Because I'd meet Rasputin. Sonuvabitch creeps me out >.>
Also because I haven't yet seen the tank to which I can honestly say: "that, right there, is the purest form of war - bring my hat".
Oh, and because I had a few brushes with death. (ok, 2 - a speeding train missed me by a few inches, and I had some serious pain in me chest - considering that heart trouble is the No. 1# death cause in our family, that's really bad news for me) When you think you might just die any second, you really, really don't give a shit about any Nietsche Wannabeeness or whatever. You just want to survive.