What should I do?

[WouldYouKindly]

Sounds like a lot of the symptoms of depression.

I recommend doing something you enjoy. Short of that, exercise can give you a natural high which will make you feel much better. Even going out for walks has helped me with some bouts of depression. Writing can also help but only if you actually like writing and don't mind writing depressing shit.

EDIT: These are all non-professional. If you try this stuff and it doesn't help at all, seek a psychiatrist.

 

[Jenitals]

there's always suicide. just saying

That's one step I'll never take. My mom has to deal with enough without adding that onto her. I've been suicidal before, I seriously considered going through with it, but I'm glad I never did.

Don't let some one guilt you out of suicide. it's your life. it's your decision. and think of this, when your dead you won't know anything about "hurting" people because you will be at peace

That's sick, utterly revolting.

Do not take in what this person says.

Like everyone else, I'd diagnose clinical depression, but I'm not a doctor. Go. See. Your. G.P.

Anti-depressants are not a bad thing, they genuinely help, not drastically of course, they're not life-changing but they help. Your mood will improve and you'll find getting through the day much easier and less of a chore. Everyone deserves to a chance to live rather than survive. You are no exception.

Also, clinical depression is caused by hormonal abnormailities induced by chemical imblance, meaning that what you are going through is by no means your fault.

 

[thebobmaster_v1legacy]

Hmm. Honestly, I'm surprised that it took ten post for the first insensitive comment, and another 9 after that for someone to insult me directly. That's gotta be some kind of record on here.

Like I said, I know I probably should broach the subject to someone closer to me, but I don't have a significant other, or really any friends. And I've ranted my sister's ear off enough. Which leaves my mom and...well...see the original post for my problems with that idea.

As for writing, like the Bioshock fan a couple posts up suggested, I do enjoy writing. In fact, some of the few things I still enjoy doing are online RPs. It's just...writing to myself doesn't do me any good. I need an audience. Hell, that's about half the reason I put up reviews, so people can read them and (hopefully) comment. And writing depressing crap would be like listening to Linkin Park. It's a bit annoying reading about someone else's drama (hypocrisy, AWAAAAAYYYY!), and really, I don't have a ton of writing skill.

 

[EeveeElectro]

Mhmm, I feel like that sometimes. Wake up, go to work, get home, cook and clean because the boyfriend doesn't lift a finger round the house, go on the Internet, go to bed. Wake up, go to work... wash, rinse repeat. I don't really go out because I'm not much of a night person so I don't have any change of pace.
I suppose it's getting out of that mentality of "my life is going in pointless circles" like I used to think.
I don't know what you're like with friends, maybe you can start hanging round with them? If you have a best friend, you could always try talk to them.
I know how annoying it can be with people not helping you, I usually don't tell my mum my problems because she thinks screaming at me is the best option.
Maybe even take up a new hobby. I started reading comic books just so I can do something new and it's a small savior.

Hope everything works out for you.

 

[Dr. Pepper Unlimited]

I'm one of those 'suck it up' people. It only takes about a month to get over knee surgery, unless you're very fat or lazy.

Wow, no. Just...no. I had a knee injury related to my current job that put it in a metal brace for three months before I could put full weight on it and walk normally. I didn't even have surgery. Knee surgery often takes a great deal of time to recover from, pending what is done, so please don't throw everyone into the "fat" or "lazy" category by chalking up assumptions based on misinformation.

 

[chaosyoshimage]

Whoa, we have the same exact problems (Except for knee surgery and you have a job). I've been out of school for two years, I was hoping to go to community college and get a crappy job, but I don't have a car and live in the middle of nowhere. I don't really have any friends because I never was able to form close relationships (I think I have social anxiety...) Day in and day out, life's the same repetitive routine. I seem to have mood swings from time to time, I'm alright right now, but yesterday and the day before that I broke down into tears when no one was looking.

I'd look for help, but I'm on my parents' dime and they have enough problems on their hands as it is. I need to get a car too, so that's another thing I have to leach off of my dad for. I wish I was self efficient and could live life how I wanted with a little variety. Sorry, I'm not being helpful, all I can do is remind you that you aren't alone...

 

[thebobmaster_v1legacy]

Whoa, we have the same exact problems (Except for knee surgery and you have a job).

Actually, I really don't. I go over to my mom's boyfriend's house and clean each week for ~3 hours at $20 an hour. That's not enough to really call a job.

But hey, at least I'm not the only one in this situation, except you at least have two parents to help. My mom and dad divorced when I was less than a year old, and he lives too far away to really get help from.

I don't know what you're like with friends, maybe you can start hanging round with them? If you have a best friend, you could always try talk to them.

That's part of the problem. I don't have any real-world friends. Just a few people I chat with online.

 

[chaosyoshimage]

Whoa, we have the same exact problems (Except for knee surgery and you have a job).

Actually, I really don't. I go over to my mom's boyfriend's house and clean each week for ~3 hours at $20 an hour. That's not enough to really call a job.

But hey, at least I'm not the only one in this situation, except you at least have two parents to help. My mom and dad divorced when I was less than a year old, and he lives too far away to really get help from.

Well, it's better than nothing I guess. My parents are divorced too, but I see my mom all the time (Live with my dad but he's really hard to talk to about things), she doesn't have any money or anything though, and the fact they're divorced makes it really hard to coordinate things in my life since they never talk to each other. Such as the whole car thing, I didn't even get my license until a month ago...