This. Also the abject terror of being unable to motivate myself, resulting in me dropping behind in uni work, resulting in me consuming internet media to stop thinking about the piles of paper looming over me.MetallicMonkey said:Loneliness, and not really being sure of what I want out of life.
Goodluf said:I'm escaping more or less, myself. Or rather the utter failure I seem to feel like these days. Got no goal in life nor do I know what should I do with my life. I mean I'm studying at a university, but that's only to get some education for a real job, any job, I feel like I'm doiThis too. Although just because nothing you do will matter in the grand scheme of things, doesn't mean there's no point in doing stuff. Everything you do is vitally important to you, however that may not be immediately apparent. Ask whether you want to die, if no then do you want to live comfortably, if yes then unfortunately you have to do something. You can take this further. If you want to live comfortably you need a job. If you want to like the job you do then you have study/work to get that job. So long as you want to live you can theoretically extrapolate the rest.Goodluf said:I'm escaping more or less, myself. Or rather the utter failure I seem to feel like these days. Got no goal in life nor do I know what should I do with my life. I mean I'm studying at a university, but that's only to get some education for a real job, any job, I feel like I'm doing this just becuase of my sense of duty and maybe pressure from society in general. Got some friends to hang out with sometimes, but never had a girlfriend...
All of this seems to be connected to my all around laziness and lack of motivation. It's like, the mind is weak so the flesh isn't willing either or something.
I mean, I see the normal life ahead of me: graduating, getting a job, perhaps a girfriend/wife, maybe getting kids, growing old and in the end, passing away as your crippled, sick body gives in, without really having done anything worthwhile. Depressing thought, these be.
Games and the internet provide a nice little distraction from this feeling of utter incompetence and meaningless existence, for now. Starting to get a bit worried on how I will end up doing in the end...
I hear ya. Sometimes I wonder what's the point in doing anything. It's not like anything I do will matter in the grand scheme of things.CrazyCapnMorgan said:I'm escaping reality. Seriously, reality sucks. Have you seen it lately? Just a friggin fiasco that is.
Now I know all this and I vehemently want to live but I still don't do shit.
Gurk said:I'm curious to know what fellow Escapists are escaping from.