Why am i such a coward?

[spartan1077]

I dont know if youre being honest but you come across as one of these "im so super tough and hardcore cus i dont care if people die >:C" on the internet kinda people. Im sorry if this is not the case. However if you honestly wouldnt help people cus you somehow feel "better" than that, and want to observe like some omnipotent watcher it kinda just makes you a terrible terrible person. I dont think you would do that, not if it really happened. I held someone in my arms while their blood leaked all over the freakin floor from their cracked skull and spine, they fell out a window. You dont mean that. And if you really do, i pity you.

I dont mean to come off offencive. I just found the fact you seem to think being callous and cruel to people is cool or a good thing to do offencive. Ive been in this situation. It was a close loved one. I dont find such ideas very amusing or impressive at all.

I am being honest. I don't think it's cool or 'awesome' that I wouldn't go out of my way to help someone on the street. I also can't help that I feel I'm better than other people. Of course, this is just my mind talking. I've never been in the situation you've described and I pity you that you've had to go through that. I'm sorry if I offended you, but that's the way I think at certain points. That everyone is just like...a lab rat in an experiment. And someone needs to file the observations. I don't always think like this. There's a side to me that's very emotional. That's the side that's typing this right now...and I feel like a douche for having thought all that at that time. Once again, sorry for offending you if I did and I feel really bad that you had to go through that.

 

[BiscuitTrouser]

I dont know if youre being honest but you come across as one of these "im so super tough and hardcore cus i dont care if people die >:C" on the internet kinda people. Im sorry if this is not the case. However if you honestly wouldnt help people cus you somehow feel "better" than that, and want to observe like some omnipotent watcher it kinda just makes you a terrible terrible person. I dont think you would do that, not if it really happened. I held someone in my arms while their blood leaked all over the freakin floor from their cracked skull and spine, they fell out a window. You dont mean that. And if you really do, i pity you.

I dont mean to come off offencive. I just found the fact you seem to think being callous and cruel to people is cool or a good thing to do offencive. Ive been in this situation. It was a close loved one. I dont find such ideas very amusing or impressive at all.

I am being honest. I don't think it's cool or 'awesome' that I wouldn't go out of my way to help someone on the street. I also can't help that I feel I'm better than other people. Of course, this is just my mind talking. I've never been in the situation you've described and I pity you that you've had to go through that. I'm sorry if I offended you, but that's the way I think at certain points. That everyone is just like...a lab rat in an experiment. And someone needs to file the observations. I don't always think like this. There's a side to me that's very emotional. That's the side that's typing this right now...and I feel like a douche for having thought all that at that time. Once again, sorry for offending you if I did and I feel really bad that you had to go through that.

Its ok. I know you didnt intentionally try and offend anyone. I also accept you cant help how you think. Dont worry about offending me. You just unintentionally brought back bad memories and i reacted quite emotionally. Its ok to have a different point of view.