Frustrations. So sick of all the...

[Mr.Pandah]

shit. I know we've all gotten to a point where our frustrations have just built up and up and up to the point where we need some sort of outlet, and sometimes just typing them out is one way to get it all out. Thats what this thread will be used for, for me, and hopefully any of you users out there as well.

No, I am not asking for advice on my problems, since they are mine and mine alone, but misery loves company. I also know that a lot of the problems will be petty and probably won't make sense, but its nice to have a soapbox every once in a while.

I finally graduated college. I have my Associate's in Airport Management/Air Traffic Control(sounds so fancy!). I never wish to attend that college ever again, nor do I think I will ever want to attend any college ever again for that matter. My college was filled with mostly idiots who either didn't give a shit, or we're, well, idiots. Now that I'm done though, I have to wait. I have to wait to be called by the FAA to see if they'll even consider hiring me for the career that I've been pursuing for the past two+ years.

I hate waiting. I suppose I could go visit friends and what not, but this all cost money, and even though I have a job, it will be incredibly hard to balance out visiting friends with making the money to visit said friends and keeping said job.

I also wish to learn another language, specifically German, but whenever I sit down to do so, I lose interest rather quickly. I wish to improve myself, but something keeps telling me to just say "fuck it, nobody would give a shit anyway".

And then women troubles. I've been left incredibly jaded about that whole topic due to many bad experiences in my past now. I just want to meet someone who I can simply speak to, girl or guy, doesn't even matter to me. I have two friends that live around here by me still and we've exhausted all of our ideas of activities to do.

Also, this snow can go fuck itself. So sick of this weather.

How are you?

 

[Soviet Heavy]

reading this makes me a sad panda.

I may not have existed as long as you, but I know how you feel. I don't feel like I need to do anything, and have generally become apathetic to society.

 

[Mr.Pandah]

reading this makes me a sad panda.

I may not have existed as long as you, but I know how you feel. I don't feel like I need to do anything, and have generally become apathetic to society.

Its certainly not all bad, this is just the ugly side of this stage in my life. I'm not trying to say my life is so terrible, its just stuff I want to get off my chest and The Escapist is usually a good vent for this sort of thing. I'm not going to go blog about it, or say this on Facebook or something which is why I said it here.

That being said...I sure do love my car though. Without her, I'd be lost around here.

 

[Paksenarrion]

You know what really grinds my gears? I'm so sick of all the subjectively unpleasant events I perceive in my life. I wish I perceived more subjectively pleasant events in my immediate experience.

In all seriousness, I'd rather not be too specific with my personal life, because it would only remind me that I'm Still Alive.

 

[BreakfastMan]

Not so good. I am slowly becoming more and more sick of my how introverted I am, mainly. It really sucks not being socially comfortable sometimes. I do not make friends easily, and I have a hard time staying in touch with the ones I have. I tend to avoid all conversation because I often times find it uncomfortable. The worst thing is I want to be more sociable, but I just cannot work up the courage to actually talk and socialize with people face to face. It just seems to be part of my nature to be a very introverted person, and I hate it. It certainly will not do my any favors in the social networking-heavy realm of game development, my chosen career path. *sighs*

 

[Mr.Pandah]

You know what really grinds my gears? I'm so sick of all the subjectively unpleasant events I perceive in my life. I wish I perceived more subjectively pleasant events in my immediate experience.

In all seriousness, I'd rather not be too specific with my personal life, because it would only remind me that I'm Still Alive.

I just DERP'd.

I wish I was the same way. Like, if I could somehow take all of these topics about people complaining about shit that they shouldn't complain about and turn it into a constructive use of their time? It'd be crazy.

Seriously though, herp.

 

[Why do I care]

The condition of what my country is now, people that are downright douches, and jersey shore.

Ladies and gentlemen, I have officially gone insane!

 

[SangRahl]

Me? I'm fine... great, even.

I have a pair of average/above-average intelligent preschoolers, but not enough money to afford preschool tuition to keep them focused. My wife is our main and only income while I watch our kids during the days. She's a cancer survivor, which means healthcare coverage is always an issue, on top of the fact that at 35 she's already gone through menopause. (Ask your grandpa what that does to any sense of sexual drive in a woman...)

To the point: You got a degree that leads to employment with only ONE employer. How many others do you think have done the same thing, expecting an easy job find? It's like a criminal sciences major expecting an instant placement with the local sheriff's office: It just doesn't happen that easily, most times.

If you can... live a little. Travel, find your soulmate (despite the above statements, I have no doubt that my wife is my one and only soulmate. I wouldn't be here without her, or she without me), learn new things, have fun, be foolish, don't regret... best, and only, advise I can give.

 

[mindlesspuppet]

Yeah.... life sucks, you eventually get used to it and it doesn't frustrate you so much.

That aside, most people in the world are idiots... you kind of get used to that as well, but... not so much. Drinking helps.

 

[Mr.Pandah]

Not so good. I am slowly becoming more and more sick of my how introverted I am, mainly. It really sucks not being socially comfortable sometimes. I do not make friends easily, and I have a hard time staying in touch with the ones I have. I tend to avoid all conversation because I often times find it uncomfortable. The worst thing is I want to be more sociable, but I just cannot work up the courage to actually talk and socialize with people face to face. It just seems to be part of my nature to be a very introverted person, and I hate it. It certainly will not do my any favors in the social networking-heavy realm of game development, my chosen career path. *sighs*

Blah, I've had such a hard time with that stuff in the past. No clue how I broke out of my shell (I go back into it sometimes, as seen by my severe lack of friends around these parts) but good luck with that. Are you at least happy with game development as your career? I was going to pursue that, but a few courses in college steered me right the fuck out of doing any of that.

The condition of what my country is now, people that are downright douches, and jersey shore.

Ladies and gentlemen, I have officially gone insane!

Fuck the Jersey Shore. Good lord, I have no idea why that is considered entertainment. I really don't. I know people enjoy watching it because its "so stupid", but it goes beyond that. It went full circle with the stupidity/humor and then went another half circle, making it stupidity/HORRIBLE.

 

[KrazyShrink]

I'm a student still, so I'm pissed off at the education system. How about you take the resources you're using to teach me worthless and terribly unpleasant high-level trigonometry that 99.99% of the population gets along just fine without knowing, and use those resources to teach a handful of kids basic math that will prove invaluable to them?

At least some new charter schools were approved, but the teachers' union is still being dumb as shit.

 

[Mr.Pandah]

Me? I'm fine... great, even.

I have a pair of average/above-average intelligent preschoolers, but not enough money to afford preschool tuition to keep them focused. My wife is our main and only income while I watch our kids during the days. She's a cancer survivor, which means healthcare coverage is always an issue, on top of the fact that at 35 she's already gone through menopause. (Ask your grandpa what that does to any sense of sexual drive in a woman...)

To the point: You got a degree that leads to employment with only ONE employer. How many others do you think have done the same thing, expecting an easy job find? It's like a criminal sciences major expecting an instant placement with the local sheriff's office: It just doesn't happen that easily, most times.

If you can... live a little. Travel, find your soulmate (despite the above statements, I have no doubt that my wife is my one and only soulmate. I wouldn't be here without her, or she without me), learn new things, have fun, be foolish, don't regret... best, and only, advise I can give.

Trust me, I'm getting out of New York as soon as I can. I don't want to live here anymore, I really hate everything about it. The only thing I'd miss are my Family and my two best buddies, but thats life.

I have a lot of +'s with my hopes of getting into the Agency though, so I'm not worried about getting the job, just about waiting.

I do however salute you though for your commitment. Its actually pretty inspiring. Unfortunately, I can't ask either of my grandparents though since they passed away a long time ago. Its okay though, I think I'll take your hint about it as non-existant.

Yeah.... life sucks, you eventually get used to it and it doesn't frustrate you so much.

That aside, most people in the world are idiots... you kind of get used to that as well, but... not so much. Drinking helps.

Yay for booze. Seriously, it really is wonderful to have at hand sometimes.

I'm very very sick of how society wants to dictate my life.
Telling me to do this.
Telling me to do that.

Get the f**k of my back and let me live as I choose damnit -_-

I dealt with the same thing coming out of high school. Thank God I have very supporting parents though.

 

[BreakfastMan]

Not so good. I am slowly becoming more and more sick of my how introverted I am, mainly. It really sucks not being socially comfortable sometimes. I do not make friends easily, and I have a hard time staying in touch with the ones I have. I tend to avoid all conversation because I often times find it uncomfortable. The worst thing is I want to be more sociable, but I just cannot work up the courage to actually talk and socialize with people face to face. It just seems to be part of my nature to be a very introverted person, and I hate it. It certainly will not do my any favors in the social networking-heavy realm of game development, my chosen career path. *sighs*

Blah, I've had such a hard time with that stuff in the past. No clue how I broke out of my shell (I go back into it sometimes, as seen by my severe lack of friends around these parts) but good luck with that. Are you at least happy with game development as your career? I was going to pursue that, but a few courses in college steered me right the fuck out of doing any of that.

Oh, I am perfectly happy with my chosen career path so far. Even when I heard about what the industry was really like (long hours, terrible pay, and the like), I still wanted to do it. I may not be sociable, but I am stubborn, so I guess I have that going for me.

 

[Mr.Pandah]

I'm a student still, so I'm pissed off at the education system. How about you take the resources you're using to teach me worthless and terribly unpleasant high-level trigonometry that 99.99% of the population gets along just fine without knowing, and use those resources to teach a handful of kids basic math that will prove invaluable to them?

At least some new charter schools were approved, but the teachers' union is still being dumb as shit.

Yeah, I did a few speeches on the Teachers' Union. Pitiful at best. The whole system is fucked. I can't stand it and I'm glad I'm no longer a part of it (until I get to pay some lovely taxes to fund it).

Not so good. I am slowly becoming more and more sick of my how introverted I am, mainly. It really sucks not being socially comfortable sometimes. I do not make friends easily, and I have a hard time staying in touch with the ones I have. I tend to avoid all conversation because I often times find it uncomfortable. The worst thing is I want to be more sociable, but I just cannot work up the courage to actually talk and socialize with people face to face. It just seems to be part of my nature to be a very introverted person, and I hate it. It certainly will not do my any favors in the social networking-heavy realm of game development, my chosen career path. *sighs*

Blah, I've had such a hard time with that stuff in the past. No clue how I broke out of my shell (I go back into it sometimes, as seen by my severe lack of friends around these parts) but good luck with that. Are you at least happy with game development as your career? I was going to pursue that, but a few courses in college steered me right the fuck out of doing any of that.

Oh, I am perfectly happy with my chosen career path so far. Even when I heard about what the industry was really like (long hours, terrible pay, and the like), I still wanted to do it. I may not be sociable, but I am stubborn, so I guess I have that going for me.

Good. Hell, we share something in common then, being stubborn! Stick with it, as long as you're happy with it. I couldn't see myself sitting behind a desk for X amount of years, which is why I picked the career that I did. Directing air traffic with hundreds of lives in my hands? Sounds like a neat job. No stress.

 

[Why do I care]

Not so good. I am slowly becoming more and more sick of my how introverted I am, mainly. It really sucks not being socially comfortable sometimes. I do not make friends easily, and I have a hard time staying in touch with the ones I have. I tend to avoid all conversation because I often times find it uncomfortable. The worst thing is I want to be more sociable, but I just cannot work up the courage to actually talk and socialize with people face to face. It just seems to be part of my nature to be a very introverted person, and I hate it. It certainly will not do my any favors in the social networking-heavy realm of game development, my chosen career path. *sighs*

Blah, I've had such a hard time with that stuff in the past. No clue how I broke out of my shell (I go back into it sometimes, as seen by my severe lack of friends around these parts) but good luck with that. Are you at least happy with game development as your career? I was going to pursue that, but a few courses in college steered me right the fuck out of doing any of that.

The condition of what my country is now, people that are downright douches, and jersey shore.

Ladies and gentlemen, I have officially gone insane!

Fuck the Jersey Shore. Good lord, I have no idea why that is considered entertainment. I really don't. I know people enjoy watching it because its "so stupid", but it goes beyond that. It went full circle with the stupidity/humor and then went another half circle, making it stupidity/HORRIBLE.

You wanna know what's worse? IT'S SPREADING.
Seriously, my school might as well be Colorado Shore for all the drama and shit. I am one of the few "sane" (although, i'm insane, so irony strikes) people in my school who know more than punching and humping.
Now if you excuse me, I have to go build barricades and sniper nests to protect myself from...THOSE!

 

[badgersprite]

You ever have one of those moments where you realise a bunch of people you used to hang out with were nothing but a lump of shallow, vacuous, self-aggrandising, smug jerks and you've never agreed with a single thing they've said and you now can't stand to be around them or anyone who reminds you of them?

Yeah. I've had that moment a lot lately. I've had it with my political group (I believe in the cause, but the fucking people...). I've had it with the largest gay entertainment websites and a huge amount of people who use it (which sucks because there's practically nowhere else I can go to read about this stuff). I've had it with a bunch of fandoms I used to be in, and the people who are still blindly devoted to a crappy TV Show, and I don't feel bad calling it crappy, considering I used to like it and freely acknowledged I liked it because of how entertainingly bad it was (although, admittedly, I thought it was intentional back then, but it has become increasingly obvious that this was not the case, and that many fans seriously believe this thing is a work of genius).

Ugh. All these frustrations really just make me want to go hang out with some of my old friends from high school or something. I'll probably feel better once uni starts up again, though; I'll find more people who are on my wavelength once classes start and I get talking to people. It just gets really frustrating when I feel like I can't enjoy a lot of my interests and passions because THE PEOPLE THERE...

 

[Mr.Pandah]

You ever have one of those moments where you realise a bunch of people you used to hang out with were nothing but a lump of shallow, vacuous, self-aggrandising, smug jerks and you've never agreed with a single thing they've said and you now can't stand to be around them or anyone who reminds you of them?

Yeah. I've had that moment a lot lately. I've had it with my political group (I believe in the cause, but the fucking people...). I've had it with the largest gay entertainment websites and a huge amount of people who use it (which sucks because there's practically nowhere else I can go to read about this stuff). I've had it with a bunch of fandoms I used to be in, and the people who are still blindly devoted to a crappy TV Show, and I don't feel bad calling it crappy, considering I used to like it and freely acknowledged I liked it because of how entertainingly bad it was (although, admittedly, I thought it was intentional back then, but it has become increasingly obvious that this was not the case, and that many fans seriously believe this thing is a work of genius).

Ugh. All these frustrations really just make me want to go hang out with some of my old friends from high school or something. I'll probably feel better once uni starts up again, though; I'll find more people who are on my wavelength once classes start and I get talking to people. It just gets really frustrating when I feel like I can't enjoy a lot of my interests and passions because THE PEOPLE THERE...

Totally have been there. I don't know about you, but it hit a point for me where I realized I wasn't even myself and changed up everything. Thats why I got my friends now and I've been short on friends for the most part since. Its good to get away from the wastes of time, but its been double-edged.

When I used to attend school, I still felt that I was somehow...validating my time. Even though I absolutely abhor the idea of going back, I can see how it makes me come to terms with how I spend my time.

You'll definitely be a lot better once you get back into the swing of things again.

Not so good. I am slowly becoming more and more sick of my how introverted I am, mainly. It really sucks not being socially comfortable sometimes. I do not make friends easily, and I have a hard time staying in touch with the ones I have. I tend to avoid all conversation because I often times find it uncomfortable. The worst thing is I want to be more sociable, but I just cannot work up the courage to actually talk and socialize with people face to face. It just seems to be part of my nature to be a very introverted person, and I hate it. It certainly will not do my any favors in the social networking-heavy realm of game development, my chosen career path. *sighs*

Blah, I've had such a hard time with that stuff in the past. No clue how I broke out of my shell (I go back into it sometimes, as seen by my severe lack of friends around these parts) but good luck with that. Are you at least happy with game development as your career? I was going to pursue that, but a few courses in college steered me right the fuck out of doing any of that.

The condition of what my country is now, people that are downright douches, and jersey shore.

Ladies and gentlemen, I have officially gone insane!

Fuck the Jersey Shore. Good lord, I have no idea why that is considered entertainment. I really don't. I know people enjoy watching it because its "so stupid", but it goes beyond that. It went full circle with the stupidity/humor and then went another half circle, making it stupidity/HORRIBLE.

You wanna know what's worse? IT'S SPREADING.
Seriously, my school might as well be Colorado Shore for all the drama and shit. I am one of the few "sane" (although, i'm insane, so irony strikes) people in my school who know more than punching and humping.
Now if you excuse me, I have to go build barricades and sniper nests to protect myself from...THOSE!

Ha! Good luck friend. I dated a girl who loved that show. Suffice to say, it didn't end well. Perhaps you can fist pump your fist right into one of their stupid fucking faces.