Viral_Lola said:
Well said my good man. Well said. Like I said the reasons why I would love to be able to redo my life is that there are some choices that I regret and opportunities that I passed up for one reason or another. There are some people that I lost that I would like to go back and be able to tell them how much they mean to me. Words and actions that I said and did in a fit of rage that I can't apologize for or take make. Yeah, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and even though I'm barely in my twenties, the those thoughts have started to get to me.
*sigh* Much as I'd like to believe that... I find myself in a sad place when I hear people say that, thinking 'short for
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, or makes you easier to kill in the future'.
Being naturally emotionally frail, I find it difficult to get through my days, sometimes, when my mind decides to flit back to those parts of my life that fucked me/us up. I like to think that those periods were good for me, and as much as I wish they were, I can't help thinking that with just one small change, everything would've been better. However, for all the crap I've dragged myself through, I know that were I any less of a man than I already am, it would've been a whole lot worse.
That said, I suppose that as I am, I do not so much as live now as exist.