Have you ever considered suicide?

[HellspawnCandy]

Well this is an interesting thread, I guess it'll be ok to admit this. Yes I've tried and I've been Baker Acted because of it. It's something that I've gotten past. My advice to someone is just don't do it. Humans have gone through worse in nature and society, and whoever this advice would go to is that just live out and enjoy it. Atleast try.

 

[sumanoskae]

I, myself, have suffered great depression, but never considered suicide. I've never been one to think of dying as an escape or solution.

I figure, I don't know what comes after death(If anything), but I have no way of knowing that I'll be here again or that I'll feel fulfilled at the end of my life. But I do know that I'll die, so I might as well get what satisfaction I can while I'm here, that's the only choice I have

If I kill myself I could be giving up a lot of happiness

If I just go as long as I can, then if death turns out to be nothing but a vast expanse of darkness, I'll have done as well as I could. If it turns out there is an afterlife or reincarnation, then it's no skin off my back if I had a shit life, I can just try again

Suicide just strikes me as an illogical gamble, by living life as best I can, I ensure that I don't loose anything in the long run

 

[Danzaivar]

This thread makes me sad.

Do explain.

I am eager to hear why.

Because all these people have considered/attempted suicide, derp.

But they're faceless drones on the internet.

If you found out that I killed myself tomorrow, would you care? No. You might pretend to care, but ultimately you wouldn't.

No but when you find what seems like a lot of people saying they've thought about it or tried it, it gets you thinking about the people you see out and about. On the way to work/school, people in the shops, etc.

Just the idea that the 'faceless drones' out there are so miserable they might just want to end it all is a damn depressing thought. Even if you don't give two shits about if they live or die (Hell, ESPECIALLY because you don't care if they live or die).

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OT: Never even considered it. If there's one thing I want for myself, it's to die happy. If I was so sad that I had to take my own life to get the hell out of it quicker, then I'd have failed. I don't fail.

 

[emeraldrafael]

Nothing. The first time I tried and failed. The second time I went at it again and got stopped.

what I would say is its not worth it. No matter whats going on, nothing is worth death. thats why its called a permanent probblem to a temporary solution.

 

[GeorgW]

All the time since I was 5 years old. I guess I simply can't be bothered to go through with it. But it's still fun to think about.

 

[Pop_Tarts]

That's their choice.

That would be like saying that converting from one religion to another is selfish because your family would feel bad about it.

But surely suicide is a much more extreme thing than changing one's religion. I agree it's acceptable to take into account your own feelings the most when doing something like converting to another religion but death affects people much more and is a permanent thing.

 

[Scolar Visari]

Sometimes every other day, but usually every other week. Every so often, it comes to a peak at once an hour.

To be fair, it's not that I think about suicide in the usual sense. It's more along the lines of, "Everyone's lives would be better if I were dead. I would stop complicating matters and allow everyone to go on with their lives if I wasn't here."

And then there's the "if I get into a car accident and die, that would be nice" thoughts as I drive home. But then I realize that the person who crashes into me might also get hurt, and I start hoping for a random satellite to drop out of orbit and hit me.

These thoughts stem from feeling like a drain on civilization. All it takes is a strong suspicion that the world would be better off without my bungling, and away my thoughts race!

But, yes, I have problems. I should talk to my therapist about them today during my appointment. It might help if he communicated via lolcats, or something.

No no, that pretty much is "the usual sense". And I hope to Ceiling Cat that you aren't serious. What about all the little snot-nosed kids you take care of? What would they do without you? What happened to the whole "...crush your enemies, see them driven before you, and to hear the lamentation of their women." attitude?

P.S. Does the lolcats reference help?

XD You do cheer me up, thank you. ^_^

It's never really any one reason. Sometimes, the feelings stem from guilt, or anger, or shame, or fear, or just being so tired of living. Throughout, there's an underlying feeling of being powerless.

I love my kids. I love them so much. Sometimes I feel that they would do so much better without me. I do so many things wrong, even when I mean to do right. It's not just enough to want to do good things. I need to be able to do good things properly. So much trust and affection from them; I don't want to fail them. I wish I was perfect.

That's the overriding message.

I wish I was perfect.

That makes me want to punch my lights out, if I were facing myself in mortal combat.

I have nothing to complain about, and yet I keep wanting more. What a selfish *****.

Damn, this is kinda depressing. I'm sorry, ceiling cat. I probably know what you're thinking:

"Time to watch my favorite person masturb-...oh. This is depressing. I'm a go listen to Linkin Park nao..."

While I'm hardly qualified to be giving out psychiatric advice (Doctor Visari's patented "Fuck dealing with personal problems, go to War!" solution), I know firsthand (More like 1.5 hand) how suicide can affect people. Charging up the stairs and having your friend's brother put a round through himself before you can get to the door leaves a lasting impression.

While I can't truly say for certain, I'm pretty sure your kids love you to. Shit, everybody's afraid. I'm afraid I'll get people killed, or that I won't react fast enough or make the right decision and that shit honestly keeps me up at night. But when it comes day time again you have to put on that facade, because for them you're like an immovable rock. You may think you're a fuck-up, but at the end of the day they won't remember when you failed. They'll remember all the times that you were their for them and all the things you selflessly did for them. Lord knows my mother made plenty of mistakes, but the only thing I remember is how she worked multiple jobs as a single mother with no support from anybody and still had the energy to put up with my shit and make it seem like everything was okay.

(Reading back on this I sound like a bloody sap T-T)

 

[black-magic]

Yeah, at a couple of the darker times in my life.

*shrug* Is life.

 

[DuctTapeJedi]

The first time was in third grade. I'm 22 now, it's been off and on since then.
As for what's helped me, my faith and prozac.

 

[binvjoh]

Not seriously, no.

 

[Cavouku]

Someone actually, just last night, committed suicide. A whole lot of kids at school were broken up about it, they were constantly coming back and forth from the school's grief counseling office, leaving, coming in late, not coming in at all. I didn't even know her, but the vibe was enough to make me totally inoperable.

It has flickered in my mind the same way murder has. Never serious, but exploring the scenario. It's like if I said not to think about a pink elephant, you all know that one. Right after reading this, I bet a lot of people had considered the action and outcome.

But as for serious consideration, no, I couldn't do that to anyone, and I prefer to remove myself from the picture, I'm not a pitiable soul.

 

[Rockchimp69]

I've got it all planned. I reckon I have 10-15 years before I really have had enough. I've spoken to a few people I know about this, and my feelings on life in general and they can't believe how calm I am when I talk about it.

Been thinking about it for a long time and haven't come up with a better idea yet, so I'm just running with it.

Neither can I D:
I can't imagine wanting to die and being in such clear state of mind, except mabye when i am really old.

OT: i've considered it before in the kind of "Who would even miss me?" way, but never anything planned out, although those were sone pretty dark times.
The main thing that stopped me was just the realisation that things get better, and they did

 

[OldAccount]

Some of these posts are actually somewhat inspiring.

Lots of people here have gone through pretty dark fucking times and come out the other side alive.

 

[-Ulven-]

Yes... but I'd rather die protecting someone than just... ending myself, it is so selfish.

I sat and thought about it, but then I went for a hike to settle my mind... it helped, it really helped.

 

[Mimssy]

Short answer: Yes
It's not my favorite things to talk about. I almost never tell people unless it needs to be said.

 

[Vanguard_Ex]

Many times, and I've explored the idea of exactly why I wouldn't. I've had extreme urges to do it before but I know better than that...I love my family and friends too much.

 

[TAGM]

I thought about it here and there, but I don't think it was ever a serious consideration, because I'm a wimp. Seriously, I can only just pull the trigger on a bloody NERF gun pointed at myself. Really.

 

[Kachiporra]

At a time when I really wanted to know what happens after death.

 

[xXx5Niq3rzxXx]

Nope.