If I were to single out the one thing that gets to me more than anything else, the one thing that brings me down, it would be to watch someone else harmed, hurt, killed and not be able to do anything to stop it. That I would say is my biggest weakness above anything else. That to me, is the single worst thing that anyone can endure, and I would much rather it be me than have to watch someone else have it happen to them and be helpless to stop it. I feel I can take it happening to me, but not happening to someone else.
In terms of personality flaws, I am sure there are plenty more but these I think are my worst:
1)I am terribly impatient. Everyone always told me " patience was a virtue" but I can only see it as " why is everyone wasting so much time?!"
2)I get extremely irritated by certain personality types, such as certain anime fans, overly emotional people, materialistic people, people who like boy bands, and a few others. I find I lack empathy for them and have found I can be quite rude to them and often downright mean. I am " brutally honest" so I do not pretend to be polite. It is fine they like what they do, but when I tell them I don't want to hear about it, and they keep going on and on it triggers a very bad response from me. I honestly loathe them so much at times I try very hard and find it difficult to control my violent tendencies in their presence, so it is better I remove myself from them before I smack them. My fight or flight defense mechanism is to fight rather than flee, and for some strange reason these personalities seem to trigger that. In order to prevent that, I get myself away from them as quickly as possible, and as long as they don't prevent me from excusing myself from them, they will be fine.
3)My fight or flight mechanism itself. I am usually a very laid back happy person. Some even say I am the happiest person they know. The problem is my defense mechanism itself. If someone grabs my arm, or gets in my face, corners me, or makes me feel trapped I do not yell, scream, argue, or anything like that. My reflex is to punch them, and I " snap" and can beat the crap out of them without even realizing I am doing it. This has caused many problems when I was younger and I found it terribly embarrassing. It caused me to hit my 4th grade teacher when she grabbed my arm, It caused me to get kicked from the cheer squad when I broke another cheerleaders nose when she tried to pull my socks up, and caused me great embarrassment growing up. It is so unlike my personality, and I have to try really hard to remove myself from situations to prevent it from happening. I am glad though it has been many years since it has happened, but since I am aware of it, I have to work very hard to make sure it doesn't get triggered.
4)People have told me one of my biggest flaws is that I am " Ms. Perfect." I usually succeed at everything I do, when I do things I do well, and people tend to dislike people like that. I have won all the competitions and contests I enter, so sometimes, I have intentionally messed up so others could be better than me at things because I don't want them to feel like that towards me. That doesn't really make it better though, and my boyfriend called me out on it when he could tell I was throwing board games just so he would win and that made him even more angry about it because he knew I was intentionally doing it. He won't even play me at games anymore unless we are on the same team. When I play games, I almost always win. Board games, video games, even in many sports. People tend to really hate people like that, so I have to try to not win sometimes just so I won't be viewed that way.
5)I am selfish with chocolate. If it is the last piece of dark chocolate with pecans and walnuts, don't think I am going to let you have it. Anything else is fine, but not the chocolate.