Hmm. I've been through hell myself -not literally of course." James stopped and thought for a moment. "Well, actually you could argue that I mean that literally. Anyway, for the first three years, that was without training. I'll admit, sometimes the memories of such things are... hard to put up with. But even so, suicide is a cop out. When there are people counting on you -hell, even if there aren't- the best way to fight the memories are to make the best of your future in spite of them, if that makes any sense."
AEanna looked conflicted.
"The memory is painful. It is one that I prefer not to revisit. And yet... I do not know if it is one that I should forget."