What has been your most humbling experience?

[Kaarnage]

Whilst growing up, I was bullied. No big deal, but as it started at a young age, I grew adapting to it.

The bullying is because I was slightly smarter than my peers; whilst they were outside playing football, I stayed inside reading an encyclopaedia. Eventually I got sick of the abuse and went into "Kiss my ass" mode. I became a sarcastic, narcissistic stoic who could actually defend himself as opposed to just hiding behind a book (think Gregory House (House MD)).

So this is how I grew up. Eventually I made friends with fellow metalheads, the bullying stopped and everything was great... Only I was stupid enough to keep portraying the "Toughguy" attitude. It didn't appear to offend my friends all that much so I didn't even think to change it. All this transpired even though on the inside, me being a complete asshole was killing me - so much that I eventually fell to alcoholism (This has since been dealt with though)

Then, last month, my girlfriend of almost a year broke up with me. I was devastated, although I knew that it was because I can be horrible at times - not because I want to be but because that's how I forced myself to evolve; it just came naturally. Through my tears (crying was also something long forgotten since I donned the drapery of indifference), I turned to my friends for comfort and help in getting back on my feet... only they were no longer my friends, but her friends. The way I act cost me the woman I love, my friends, and my mental health. Now all I have is ONE (Yes, count it, ONE friend), a major case of depression and a longing to drink again.

Needless to say. After all this, I think it's time I change who I am.


So that was my most humbling experience - losing the person I loved through my own faults.

What was yours?

EDIT: Silly spelling errors.

 

[Erja_Perttu]

Are you sure you weren't just watching House and listening to heavy metal on LSD again? If not, why the hell don't you have your own sitcom?

 

[Nickolai77]

Are you sure you weren't just watching House and listening to heavy metal on LSD again? If not, why the hell don't you have your own sitcom?

That sounds pretty awesome in an illegal and unhealthy way XD

Erm, humbling moment.. *thinks*

I remember walking down this dark ally once and a cloud in the sky parted to reveal a bright full moon which quite literally illuminated everything around me in a white luminescent light. Amazed, i continued to walk out of the ally and onto the street (i only live in a lightly built up area) and continued to gaze at the moon and the stars above. It was then that i realised that i myself was apart of the universe as much as the moon and stars were. Taking that thought further, i then realised that i was a tiny conscious entity, a tiny part of the universe, looking back on itself in admiration. I felt a sense of unity with the stars above, as well as a sense of both insignificance and wonder- wonder at myself and the rest of the universe.

I suppose that was sort of humbling...it was certainly revelationary.

 

[Kaarnage]

Are you sure you weren't just watching House and listening to heavy metal on LSD again? If not, why the hell don't you have your own sitcom?

FOX are working on creating one right now. Jeremy Irons is taking the lead.