what are you doing with your life?
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What am I doing? WHAT AM I DOING?
I'll tell you what I'm doing. I'm turning my life around. Getting a grip. The last year I've visited multiple Universities and finally concluded that I want to be a Software Engineer. Following this, I fixed my habits at home so I could start doing the laundry, dishes and cleaning more regularly. To top that off, I also bought myself a couple pony shirts that I often wear in public so my self esteem gets built up to acceptable levels.
I punched life in the gut and made it my *****.
I'm sleeping on top tonight.
I'll tell you what I'm doing. I'm turning my life around. Getting a grip. The last year I've visited multiple Universities and finally concluded that I want to be a Software Engineer. Following this, I fixed my habits at home so I could start doing the laundry, dishes and cleaning more regularly. To top that off, I also bought myself a couple pony shirts that I often wear in public so my self esteem gets built up to acceptable levels.
I punched life in the gut and made it my *****.
I'm sleeping on top tonight.
Haha, well, in my forensics class, I did find out that I shared 10 out of 14 or so common traits found in serial killers (the most out of everyone in the class). >=]SonicWaffle said:This is starting to sound like the backstory of a CSI killer...soren7550 said:
OK, yeah, if I read in the news about a bunch of pot-smoking kids brutally murdered by their frustrated housemate, I know who I'll blamesoren7550 said:
"I was nice! I was a good person all my life, and the world just shit all over me! Well, no more. Now it's time for me to teach them all a lesson! They want me to be a bastard? Oh, boy, be careful what you wish for!"
Yeah, I'm 19 and found out the other day that the first girl I ever had a crush on, also my age, is like a month away from having a baby. Meanwhile, there's me at University studying for a course with supposedly good job prospects. At least she doesn't have to put up with lab reports though!
Does get me thinking though. I've barely had a relationship that's lasted over a month.
Does get me thinking though. I've barely had a relationship that's lasted over a month.
Totally understand that. I was extremely close to marriage, things happened that caused the relationship to end. Tried to go back, but it didn't work out. So for maybe two years I was stuck in this emotional limbo. It's like I had to recalibrate myself. The time spent single was good though, like you said. And eventually you'll find someone that meshes with you well, and have all that lovey-dovey romance stuff (unless you don't want it, in which case think of all the money you get to spend on yourself!).Elementary - Dear Watson said:I was nearly married... I have a career, a place to live and all that jazz, and I had a girl I had been with for 4.5 years! I was choosing a ring one weekend, being particularly indecisive about which one was the perfect one, when I decided to put it off... that night after I picked her up from work she inexplicably dumped me... just like that... and I didn't hang around for an explanation (was far too upset!...)
So now I am a single guy living the RAF life properly... I am mid-20's and am free to do what ever crazy idea I want! I travelled europe on a train when I came back from the middle east... I travel the country seeing friends and attending meals and functions on my weekends, and I even have 3 holidays booked for next year! (All to see friends from other countries!) Hell... I even get to do things like Escapism UK, and want to go to some con's for the sirst time too...
There is one niggling feeling though... because I was so close to settling down it still confuses me that I am not... and I often feel like I should be trying to settle down... this conflict of interests makes me over critical of girls, which I use as a poor excuse to myself for not trying to meet someone... Not so much a problem at the moment, but I have been single for about 19 months now, which has been my choice, and part of me sees that as good, and the other sees it as very wrong! :S
So that is where my life stands at the moment! Crazy party style, with a hint of guilt...
EDIT: Just realised I missed the 'other people' part... that is what makes me feel kinda guilty... the people I trained with are starting to get hitched now, but they are a couple of years older than me on average anyway... That bit I struggle to see though! In the forces there aren't really age gaps, unless you are giving people banter for it! Everyone just hangs with everyone, so it is common for the younger lads like me to feel left behind the older guys!
Anywho, I'm teaching, writing, trying to get into a PhD program. Fairly fulfilling. Other people I know are making far more money and already really started on their careers (I want to teach college, so I'm currently on the adjunct hustle, which if you don't know, is financially spinebreaking; my best friend is making like 48k working IT at a hospital). I think I'm doing OK in comparison because I love teaching, but dammit, I wish I had more cash.
Eh, I don't know. Sometimes. It's usually not a matter of jealousy, though, as I'm pretty happy with the way things are. I mean, the few times a year I get home I sometimes run into old acquaintances from school, and some of them have been married with kids for a few years... but in most cases they skipped out on advanced education and turned into stay-at-home parents who depend on their spouse's generated income.
As it stands I recently turned 26 and am getting close to attaining my Master's degree in teaching. I'm still cynical and overly suspicious of other people, but I'm trying to improve my social life nonetheless; I've lost over 100 pounds this year, do sports on a regular basis now and just met a nice girl at uni, so I'll see where this leads. I still have some time to play games and write about them, too. All in all I'm doing well within the limits of what I can achieve, and even if other do even better, well... good for them. Doesn't make my own situation less satisfying.
As it stands I recently turned 26 and am getting close to attaining my Master's degree in teaching. I'm still cynical and overly suspicious of other people, but I'm trying to improve my social life nonetheless; I've lost over 100 pounds this year, do sports on a regular basis now and just met a nice girl at uni, so I'll see where this leads. I still have some time to play games and write about them, too. All in all I'm doing well within the limits of what I can achieve, and even if other do even better, well... good for them. Doesn't make my own situation less satisfying.
Right now, somewhere between Jack and shit. At least on paper. No job, not in school. I'm going to start applying to graduate schools soon. I just really need something to do or I'm going to go stir crazy.
On paper I've largely compared with my peers, recent grad. Most of the people I graduated with haven't found a job to go with their degree just yet. A few have, and I'm kind of annoyed that I haven't had anywhere near as much success.
On paper I've largely compared with my peers, recent grad. Most of the people I graduated with haven't found a job to go with their degree just yet. A few have, and I'm kind of annoyed that I haven't had anywhere near as much success.
Kinda. I don't want to be stuck in the same country with the same career for the rest of my life. I don't want my job to define me and since I'm still only about to go to university I think I'll be able to plan to avoid falling into that trap. I wonder if other people see it too.
And I've realised that even though I'm only 17 I can't waste this time. I'm horrible at using time wisely but I've taken up stuff like teaching myself a third language, and hopefully I'll end up with really good A Levels (going to Cambridge uni is still a strong possibility and even 6 months ago I would never have expected that to happen).
And I've realised that even though I'm only 17 I can't waste this time. I'm horrible at using time wisely but I've taken up stuff like teaching myself a third language, and hopefully I'll end up with really good A Levels (going to Cambridge uni is still a strong possibility and even 6 months ago I would never have expected that to happen).
All the time. Which is incredibly depressing. It's a good thing I don't use Facebook, otherwise I'd be even more depressed.
Life is a "thing" that we do things with. It's the other way round - life does with us whatever it chooses. And no, this isn't some mystical-religious statement nor deterministic fatalism.
Constantly. I mean, I'm thirty next April and I've been on and off welfare since I was 22 because my depression, anxiety, and mild agoraphobia keeps me from holding down a job. All around me are people I went to school with - most of whom are younger than me - who are doing really well as bankers, accountants, doctors, etc.
All I want to do at this juncture is to at least be able to write out the stories that are constantly crowding my brain, but I can't even do that! D`= /Emo-rant
All I want to do at this juncture is to at least be able to write out the stories that are constantly crowding my brain, but I can't even do that! D`= /Emo-rant
no. we're playing different games. so there's no comparisons to be made. they can do what's best for them, and it's got nothing to do with me. i'm where i need to be. that's all.
A question I've been pondering myself lately, feeling adrift....
I've tried and failed at already something I wanted to do all my life, and now I'm stuck with "Well, what now?"
By spring I'll be done with college, hopefully.... And then I don't know, I'm very fortunate that my family has been all "Just get the fucking degree and we'll give you the time to figure out what you're going to do after."
Only thing I'm thinking about is maybe taking a month or so to travel, journey up through Canada to the west to see the Red Wood trees. To really experience life, I've spent for years staring at this fucking computer screen and I hate it. Once that diploma is in my hand, I want to live.
I've tried and failed at already something I wanted to do all my life, and now I'm stuck with "Well, what now?"
By spring I'll be done with college, hopefully.... And then I don't know, I'm very fortunate that my family has been all "Just get the fucking degree and we'll give you the time to figure out what you're going to do after."
Only thing I'm thinking about is maybe taking a month or so to travel, journey up through Canada to the west to see the Red Wood trees. To really experience life, I've spent for years staring at this fucking computer screen and I hate it. Once that diploma is in my hand, I want to live.
yeah, nothing going on here, there was an internship i just completed, but it only made me feel even more unprepared for the future....i don't know anymore....i'm 22 (nearly 23) still at home and getting more and more irritated, i'm tired of my parents asking why i'm so grumpy all the time, my foul mood stems from the deep seething hatred i have for being stuck in this rut and everybody running down every plan i try to make to get out.
i'm tried of my life going nowhere, i'm sick of people running me down all the time, i'm fed up with this whole festering hell hole i live in, the isolation of it all, the economy here isn't recovering like it is elsewhere, and i can't even hold a job down, let alone get one, i need out.
one thing is certain, i need to change directions with my life.
i'm tried of my life going nowhere, i'm sick of people running me down all the time, i'm fed up with this whole festering hell hole i live in, the isolation of it all, the economy here isn't recovering like it is elsewhere, and i can't even hold a job down, let alone get one, i need out.
one thing is certain, i need to change directions with my life.
yes, but i was in a class with at least 70% retarded assholes, so they are all doing pretty shit, and i feel like a king. i'm not doing that much, part time night shifts at a supermarket on the weekends and uni through the week, and i live with my girlfriend. i'm pretty settled, and i'm doing fairly well, so i enjoy looking at others' misfortune
I have closed my Facebook account since the Draw Muhammad(S.A.W.) Day so I don't know exactly know what my classmates from High School are up to. But I am 23 since November and still in 5th semester of Computer Science because I had to repeat the first year of A' Level due to failing Chemistry and deciding to change it to Computing.
Even now, my courses are lagging behind due to repeating the first C programming course (still I did get a full 4 gpa when i repeated it and again got 4 in c++ and hopefully will be getting another full 4 in assembly).
I do sometimes feel like I am too old because not only am a year or two behind in academics but due to some skin problem, half my mustache is white(and I refuse to shave it off, or dye it every few days).
Even now, my courses are lagging behind due to repeating the first C programming course (still I did get a full 4 gpa when i repeated it and again got 4 in c++ and hopefully will be getting another full 4 in assembly).
I do sometimes feel like I am too old because not only am a year or two behind in academics but due to some skin problem, half my mustache is white(and I refuse to shave it off, or dye it every few days).
I am twenty next year And Have never had a job I am to lazy to do anything to better myself I have also lost any creatitivty I once had
For everyone complaining about no jobs.
Short courses don't always work.
You can try to teach yourself programming (I think that's what Yahtzee started out as then made a few adventure games and eventually getting lucky with his Fable review) or whatever skill you like and do freelance jobs.
Also, here is a list of late bloomers(including the guy who invented KFC) from cracked.com:
http://www.cracked.com/article_19655_5-famous-late-bloomers.html
Short courses don't always work.
You can try to teach yourself programming (I think that's what Yahtzee started out as then made a few adventure games and eventually getting lucky with his Fable review) or whatever skill you like and do freelance jobs.
Also, here is a list of late bloomers(including the guy who invented KFC) from cracked.com:
http://www.cracked.com/article_19655_5-famous-late-bloomers.html