You missed the part where I said I lost my membership(banned from) the most prominent websites on the internet for admitting to my feelings. Where they called me shallow and superficial and a lot of other things. Telling me that caring about anything other than gameplay is stupid and embarrassing, and that anyone who feels remotely otherwise isn't worthy of calling themselves a gamer. I sacrificed my right to a good anime forum by espousing my feelings about video games(unless there is another good one out there I haven't found, which I doubt). That experience changed me, and I've tried to learn from it. If it were to be expected of me to not be shallow, and to only care about gameplay and variety, I would certainly expect the same from others.A Weakgeek said:Just join some otaku/weeaboo forum, they are filled with people praising everything Japanese and preaching how it is the superior culture. I'm not saying you are like this, but atleast you'd have someone who shares your views on these games.
I don't know what to think anymore. If I say I prefer Japanese style video games and aesthetics, I'm destined to get ostracized and banned from most places, not least of which anime forums themselves. And can be expected to be called Autistic, bigoted, obsessed, shallow, superficial, embarrassing, and so forth. But I don't appear to have a luxury of expecting something similar of others. Just a double standard. Or at least from my experience.
Well, I don't know what to do exactly. I'm not sure what to say about things. I don't know what to say about my experiences that won't make people irritated at me and blame me of having some kind of victim complex. I'm not exactly sure how to go about liking what I like and attempting to talk about it anymore. I know that I am beginning to feel more and more alienated as an American who likes what I do. And I'm becoming more an more afraid to be honest with my feelings, and less and less confident in how to vocalize them.
I have such a headache even trying to sort all these things out in my mind right now.