Simulord, I've been on this site for a while now, and you're on of the nicest of folk on here, I gotta say. It's a shame you've had this all stack up on you like this, and I've been at that borderline suicidal "looking at knives and cliffs and shit a little too long" phase as well.
Just remember, it's not your fault. You don't deserve it, but you've actually tried to do what was right for your wife. I'm no good at cheering people up, especially over forums, but all I can recommend is just trying to make yourself happy. Talk to friends and family.
And then just browse webcomics and youtube videos with some ice cream, beer and chips until you're in a suitably bubbly mood again.
Hope you're feeling a lot better soon, mate. Much manly, strictly platonic, heterosexual love.
Just remember, it's not your fault. You don't deserve it, but you've actually tried to do what was right for your wife. I'm no good at cheering people up, especially over forums, but all I can recommend is just trying to make yourself happy. Talk to friends and family.
And then just browse webcomics and youtube videos with some ice cream, beer and chips until you're in a suitably bubbly mood again.
Hope you're feeling a lot better soon, mate. Much manly, strictly platonic, heterosexual love.