't like my job, but am afraid to leave it for another as it's a government job so I know I'll have a pension and will be able to retire, but I am completley unfulfilled. So I'm pretty depressed all around right now and am pretty low. I have a ton of potential and on paper am doing amazingly well, but my whole world is changing so I'm still a lost little girl who is begging her mommy and daddy not to leave her.

I'm so sorry about Bo. I'm a great lover of animals, and I've had many, MANY special pets in my life, and I've had to see them all to their last day, and it is absolutely devastating. It can be hard to get sympathy from people...our society does not value pets the way they do humans, and people occasionally draw a blank if they see you're upset over the loss of a companion animal. They don't get it. They suggest you go get a new one, or wonder what the fuss is about.

And yes, what you are going through RE: change of life is completely normal. I'm sorry your buddy isn't there to see you through it. =(

 

[Akytalusia]

worst: lost my job, got divorced and lost the wife, kid, and all my possessions, lost my home, betrayed by my last friend, rejected by my blood. i was jobless/homeless/friendless/disowned and even strangers stopped pretending to be civil and every last one of them treated me like a sub-human. i saw the truth of the matter and the true nature of humanity for the first time. no one cares about anyone else. your blood isn't your family, and your friends aren't your family either. 'family' is a term that represents whoever happens to currently be tolerating you. and they only tolerate you as long as you benefit them or if they think you could potentially benefit them. this was my lowest point. but i don't regret it. i learned some very valuable life lessons during this time.

best: probably some point from back before i can remember. there must have been a time in my life when i didn't know anything about the world and still had my innocence and naivety. just throw that on the pile.

 

[aegix drakan_v1legacy]

Best: Just after asking a girl I liked to be my GF, and she said yes. We've been together for 2 years now.

Worst: Can't pick an exact situation, but that time in high school when I briefly considered (and rejected) the idea of suicide. (I was being bullied non-stop, and I had no friends at the time. It was pretty shit)

 

[robot slipper]

Worst: The day I gave birth. It actually hurt quite a bit! Particularly because the hospital was overcrowded and there were no beds available on the labour ward, and not enough midwives to go around. I was pretty much left to get on with it by myself with no access to pain relief. Eventually, someone noticed that the birth was imminent, and since there were still no beds I had to give birth on a table in the operating theatre that they usually use for C-sections. My baby was premature and the next day came down with a lung infection and had to spend the next week in intensive care.

Best: The day I gave birth. Saw my baby for the first time! In any case, I had a better birth experience than I would have in a third world country, and we both lived too.

 

[Generic4me]

Worst: About 2 years ago. Sophomore year of High School. I'm 15, fat, lonely, suffering from depression, even my closest friends don't really like being around me anymore, my mom got remarried to an absolute prick who hated me with a passion, and my 360 broke, so I couldn't even use my main escapism anymore.

Best: Day before Christmas Eve, 2 years ago. Choose to live with my dad, went to a better school, got a PS3, my dad encourages me to start working out, get some new friends, get away from mom's boyfriend. Felt like I was on top of the world and nothing could bring me down.

 

[davidsoc]

Worst: Freshman Year of University, study architecture....and not doing well. Failing miserably in all my general ed classes, having never really failed at anything in life before (admittedly low amount of experience), and realizing that the major knee injury i suffered in high school would never truly heal. Oh, and the one thing that was kind fo going right was shredded when the girl that i was dating cheated on me with one of the few people i found to be friendly. Depression kicks my ass, i end up hospitalized and on a suicide watch. That was after being arrested for almost throwing myself off of a very high building.

Best: The day my wife said "I do" for all the associated reasons, though the birthday of both my kids probably rivals it for the same reasons

 

[someonehairy-ish]

Worst? Err. Can't pick. There are 2.
- Finding out my Mum had cancer (she's fine now) was fucking terrifying. I think I was 13 or 14. Anyway, 'your mum' jokes were popular at the time, and the day after I got the news, someone in my class kept saying them. That obviously hit a nerve, and I just flipped out, flipped the table over, scared the living shit out of my classmates, ran out of the room. I spent half the morning having a minor breakdown, and then the rest of it recovering. One of the staff let me chill in their office and kept making me cups of tea, that helped.

- Breaking up with the girlfriend I'd had since I was 16. It had passed the point where she was basically a fixture in my life, I spent more time with her (and her family) than with my own family. But at the same time, there came a point when I realised that we spent all of our time doing boring crap and not really engaging with each other at all, and I couldn't see anyway to get it back to how it had been. And eventually we were actively antagonising each other. So the dilemma I had was basically 'do I stick to the status quo, even though it kinda sucks, or do I leave her and lose the one person I've been able to share everything with?' And eventually I ended up picking the second option.

Best?
- The earlier times I spent with that girlfriend were just fantastic. Not long after we met, we wandered into town from college, and I don't think either of us stopped laughing the whole time. There are a few other times that really stand out, but most of them are quite private. Not to mention NSFW...

 

[The_Fezz]

Best:
Likely being reduced to tears laughing at terrible things with my friends, no exact situation but it's always an amazing pick-me-up.

Worst?
Usually in the same week having random depressive episodes in which I literally can't eat anything, I instantly start choking on it. Why? I'm not entirely sure, but given a day to myself and it's almost guaranteed to happen.

 

[Beffudled Sheep_v1legacy]

Worst: When my parents basically kidnapped me and brought me to live with them in a poverty stricken project. I was left alone most of the time because they were always off getting high. I had was on the street for the most part and had to find my own food which I stole from markets in the other parts of the city and I caught and killed stray animals and squirrels during my desperate times. When my parents were around my father abused my mother mercilessly and gave me a good share of beatings too. I was always scared, I was always cold or hot (depending on the season and weather), I was always hungry and this lasted for a couple of years before my dad got arrested and my mom took me to live with my grandparents. We were still poor but I had a warm bed in a warm home with cooked food.

Best: It was the fist night I managed to sleep without horrible nightmares waking me up. September 22, 2010. That night I slept without deeply and soundly. I was so rested and happy when I woke up and my life has only gotten better since then.
I still struggle with nightmares, trust issues, severe anger issues, wild mood swings and depression but overall I'm a lot happier now and I have a very bright future ahead of me. Instead of death or prison I can look forward to an actual career with a family of my own to raise and treat right.

 

[Kolby Jack]

The last time I felt real emotional pain that I can recall was years ago in High School. It wasn't a particular incident, but a bunch of small things that snowballed until one day I just lost it when I had forgot my house key and nobody was due to be home for at least an hour. I just got so fucking mad that I just started kicking and bashing at the door until it finally broke and swung open (I'm not exactly strong, physically). While the rush of kicking the door down felt pretty great right up until I was grounded for two months, I realized that I hated how I could unravel so much from just a bunch of small things adding up over time. I mean, yes, I was a teenager, but still.

So from that day on, I haven't. It was really an epiphany of sorts, and I've never been more at peace with myself and my surroundings than I have after the door thing all the way through right now. I still get mad sometimes and I experience other emotions; I mean, I'm not a robot, but they don't stick with me for long. It's made me mentally healthier, and it's made me a nicer person.

 

[Rooster893]

Worst: When my girlfriend said... well, she said a lot of things, but the summary is that she thought that I wasn't doing very well in the relationship. It felt like she was expecting me to do things I literally could not afford to do. And to top it off, her best friend threatened me with a statement like "If you screw this up, you have me to deal with." (She's kind of a *****, so... yeah.) I was hanging out with friends at the time, and when she sent me the text containing the above statement, it made me feel angry and stupid. Basically, I felt like a giant piece of crap. Luckily, my normally facetious friends cheered me up with sincere actions, and that did feel good. And the best part is? When my girlfriend and I saw each other again, nothing was wrong!

Best: When I saw my all-time favorite band, the Red Hot Chili Peppers, live for the first time. I had been waiting for the day to see them live since like 2003, and when I saw Flea run out for the first time, I screamed my head off, just like everybody else in the audience. It was a sublime concert, I sang along to every single song. At the end of the show, my voice gave out, my head was pulsing with pain and my shirt smelled like weed, but it was such a great time that I didn't care.

 

[Loonyyy]

Worst: Probably any time between starting Uni and now, just feeling generally unmotivated and terrible. I'm apathetic, and despise myself for it, but too apathetic to work to change my apathy.

Which I guess is something poetic or something.

Best: Probably when I first realised that I could play songs I liked on guitar, getting to do a concert, or when I attended one by my favourite band. It's the little things.

 

[The Wykydtron]

Worst emotional state? Ha! As if i've ever been properly depressed in my life. Ok I once did have a slight breakdown the one time but it actually changed my life for the better overall so y'know swings and roundabouts.

[sub]I still have no idea what that saying really means or how to use it but hey[/sub]

I'm just a happy, no a light-hearted person in general. No matter how socially awkward I can be :3