Paragon Fury said:
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That was embarrassing to type out.
Nah, seems like basic sexual fantasy fulfillment to me. Like I said, your brain will come up with some lame ass reason to hook you up with the fantasy partner for the evening, and it doesn't really worry too much about political correctness or narrative consistency. Though I would possibly theorize that you watch a lot of anime/manga/hentai? Considering the images you showed were very anime-esque, that might've colored your dreams. I've watched my share of anime and hentai, and they have some very un-PC justifications for how people end up boinking each other. The "you are obligated to pleasure this person as a servant" theme is alive and well in that form of entertainment, and they almost always are insanely into it. They live to please your Onichan. *said in kawaii voice* So yeah, if you watch a lot of that, it's probably bleeding over into your dreams.
As to feeling embarrassed about it, don't worry about it.
I once had a dream where I ran into an old highschool buddy of mine, and he was a transgender woman. In the dream, this was totally reasonable to me, and we had a very lively and enthusiastic sexual encounter. When I woke up I remember thinking 2 things.
1. Huh, that's odd, I was never really close friends with that guy, and I haven't thought of him in 20 years. I mean we never really hung out, I knew him, and we had friends in common, but he wasn't like one of my bros. He was just a guy I knew and reasonably thought was cool.
2. Why did I think he was transgender? He never came across as confused about his gender identity, and he never displayed any traits or mannerisms that would imply a hidden desire to be a woman. So as best as I can tell, my brain just decided to assign him a feminine gender identity for the purposes of my sex fantasy.
So don't feel embarrassed about your dreams, we've all got strange things that go on in our heads.