Are You Happy?
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I'm transsexual, so that's a no by default. I am absolutely disgusted with being , and it's preventing me from enjoying things as much as I could be.
Life as I live it isn't too terrible, just boring.
Life as I live it isn't too terrible, just boring.
I feel... sorta happy I guess, I eat on a regular basis, I have a roof over my head, i have a job... and i'm not dead... so yeah content is the word there.
Well, it all boils down to whether you decide to be happy with yourself or not. I have days in which I feel that I want to change everything, while on other occasions, I feel like I wouldn't change a thing.
But to answer your question, I have my days, but I'm happy with the person I am.
But to answer your question, I have my days, but I'm happy with the person I am.
I like to think so, yes. I mean, my life surely isn't some black abyss of misery and suffering, and I don't feel the need to say it is to justify wearing skinny jeans (largely because I don't wear skinny jeans). Sure, I have my share of pain, but so does everyone, I'm not going to let a rough patch or a bad day push me into depression.
Grade school was the worst experience of my life and I ate my feelings. I was never obese, but I was heavy enough for it to be noticeable. Because of how much I hated who I was, I became very sarcastic and grew a thick (metaphorical) skin. Being a teenaged girl is shit, especially when the only thing I was proud of, my high marks in class and my drive to get a great career in science, weren't supported by pop culture, especially for females. People thought it was weird that I only had a few friends and that I liked to be alone. But then I rediscovered gaming. My dad got a 360 for the holidays and I started playing Mass Effect. What I found was a new group of friends, a female protagonist who wasn't treated differently for never growing a penis in the womb, and I no longer ate to feel happy.
Yes, I still have some social anxieties and few friends, but I like me, and I like having only a few friends. I'm much more confident, I open up to people, and people like me more because of it. I'm still heavily sarcastic, but so's the rest of my family so it's an environmental thing. I'm not skinny, but these days, I eat when I need to, not because I can't stop myself. And I think I look damn good.
It's not all because of gaming. I've always gamed in some capacity. I was a helpless Sims 1 and then 2 addict for months at a time. When I was 8, Diablo 2 ensnared me like no game has since. When Donkey Kong Country came out I played it even though it was too difficult for such a young person to understand. I think gaming was waiting for me to rediscover it. It was what I needed to help me transition to adulthood.
Too much?
Yes, I still have some social anxieties and few friends, but I like me, and I like having only a few friends. I'm much more confident, I open up to people, and people like me more because of it. I'm still heavily sarcastic, but so's the rest of my family so it's an environmental thing. I'm not skinny, but these days, I eat when I need to, not because I can't stop myself. And I think I look damn good.
It's not all because of gaming. I've always gamed in some capacity. I was a helpless Sims 1 and then 2 addict for months at a time. When I was 8, Diablo 2 ensnared me like no game has since. When Donkey Kong Country came out I played it even though it was too difficult for such a young person to understand. I think gaming was waiting for me to rediscover it. It was what I needed to help me transition to adulthood.
Too much?
(Great thread)hyperhammy said:
Yes I am, most of the time. It took a long time for me to get there, but yes, life is good.
I have atrocious skin (South African sun + British complexion = bad) and a heart condition, but yeah I'm happy with everything else. No serious problems, dense, strong bones, I look decent enough. So yeah, and I'm happy I have a strong moral compass, but not happy that I still lie like a drunk amnesiac...
This girl tells me she loves me. I know who I am, and I don't try to be anyone else. I give my all to helping people in need. I'm really fucking happy, guys...
No, not too much at all, yours is a very interesting and quite inspiring story. Where video games has helped, rather then hindered. Congratulations on finding yourself, really, that is something those who are ingrained into pop-culture cannot understand, and will never be. Themselves.Sydust said:
Ahh. Sappy replies. Can't go wrong there!
