CIA said:
ThrobbingEgo said:
Whenever I have weird dreams it usually just means I had too many chili peppers.
Not very Freudian of you.
Good, that guy overthought things to death, and had a nasty tendancy to use copious amounts of data to 'prove' what he wanted.
Anyway, i used to have a long reccuring nightmare, plagued me for about 5 years on and off - There was three parts and i think each one represented a different fear, and each scared the hell out of me in a way i couldnt understand for a long time.
(keeping this short because of the amount of times i've typed it)
1) The dream starts in a picturesce house in a meadow, a yellow balloon floats out of the window and drifts into the air for a while before approaching this monolithic grimy, almost steampunk, machine. Its made of huge gears and thick slabs of iron and belching oil as if it were alive. The balloon drifts between the gears and is crushed instantly, the peices falling into the belly of the machine while the 'camera' matches its decent from the outside. I interpreted this as a fear of the inevitable, things i wanted to aviod in life that were going to happen anyway, the cheif of which definately being death at the time.
2) I'm inside of bowels of the horrible metal thing now, the ligh is dim and red and the ground is coated with a thick layer of dirt and sludge. Theres a number of monsters running around having some sort of battle, they look somewhat like raptors, I'm caught in the center as they scurry around killing each other. I'd hiding behind some corrigated ironscared almost to the point where i dont dare to breath. The fear is unmistakeably a primal one, simply, holy shit these guys will kill me in a blink of an eye.
3) Into the center of this skirmish appears a blue-white beam of light, its blinding but im pretty sure its killing whatever was down here. Suddenly im just a camera again, following the beam of light upwards out of the metal beast, the light beam is extending upwards in a perfect line, it meets another beam, which i believe to be its opposite end, theres an even more blinding light and the camera twirls around the beam and into the center. Everything is pure white, i wake up sweating profusely, may have screamed one or twice too. Anyway this part first showed up when i was starting to come to terms with my religious standpoint, i see it as the fear of divine retribution, that im wrong in my belief in atheism and mr. god isnt too happy with either that or how i live my life and that i'll be screwed for ever and ever.
Anyway, my view on his sort of stuff is firm now so i dont see much chance of it coming back, if my theory was right anyway. Also, grr, my dream fits neatly in with some of freud's theories, god i hate it when that guy seems right.