What do you want?
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Given how levelheaded and ambitious you are in the face of something that easily breaks people, you shouldn't worry about that. With such qualities, it should be easy to catch up in terms of your education and get a job.ScurvyDawg said:
You have my respects and my best wishes.
Also i hate you now since my wishes seem trivial in comparison...*grumble* stupid awesome person *mumble*...
Well it's a little silly but my dream is to someday work as a level designer for Valve. Already I'm taking the initiative of learning my way around the Source Developers Kit and I'm going to apply for a course at the AIE.
I guess another one is one I think every teenage boy has, wanting to start a band. I've taken the initiative of getting mates more enthusiastic about the idea. I have been in a band before, it was alot of fun and I'd love to do more of it.
I guess another one is one I think every teenage boy has, wanting to start a band. I've taken the initiative of getting mates more enthusiastic about the idea. I have been in a band before, it was alot of fun and I'd love to do more of it.
I am currently awaiting my Btech first diploma in games development results, depending on the results(i know i got a distinction) i'll be able to go onto the higher Btech National diploma in games development course(i know i'm on the course) where i'll spend 2 years working my arse off.
Good luck on your future by he way, even if you don't get what you want now i'm sure you'll get it if you work hard for it eventually!
Good luck on your future by he way, even if you don't get what you want now i'm sure you'll get it if you work hard for it eventually!
I am also looking for a new place to live and I would like to do a Masters degree overseas soon...
Otherwise I'll tell you what I want? What I really really want?
...I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really
Really really wanna zigazig ha
Best of luck to everyone trying to achieve a goal or change their situation too...
Otherwise I'll tell you what I want? What I really really want?
...I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna really
Really really wanna zigazig ha
Best of luck to everyone trying to achieve a goal or change their situation too...
One month from now, ill start on the main part of my education as a 3d digital artist, i've already passe dthe 3 month fundamentals course which is required to get a spot on teh mian education.
I spend 2 years working around 50 hours a week, mainly evening, night and weekend shifts to save up for the school.
If i'm needed to do something, i will get it done.
But when it's not really neccecery, i'll postpone it over and over, and never get it done untill i really have to. Thats why my appartment is always a mess, and i always have a huge pile of dirty pots, pans cutlery and dishes in my kitchen.
I spend 2 years working around 50 hours a week, mainly evening, night and weekend shifts to save up for the school.
If i'm needed to do something, i will get it done.
But when it's not really neccecery, i'll postpone it over and over, and never get it done untill i really have to. Thats why my appartment is always a mess, and i always have a huge pile of dirty pots, pans cutlery and dishes in my kitchen.
For what is worth, I gave up faculty (and life) for two years to solve my inner problems. By that I mean I had quite A LOT cleaning to do. And I was just one exam away from graduation, but there, at one moment I just cracked. So, I "exiled" myself from the things bothering me, and looked for another perspective. Two years. And I healed (what happened in those two years is another story), got back, graduated, even went to Masters after that. It was very valuable experience, I don't regret a moment from it. Sorry for throwing me in like this, I just wanted to be supportive, and say hold on, everything is going to be alright, you are blessed to become stronger than you ever know.Meemaimoh said:
OT: ummm, I think that for the moment I am fine... I have a thingie I want here and there, but... that's ok.
I wish you all the best, and hope you get what you want and need.
Ah, just realised i didn't actually say what i wanted...hmm...i'm never too sure, i'm constantly stuck between level designer, voice actor and animator for a anime company...hence i choose to do a games development course where you learn how to do level designing, animation and voices for games among other things, i really can't go on thinking i can satisfy all three of them wants but i'll go for as long as i want. Heh.Korsallitro said:
what ever! what ever! I'll do what i want!
joking...but I'm happy i live with my boyfriend (smilingkitsune) and..I'm trying to sort out a family problem once that's done I'll think about whats next ^_^
ahh GCSEs, I remember when they mattered. Just wait till you get to A levels, you laugh at the memories of considering GCSEs stressful.bobby1361 said:
I'm a skeptic, a nihilist, and generally hate a lot of things.
Sounds like I'd be a good comedian if my speaking skills were up to the challenge.
It's pointless to wait for something without actively trying to achieve it, however equally meaningless the results might be. Nobody deserves shit, happiness doesn't magically happen to everyone, and most people live miserably and delude themselves until they die. You neither deserve to live nor deserve to die, shit just happens and there's absolutely no magical worth to you.
As for me, I'm going to study computer sciences next year, and hopefully make it to the end. Then there's the writing to work on, and who knows possibly try to publish it some day. Considering my general disgust for office life, but general interest for computer sciences, there isn't a whole lot of things for me to do after I get my education.
So the next decade is pretty much booked, and what comes after is probably gonna suck anyways.
Sounds like I'd be a good comedian if my speaking skills were up to the challenge.
It's pointless to wait for something without actively trying to achieve it, however equally meaningless the results might be. Nobody deserves shit, happiness doesn't magically happen to everyone, and most people live miserably and delude themselves until they die. You neither deserve to live nor deserve to die, shit just happens and there's absolutely no magical worth to you.
As for me, I'm going to study computer sciences next year, and hopefully make it to the end. Then there's the writing to work on, and who knows possibly try to publish it some day. Considering my general disgust for office life, but general interest for computer sciences, there isn't a whole lot of things for me to do after I get my education.
So the next decade is pretty much booked, and what comes after is probably gonna suck anyways.
bobby1361 said:
Haha I'm the same. Hope you both do well.Nicholas West said:
I want.. the courage to tell a friend how I feel about her. There is just always an excuse not to.. and the thought of losing her friendship if she doesn't feel the same way is just unbearable. She leaves for holidays today and I'm filled with regret that I didn't say anything last night.
I wanted a "normal life", normal job, so on, simply because I was too cynical to aim any higher. That was until the recession came and made finding said job just as hard as chasing crazy dreams. My choice was as such, chase said dream, despite how unlikely it is, or rot for years in a jobcenter, for a job I will probabally hate anyway.
So off to college I went with plans of movie directing.
But it goes alot further than that. If you've already lost interest, don't read on, this is where it becomes mega-post.
So off to college I went with plans of movie directing.
But it goes alot further than that. If you've already lost interest, don't read on, this is where it becomes mega-post.
See, for years I have watched from the sidelines of human existence, considered too "retarded" to take part(to be honest, I understand that, because, technically, I am), watching humanities descent, be it a new phenomenom or simply an increase in something that has happened for ages, into chaos, violence, and intolerance. I knew I had to do something about it. Hell, no-one else was, it's not as if I want to, it just seems to fall to me, and once I became aware of it, not doing anything about it was driving me insane. The main problem being, how?
I have never been good at much. There is only one thing I truly excell (sp?) at. That is scaring people. My years of bullying seemed to give me, if nothing else, an understanding of the true nature of fear. It is, in a way, the purest emotion. A simple human instinct, a defense mechanism. No other emotion fills such a basic evolutionary necessity. My plan is to make scary movies. Laugh, I did when I thought of the idea. But I believe, unlike many big industry critics, that horror can be art, and like all forms of art, it can influence people.
I have a theory about nightmares. They are warnings from our subconcious, telling us things we may have forgotten, or do not want to know. I've found my worst nightmares are warnings about myself, about the potential that exists in us all, for want of a less dramatic term, for evil. Here's my plan. I create "nightmares" about the nature of humanity itself. Warning people to be mindful of their actions, showing society the ugly image in the mirror. I doubt i will have been the first to try, many classic horrors have done the same, but I believe I can do it just right, as arrogant as it sounds just enough to wake people up. If it doesn't work, at least I can be satisfied in the fact that I tried to change things where so many ignored it. And of course, whether it be world changing or not, I will have made some great movies. Like I said, it's gotta beat sitting in a jobcenter, right?
I have never been good at much. There is only one thing I truly excell (sp?) at. That is scaring people. My years of bullying seemed to give me, if nothing else, an understanding of the true nature of fear. It is, in a way, the purest emotion. A simple human instinct, a defense mechanism. No other emotion fills such a basic evolutionary necessity. My plan is to make scary movies. Laugh, I did when I thought of the idea. But I believe, unlike many big industry critics, that horror can be art, and like all forms of art, it can influence people.
I have a theory about nightmares. They are warnings from our subconcious, telling us things we may have forgotten, or do not want to know. I've found my worst nightmares are warnings about myself, about the potential that exists in us all, for want of a less dramatic term, for evil. Here's my plan. I create "nightmares" about the nature of humanity itself. Warning people to be mindful of their actions, showing society the ugly image in the mirror. I doubt i will have been the first to try, many classic horrors have done the same, but I believe I can do it just right, as arrogant as it sounds just enough to wake people up. If it doesn't work, at least I can be satisfied in the fact that I tried to change things where so many ignored it. And of course, whether it be world changing or not, I will have made some great movies. Like I said, it's gotta beat sitting in a jobcenter, right?
Simple, I want love.
Hard to attain since no one has ever claimed feelings for me, I've never been on a date, there are barely any girls who have the same interests and I have met approximately two people in my life who properly understand my way of thinking. Only recently has it been suggested by anyone that I actually deserve someone.
Here's FML I made up:
Today, I realised that the female who ahs shown me the most love in my life in my now dead cat. FML
Of course, I am merely 16, so I will get lectures about why I shouldn't whine about my life, since there's tons of it left. Even though, everyone else is out finding someway to enjoy their lives, whereas I have spent my summer so far indoors because I have simply nothing to do, and my friends, who can actually come up with fun stuff to do, never invite me.
Hard to attain since no one has ever claimed feelings for me, I've never been on a date, there are barely any girls who have the same interests and I have met approximately two people in my life who properly understand my way of thinking. Only recently has it been suggested by anyone that I actually deserve someone.
Here's FML I made up:
Today, I realised that the female who ahs shown me the most love in my life in my now dead cat. FML
Of course, I am merely 16, so I will get lectures about why I shouldn't whine about my life, since there's tons of it left. Even though, everyone else is out finding someway to enjoy their lives, whereas I have spent my summer so far indoors because I have simply nothing to do, and my friends, who can actually come up with fun stuff to do, never invite me.
I remember being that way when I was 16, and for some time after that too. I lived in a village, and I was a geek among a society of non-geeks. A good chunk of my "socialisation" was done online. In a weird way though, it was WoW that gave me the ability to help myself develop and integrate better. At this time I was at uni, which allowed me to at least have some half-friends among my peers. (The other thing that helped was finding that yes, indeed I was not "normal", which made me understand more about my life lol).Palademon said:
It's hard what you're going through right now, but when you get to specialise more in life (e.g. go for further education, move towards a career you want) you're more likely to meet people who you can get along with and who are able to understand you.
Don't give up just yet
I'm one of those oddities who has no life goals. The only two I've truly had is being a programmer and having a house, and I've done both.
I don't give much of a care of what happens, as long as my life isn't going completely down the toilet.
Made interviews kinda fun, when I was asked with where I'm aiming in life. Though answering the way I did has helped me end up in a job where I enjoy working with the people in it.
I don't give much of a care of what happens, as long as my life isn't going completely down the toilet.
Made interviews kinda fun, when I was asked with where I'm aiming in life. Though answering the way I did has helped me end up in a job where I enjoy working with the people in it.