Doclector said:
Before i get started, i just want to say that I don't want this to come across as an emo thread, although I'm not feeling great at the moment, I largely just feel curious as to this:
Why do so many people have such faith in the "good" in humanity?
See, I've studied history alot. I've found that we seem to spend 90% of our time on pointless warfare. Even all those great steps we made; mostly made in the name of war, or in the course of war.
If that were historically accurate, the human race would have never gone past hunter gatherer societies. A good portion of our time on this earth has been spent developing civilization, technology, and improving our chances of survival. Most of these advancements happened during times of peace, which are far more frequent than times of war, overall anyway.
Also, it seems 90% of the people I have met in my life have been murderous bastards. See, I'm not wanted here. I'm not meant to be alive, I'm an evolutionary dead end. I'm faulty, and they hate me because of it, want me dead. That's how evolution works, right? The faulty elements must die before they breed, otherwise it brings in another generation of faulty beings.
How do you know that these people are murderous? Do they have a tendency to kill people? If so, you should have called the police by now. Have they made attempts on your life before?
Also, you really need to do more research on evolution.
What makes you think that you are not wanted here, or are a "dead end"?
Evolution isn't about one individual person being "superior" to another, but rather it's about ability of certain biological features developed by species to thrive in it's environment. Such as crying, for example. Creatures that were able to express physical pain through tears, rather than just verbally, were more likely to survive hunting parties or in battle, since they were less likely to make themselves look like a venerable target. Overall, I'd say homo sapiens is doing pretty good.
There's no such things a "faulty" person. That's not even pseudoscience.
It sounds like you have self esteem issues, more than anything.
Such trials in life have made me very resilient, but it's me against most of the people i will ever meet. I don't expect to die a natural death, so I do all I can to improve things for other people like me while I'm still here. It isn't a nice way to live, but I suppose in a way I deserve it.
You should seek the services of a psychological professional, immediately.
In all likelihood you, along with most of the human population, will not die a violent death.
If you think this is how life works for you, then you may in fact be a paranoid depressive.
This evolutionary system is terrifyingly effective, but certainly not nice. Not ethical, not morally right. So why? Why do people have such faith in a species that is as successful as it is because it is cruel?
Because it's not a system, it is a natural occurrence, like rain or sleet.
Humankind did not become the dominant species on the planet by being cruel. It survived by being able to work in large groups, and think at a higher level than every other kind of animal. Yes, conflict over resources and ideology have caused much in the way of destruction and chaos.
Ultimately however, it is man's ability to function in a group for a mutual interest that makes him more likely to survive. Compassion and kindness exists, and it exists for a good reason. Without these things, man would be unable to raise children capable of surviving at a higher standard or be able to assist other members of the species to survive.
Cruelty doesn't make one more likely to survive in the long term.
If anything, it just makes you more likely to fail.
At the end of the day, you need to see someone, because I'm afraid that you may be suffering from a kind of paranoid depression. I'm not saying this would need to be medicated, most cases of any given mental disturbance don't actually require that stuff.
However, it wouldn't be a bad idea just to talk to someone.