"Do you wish to know why I fear the Patriarch? Because I defied him, it's true that the reason for joining this group was to spy on them, but then they started being nice to me, treating me like any other. And I couldn't go through with it.
Had I kept my mouth shut and keep spying on you, I would have nothing to fear from Him.
Yet I went against his wishes. Since then, I made every attempt to better myself, try to fit in with the rest.
Do you know how many times these people, our friends have been wounded? Many, many times.
And I helped them every time. I could have just let them die, but I did not.
It's also true that I lost control of my anger from time to time, but never have I hurt anyone!