Your True Self
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Online: I'm the Harlequin, whose jokes aren't funny, and whose humor is not wanted.
I wear many masks, but strive not to lie.
I am also bad at poetry.
In real life...eh. I know when to keep my mouth shut, and when to take action.
I wear many masks, but strive not to lie.
I am also bad at poetry.
In real life...eh. I know when to keep my mouth shut, and when to take action.
I change my personality depending on who I'm talking to. Offline, I'm pretty quiet and reserved, but I can be quite extroverted whenever I feel I know what I'm talking about. Typically once I get going my personality tends to default to a fairly absurd, excitable joker, but oddly, despite the fact that all my personalities trend that way, it's not who I am. It tires me out incredibly to keep that act up, but I can't really help it. Mostly I'm happy when I'm on my own and I can interact with people as and when I choose to. I guess that sounds very 'low self esteem' but that's not what I mean - I simply mean I'm at my happiest when I'm on my own, or with very few people around me. Oddly, I am pretty much always available over IM - despite me considering it a great way to talk to people (because you can consider your responses, not rushing, but it's still a lot faster than email or text) because I can drop the OTT act more easily over IM.
In person as well I can be pretty scathing, when prompted, although I'm generally very nice.
In person as well I can be pretty scathing, when prompted, although I'm generally very nice.
I'm the same here as you see me in real life. I don't really see the point in having an internet mask. I mean, I know why some people change their identity so that they can speak more openly than they usually do, but why can't you do that with your true self? This is why I'm the same type of person on the internet and in real life.
I'm pretty much just as weird in real life as i am online. I may be a little more open with it here, though in real life i talk too much so i guess it balances out.
I'm the same guy, the way I speak even works in to how I type. I imagine that does create communication issues though because I type in my local dialect, which mainly involves a lot of swearing and emphasizing things through ways such as ".. as fuck". The only thing that's different about me on teh internetz is that I have more time to think about what I'm gonna say and the ability to edit things, so everything is tidy.
Any other day I would have said I was the same, for the most part, in real life. Accepting, perhaps, the fact that I find much more ease in explaining my opinions through text than actual conversation.
However, today I sort of realized that I am much more withdrawn from conversation in general, and have difficulty discussing serious issues in person than I am online. In addition to this, it's a lot easier to stifle one's annoying tendency to start yelling when one becomes overly excited by a given topic. It's not that I become angry, so much as I become incapable of controlling the volume of my voice. I don't know why this is, since, for all intents and purposes, it's a horrible trait that I've been trying to remedy for several years now, but it's a reality.
Online, however, I find that I'm much more clinical, as well as much more adept at explaining or discussing a given concept. In all honesty, oft have I wanted to speak and act more like I do online, and more specifically, on this forum.
However, today I sort of realized that I am much more withdrawn from conversation in general, and have difficulty discussing serious issues in person than I am online. In addition to this, it's a lot easier to stifle one's annoying tendency to start yelling when one becomes overly excited by a given topic. It's not that I become angry, so much as I become incapable of controlling the volume of my voice. I don't know why this is, since, for all intents and purposes, it's a horrible trait that I've been trying to remedy for several years now, but it's a reality.
Online, however, I find that I'm much more clinical, as well as much more adept at explaining or discussing a given concept. In all honesty, oft have I wanted to speak and act more like I do online, and more specifically, on this forum.
First of all, that's quite a terrific question if you ask me.Julianking93 said:
I must you right there with a little side note: at the time being I'm not even sure how or what the true me is. I mean I'm still forming my personality and my moral values. I used to be a really nice, do-gooder, pacifistic, all loving goofy little kid, but that all drastically changed after I first tasted victory and became obsessed with it. I wanted to be on first place in every department. And so my pride began to grow. It reached a level at which I wasn't going to do anything that didn't express how cool I am.
Now for some fun facts about this pride of mine:
-it drove me to do really good things, such as lose weight and do sports(swimming, tennis, skying, hiking, karate, you name it although I think that's about it), learn good in school(I was known and respected by all the teachers and my values were recognised even by the seniors)
-it was only to prove to myself that I could do things; I never wanted to show anyone how awesome I am(because I though those "lowlifes" couldn't even comprehend my "genius")
Oh and the really funny part is that I used my rough exterior to hide a really scared and shy me, for the world.
But then I realised how much of a loner I was, and how much I craved human contact, and this was the first nail in my "Depression Coffin". The next were:
-my first "love"(she was like a mini me, and if you've paid attention you know how much pride and narcissism I had) which I never even had the chance to kiss; she turned out to be quite suicidal(just like I was about to become) and unfortunately I doubt that anything I did to make her better worked(she moved out of the country)
-the second was my second GF(she turned out to be a bisexual, unloyal cheater, that admitted to have been a satanist)
-the third (you guessed it), a girlfriend with cancer(although I met her after I had began treating my depression, and she got sick when I was getting better); FYI she lived and is quite happy with her life, oh and now we're just friends(actually she may have forgotten about me);
Anyway skipping the boring, depressing part, I feel terrific now and I'm less of a egocentric-overachiever, but I'm still now sure how the true me is(and I doubt I'll find out any time soon).
Ow...hoho! Here comes some more crazy.
I don't lie on the internet/Escapist about my life(and I rarely turn away from dropping a bag of "my life"-text-diarrhoea), but I lie many times about my opinions.
Why? Because many of them(I realised that a list would be too long) would get me banned or at the very least provoke a very bad vibe from the community. Momentarily I don't wish to leave this community so why risk leaving, by expressing myself freely?
To sum things up: I don't know because I'm a shy introverted person that tries to change that part of him, by alternating between egocentric-overachiever and pacifistic, all loving fool.
P.S: Sorry for my atrociously poor writing skills(I make no sense whatsoever, don't I? + I didn't bother to put any comas... sorry), big wall of text, and for wasting your time.
Same person.
Major difference: I don't speak full sentences in English in a casual talk, since i can express myself WAY better in portuguese it can be a big difference. But I don't consider myself made of 2 personalities.
Major difference: I don't speak full sentences in English in a casual talk, since i can express myself WAY better in portuguese it can be a big difference. But I don't consider myself made of 2 personalities.
I'm pretty much the same, except a lot more open about liking video games because the most pretty much everybody plays around here is Madden. >.>
I have yet to meet my true self... but my online self is the closest to it...
In reality, Im socially withdrawn...
In reality, Im socially withdrawn...