Suicide, but that's kind of over now (as in, I won't commit suicide, definatly not).
But now I constantly think about this (beautifull and amazing) girl (I will never ever be together with, wich I think is for the best) and the fact that she smokes. I can't stress how much I hate the fact that I can't do anything about it, or how much I hate, loath and dread that she does it. I'd love to forget all about here, unfortunatly she's all the moral support I have (in real life ofcourse). My emotional part of me wants to be with her forever, another part (the rational one) is trying (almost desperatly) to protect the emotional part because I
know that it will only result in tears and pain.
StarStruckStrumpets said:
A certain girl, I can't say who, for fear that one of my Escapist Friends might find out...but I adore her, I'd almost go as far as to say that I love her...i've told her how I feel...and she blantantly disregards who I feel, she complains that boys are bastards, but shes only ever been out with "chavs" (for those of you who don't know the meaning, it's somebody who is ridiculously stupid, wears tracksuits, does illegal stuff...basically the scum of society.) and shes never even considered how well i'd treat her. Sometimes it gets me angry.
I hear you man, I had almost the same thing (not the girl I mentioned above, actually I started to care about her when I was trying to get with that other girl). For some reason I stopped caring pretty fast, I now saw her in a whole different light, one wich was not so pretty for her.