My emotions I guess, well more like my lack of emotions, I mean I come here and I'm not afraid to say that I love something or that I'm scared of something, here I can sort off express any emotion I want, where as in real life it seems I can only express boredom, sarcasm, anger and pity, I never smile, I never cry, I never laugh, I'm just like a rotten emotionless husk there, except I actually really want to help and I care about people, but it's hard to be taken seriously when you always look and sound so indifferent.
I guess that what I mean is that it's hard to be an optimist when I look and sound like pessimist, but I guess it's my fault if I actually laughed at the jokes I find funny, maybe people wouldn't think I'm so bitter and sad, what annoys me most is that even when I'm really exited about something I sound like I'm bored when I explain it, which it's why I like it here, if I type that I'm exited about something people will read it as if I actually was talking excitedly about it, or at leas I think that's how they'll read it, if they don't I really hope they don't tell me.