Have you ever considered suicide?

[Cap'n Ninja]

Thought about it? Yeah
Contemplated it? Yeah
Considered actually doing it? Yeah
Prepared to do it? Yeah
Gotten any further to attempting to do it? Oh hell no.
As I finished the note, it hit me how fucking terrified I was of dying. I mean when you're dead, you're gone, finite, no longer, your train has left. That thought scared me shitless.

 

[the_pleasure_is_mine]

Yeah I did a lot for about 3 years, I've kind of turned my life around then but it's not something that ever really completely leaves you :/

Now I just generally drink my problems away.

Still, curiosity, games and a general reluctance to give up keep me going ^_^

 

[Queen Michael]

I've been thinking about it, but I love manga far too much to kill myself. So yeah, if I ever run out of manga to read... Worst thing is, that last part wasn't a joke.

 

[scorptatious]

I have thought about it sometimes. In fact I still kinda do.

However, whenever I do think about suicide, I remind myself that I still have so much to do. And a lot of people wish to see me succeed. And if I did commit suicide, it can negatively affect my entire family.

So I push myself to move forward.

Also games like Mass Effect 3 and TESV are on the horizon. I can't stop now.

 

[WolfThomas]

Only abstractly. In my ocaisonal philosphic musing I'll figure the only way to truly prove there is a god/afterlife would be to die. Then I feel an odd desire for a brief flicker of second before that's squashed beneath "eh, I'll find out inevitably".

So in otherwords, no.

 

[Marter]

Don't you go to that place again! I still have to challenge you to a Smash Bros duel...

Oh yeah...we totally do have to do that.

 

[Caspertjuhh]

no. I have too much to do yet before my life is done.

 

[Baldry]

I've considered it, I've attempted it twice, I've joked about it.

I tried to hang myself the first time but was stopped and the second time I tried cutting my wrists, but failed to slip in the deaths embrace...Probably for the best because life's awesome!

 

[Wintermoot]

yes when I got bullied ALLOT I wanted to die to get rid of it. I never realy got pushed over the edge

 

[amadhatter]

Oh, yeah. Clinically depressed for 14 years and counting. Always said if I got cancer again, I'd end myself.

 

[Fraught]

inb4"I'vebeenclose".

Wait.

God damnit!

And no. I've thought of it, how I would do it (mostly daydreaming of all the crazy shit I'd do beforehand), but I've never considered it. Not even considered it.

I should, logically, considering my situation right now, but no one can truly understand how much I have to look forward to, and how much I desire it.

Also, I've been hardened by some pretty harrowing shit throughout my life, and I'm pretty resistive against anything that might trigger depression of any sort.

 

[Firehound]

I realized that I only had three choices, and two were bad. One was get over it. Another was die in a rather columbine fashion, and I'm quite particular to living. A thrid was spend most of my life locked up in a looneybin after attempting a columbine-esque masacre, and that was no good.

 

[BioHazardMan]

I've struggled with depression, paranoia, pretty much anything you can think of. Hell, i've sat in a dark corner sobbing.

I never have gotten to a point where I would kill myself, and never will. I understand that despite all you go through, there really is no point to it, regardless of what one goes through (and what I have). I think suicide is the ultimate showing of human cowardice and selfishness. Think of what your death will do to those close to you. Yeah, not good.

You just have to collect yourself and keep going.

 

[Mr Cwtchy]

Many, many times.

What stops me is when I realise I'm too much of a wuss to go through with it.

 

[Cowabungaa]

I don't understood suicide ... studied it in uni for a psych course in Behavioural Sciences.

Still don't get it ... when life gives you lemons you make lemonade ... when life gives you complete, unmmitigating shite, you either throw it at people and make it stick to them or you wash your hands of the whole thing <.<

Simple as that o.o

Actually no, it's not as simple as that. I always used this example on myself; I see my own psyche, willpower and inner strength as a concrete bunker. Now such a bunker is pretty strong and can take quite a deal of punishment, smaller blows will just chip away at it and you usually need a really big bomb to blow it up completely. But if you keep pelting it with gunfire, keep chipping away little parts for long enough, even the strongest bunker will eventually crumble. I myself often had the feeling that my bunker has been reduced to powder.

So yeah, I've had such thoughts quite often. I haven't had the most horrible experiences one can imagine, I haven't been through that many torments of anything of the sort. I've always been clothed, well-fed and all that stuff. Yet, many times I have rationalised ending it all. On the outside all was well, but inside there was/is just a void. No reason to live, no willpower, no goals or aims, nothing. Life's just a futile string of frivolous, unfulfilling entertainment and hollow, soul-crushing work. The futility of it all, the emptiness and pointlessness of it made me want to end it quite often. There is no spark of life inside me.

But I'm in the whole mental healthcare circus now, so that might change. I hope it does, I don't want to end it, but I really don't want to keep on living like this either.

Nope.
Suicide is a selfish act and the cowards way out.

Face your life like you were intended to.

I think suicide is the ultimate showing of human cowardice and selfishness. Think of what your death will do to those close to you. Yeah, not good.

You just have to collect yourself and keep going.

The second part is debatable, but a selfish act? So someone should just stay alive for someone else's sake? Who's being selfish there, someone who finds himself so important that someone should stay alive just for his sake despite what that person would be going through?

And even if it would be a selfish act, so what? So many things are, since when is selfishness per definition something bad? One's life is one's own business, someone else can't breathe, eat or live for you. It's your own most valuable commodity, why is spending it as one pleases a bad-selfish act if that means ending it? Yeah sure I know some people would be sad and shocked if I'd kill myself, but my life is not theirs and they apparently haven't made my life worth living either.

 

[Addendum_Forthcoming]

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Yes, as simple as that. The OP wanted my opinion. I've been in bad places. Worked my way out. I've been depressed. I found ways to escape it. As simple as that. Whether that's your experience or not wasn't the point. My point is I've always found goals to keep me on the straight and narrow.

I know what I want now. I know how to get them. I know the means needed. I know the methods necessary. I know my capabilities and what needs to be improved in order to meet criterion.

Simple as that o.o

As I said, I don't get suicide or depression. It's alien to me, so obviously whatever I'm doing is right in avoiding it/them <.<

 

[irtaco]

Attempted it but talked myself out of it. It's a horrible feeling of having no will to live and no reason to go on. I've gotten better, but still. Real horrible, wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

 

[Cowabungaa]

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Yes, as simple as that. The OP wanted my opinion. I've been in bad places. Worked my way out. I've been depressed. I found ways to escape it. As simple as that. Whether that's your experience or not wasn't the point. My point is I've always found goals to keep me on the straight and narrow.

I know what I want now. I know how to get them. I know the means needed. I know the methods necessary. I know my capabilities and what needs to be improved in order to meet criterion.

Simple as that o.o

As I said, I don't get suicide or depression. It's alien to me, so obviously whatever I'm doing is right in avoiding it/them <.<

Not everyone's so lucky. As I've explained, I don't have those goals, and when I did I had neither the means, methods or capabilities. I didn't even have the goals themselves. Imagine that. Imagine feeling nothing that drives you forward, drifing around aimless through time. And during that time all you get is annoyed, disappointed, anger, sadness more loneliness, nothing good except the rare moment of hollow joy that fades as quickly as it came.

A busted bunker.

When you have goals, even when you can't find your way towards them for a moment, it's different. But imagine having neither, not a shred of them. Imagine trying to grasp for something new, but finding only emptiness. That's what I'm talking about.

Also, you say depression is alien to you, yet you say you've been depressed. Doesn't really add up.

 

[Rofl-Mayo]

I thought about how I'd go along with it, but I've never considered actually killing myself. It would be too selfish, and I probably wouldn't have the balls to pull the trigger. If I ever do end up committing suicide though, I plan on donating everything I have first.