Oly J said:
Well, I must have had loads of those as I think I'm pretty fucked up on a regular basis, but no isolated incident immediately springs to mind, I suppose the biggest cause of concern for me is that I've never once cried over a death, no matter how close the deceased was to me, or how sudden the death, I've never shed a tear over it, and my grandmother, to whom I was particularly close, died extremely suddenly, and I was the only one not crying, I certainly felt like crying, but the tears wouldn't come
My granddad died and I felt not a thing, before that my most beloved cat died, ran over by a car he died mewling in a cotton shawl in my mothers arms, he died right in front of me and I didn't feel a thing. A couple of days later the cats mother had to be put down, I saw mum take her away, didn't care. Before that my pet rabbit died I did not cry or care. When my mother tried to commit suicide I cried for a minute or two, it had just happened and was terrifying and shocking but then I never felt sad about it after. I don't feel any kind of sadness when recalling it, even though she was half mad and schizophrenic at the time and was still dripping wet from trying to drown herself.
Its perfectly natural to not cry, hell at least you WANTED to cry, this forum has made me realize what a horrifying monster I am! Its a good thing somehow my sociopathy has escaped notice which is both baffling and fantastic.
