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[Zombie_Fish]

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[The Clown]

What kind of medication are you on? And it is Bi-polar Type 1 or 2? I understand where you're coming from though.

Type 1, and I'm currently on SNRI's

I feel for you there then, I think I have it badly being Type 2..
All I can advise is, is there anyone or anything that makes you particularly happy? Associate yourself with those things as much as possible as quickly as you can, I know it always cheers me up.

Edit:

Lift your head up high and blow your brains out...best advice I can give.

If you are in anyway, being serious at all, you are a truly terrible person.

Thanks, at the moment everyone I could possibly talk to is unavailable, and to distract myself and to retreat into childlike ignorance I am organising a box full of kinex into their appropriate size order and use catagories, it brings back good memories from when i was a kid, and menial tasks help.

 

[The Clown]

@Echer123: ok then, what do i do if my friends are slowly drifting and the only reason most of them aren't abbandoning me is because they know if they do it will mean my end?

 

[alerriixx]

What kind of medication are you on? And it is Bi-polar Type 1 or 2? I understand where you're coming from though.

Type 1, and I'm currently on SNRI's

I feel for you there then, I think I have it badly being Type 2..
All I can advise is, is there anyone or anything that makes you particularly happy? Associate yourself with those things as much as possible as quickly as you can, I know it always cheers me up.

Edit:

Lift your head up high and blow your brains out...best advice I can give.

If you are in anyway, being serious at all, you are a truly terrible person.

Thanks, at the moment everyone I could possibly talk to is unavailable, and to distract myself and to retreat into childlike ignorance I am organising a box full of kinex into their appropriate size order and use catagories, it brings back good memories from when i was a kid, and menial tasks help.

Try and ask those you care for most to give you some time as you could really do with it? It might work?
I tend to eat a lot of lollipops and play final fantasy, as it reminds me of childhood too. Foods that bring back good memories are also good I find.

 

[The Clown]

while I'm here, does anyone want to play halo? i'm extremely stressed and need to shoot things with people.

 

[Jewrean]

@Echer123: ok then, what do i do if my friends are slowly drifting and the only reason most of them aren't abbandoning me is because they know if they do it will mean my end?

1) If that's true then they aren't your friends.
2) Do you know for sure that is how they think? Are you making an effort to remain friends with them? Who is the primary instigator causing the drifting apart? Are they deliberately avoiding you?
3) Find new friends, as suggested in the above information go participate in some activities such as art / sport / video games / and so on. Please don't choose religion. At these gatherings you can meet new people and form new friendships.

 

[The Clown]

@Echer123: ok then, what do i do if my friends are slowly drifting and the only reason most of them aren't abbandoning me is because they know if they do it will mean my end?

1) If that's true then they aren't your friends.
2) Do you know for sure that is how they think? Are you making an effort to remain friends with them? Who is the primary instigator causing the drifting apart? Are they deliberately avoiding you?
3) Find new friends, as suggested in the above information go participate in some activities such as art / sport / video games / and so on. Please don't choose religion. At these gatherings you can meet new people and form new friendships.

Not all of them, just a lot of them, they aren't avoiding me, but every time I spend time with them I always get a strong feeling that I'm more trouble than I'm worth and that they wish they didn't have to deal with me, added onto this, I'm on the fast track to failiing my exams, my dad is tormenting me, every time i talk to him its always to make me do something I don't want, and added onto all this I still have the psycological element.

 

[Vykrel]

Then you must kill your mind first.

and you can only take it down with a silver bullet. DO NOT MISS

 

[Jacob Iott]

Have you read William Styron's "Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness"?
(wikipedia article): http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darkness_Visible_%28memoir%29
(at amazon) http://www.amazon.com/Darkness-Visible-Madness-William-Styron/dp/0679736395
Or, if you have manic depression, maybe you should look up some of Kay Redfield Jamison's work.
(wikipedia article): http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kay_Redfield_Jamison
(Book she wrote on Amazon):
http://www.amazon.com/Manic-Depressive-Illness-Frederick-Goodwin-M-D/dp/0195039343

Have you told your friends and family about your condition?
Don't be afraid of going to the hospital. Styron claims that being hospitalized helped him recover.

 

[feather240]

Try to keep your mind busy and distracted by writing posts with deft typing flourishes and deep explanations, and then once your mind is distracted...

Then you must kill your mind first.

and you can only take it down with a silver bullet. DO NOT MISS

...and let the bullet be anointed in rose water and fine oil, if you're still worried fill it with mercury and lead so it'll punch a strong hole. You can also have fun decorating the tip so that the shell will open in different designs.

Edit: You may also bedazzle it.

 

[Jacob Iott]

Not all of them, just a lot of them, they aren't avoiding me, but every time I spend time with them I always get a strong feeling that I'm more trouble than I'm worth and that they wish they didn't have to deal with me, added onto this, I'm on the fast track to failiing my exams, my dad is tormenting me, every time i talk to him its always to make me do something I don't want, and added onto all this I still have the psycological element.

If those are the thoughts worked into your head, then that's the attitude you'll be projecting to your friends. You need to have more confidence in both yourself and your friends, and stop believing you're the bane of their existence.

I don't think you can just will yourself some self-confidence when you have depression.

OT: Did you mention what kind of depression you have?

 

[Jewrean]

Not all of them, just a lot of them, they aren't avoiding me, but every time I spend time with them I always get a strong feeling that I'm more trouble than I'm worth and that they wish they didn't have to deal with me, added onto this, I'm on the fast track to failiing my exams, my dad is tormenting me, every time i talk to him its always to make me do something I don't want, and added onto all this I still have the psycological element.

If those are the thoughts worked into your head, then that's the attitude you'll be projecting to your friends. You need to have more confidence in both yourself and your friends, and stop believing you're the bane of their existence.

What he said.

A true friend is someone who WANTS to hang out with you. But even if they aren't being 'good' friends you can hardly blame them if you're being negative all the time. Now I'm not saying you are being negative constantly while around them but try to see things from their point of view when you say things. Instead of talking about your problems, try and organize something fun to do like Go-karts, laser tag, skirmish paintball, video game sessions or movie marathons. I made amateur Ninja movies with my friends when I was in high school. It was very therapeutic and heaps of fun:
http://www.youtube.com/user/jvillinger?feature=mhum

Even though friends are supposed to help you out in times of need it kind of defeats the purpose if that time of need is all the time.

Next thing is Exams. May I ask what you are planning to do when you leave high school? I'm a Mathematics teacher by the way so this is a teachers perspective. If you know what you want to do then only focus on the examinations that are relevant to that passion. Obviously try your best and at the end of the day you shouldn't punish yourself if you tried your hardest.

As for your Dad? How exactly is he tormenting you by making you do things you don't want to do?:
1) Sexual? Call police.
2) He wants to go fishing with you or spend time with you but always seems angry? Well he is just having a hard time expressing how he feels.
3) He is pressuring you to go into a certain career? It isn't his choice. Just smile and nod and savour the day that you will be emancipated with your own money and house.
4) He is forcing you to study when you want to go out and par-tay? Well too bad. You should be studying, you don't have long to go. Give it your all and once you have finished school you can par-tay all you want without regrets. Think of the long-term.

Whatever he is doing or saying to you, do not burn any bridges! You don't want to get kicked out or have a fight where you say something you can't take back. Deep down he loves you (hopefully) and is only looking out for your best interests.

 

[Skorpyo]

while I'm here, does anyone want to play halo? i'm extremely stressed and need to shoot things with people.

Well, then. I may have a bit of useful advice. I used to go through these phases too, BTW. Just hang in there. You'll always be glad you did .

You say you wish to shoot things. You need a distraction, and you have K'nex.

Try constructing a "K'nex Gun".


And with that project, I'll see you back here in a few weeks.

 

[TheYellowCellPhone]

You have realize you are The One. You have to know it, only then can you beat your mind into submission.

But really, tell us more than ten words.

 

[Not-here-anymore]

Okay, what is the problem, your OP is vague, very very vague.

I've been suffering from depression for a long time among other things, no one else has helped, and the escapist community is a very smart bunch of people, at the moment i'm in a bad way, and i have a feeling it's going to get worse, as for the feelings, you know, the general life is pointless, i hae nothing etc, at least i am cunning in my madness.

Um... Have you tried some form of counselling? Talking about why you might be depressed, or even just generally rambling about what's going on in your head at any given time can help a lot with depression-y type things. Also, if you haven't already done so, go see a doctor, and consider medicinal help. Even if you're initially against the idea of anti-depressants, it's worth at least considering your options (for the record, I was initially against them until I got so bad I lacked the strength of will to say no to someone who suggested getting them. They've worked wonders since)
If you're not comfortable with talking to real life people (which is understandable), try PM'ing someone helpful on the escapist. I'll offer an listening ear/reading eye, and advice if you want it, as will many other people.
Also, good luck. Depression is awful, and really quite hard to deal with.

@Echer123: ok then, what do i do if my friends are slowly drifting and the only reason most of them aren't abbandoning me is because they know if they do it will mean my end?

1) If that's true then they aren't your friends.
2) Do you know for sure that is how they think? Are you making an effort to remain friends with them? Who is the primary instigator causing the drifting apart? Are they deliberately avoiding you?
3) Find new friends, as suggested in the above information go participate in some activities such as art / sport / video games / and so on. Please don't choose religion. At these gatherings you can meet new people and form new friendships.

Not all of them, just a lot of them, they aren't avoiding me, but every time I spend time with them I always get a strong feeling that I'm more trouble than I'm worth and that they wish they didn't have to deal with me, added onto this, I'm on the fast track to failiing my exams, my dad is tormenting me, every time i talk to him its always to make me do something I don't want, and added onto all this I still have the psycological element.

OK, editing my post with more length...
This almost certainly isn't the case. A lot of people who go through bad patches of depression (myself included) feel like they're imposing on the people around them, constantly taking their time unfairly. It gets to the point where you're so sure that this is the case that you start becoming this inner vision of yourself, all misogynistic and mopy, when realistically, your friends want to help you, but you're not letting them. At least some of the people you know will be willing to listen to you ramble about life for long periods of time, and the ones who will may surprise you (a friend I thought I'd long since alienated made me a chocolate cake and sat through about 2 hours of me whining about how shit life was. Good times!)
I know it's not easy, but some of this is purely your mind reacting to what's going on - you can change things. Make an effort to see your friends, try not to think about the depression too much (but don't completely ignore it). Don't shut yourself off from the world just because you think you're wasting people's time. Please!
Yes, a lot of this is based on things I wish people had said to me when I was going through this kind of thing. Doesn't make it any less relevant!

Oh, and join this group [http://www.escapistmagazine.com/groups/view/Halo-Fans] for Halo fun. There's a game on Saturday - join in!

 

[The Clown]

Not all of them, just a lot of them, they aren't avoiding me, but every time I spend time with them I always get a strong feeling that I'm more trouble than I'm worth and that they wish they didn't have to deal with me, added onto this, I'm on the fast track to failiing my exams, my dad is tormenting me, every time i talk to him its always to make me do something I don't want, and added onto all this I still have the psycological element.

If those are the thoughts worked into your head, then that's the attitude you'll be projecting to your friends. You need to have more confidence in both yourself and your friends, and stop believing you're the bane of their existence.

What he said.

A true friend is someone who WANTS to hang out with you. But even if they aren't being 'good' friends you can hardly blame them if you're being negative all the time. Now I'm not saying you are being negative constantly while around them but try to see things from their point of view when you say things. Instead of talking about your problems, try and organize something fun to do like Go-karts, laser tag, skirmish paintball, video game sessions or movie marathons. I made amateur Ninja movies with my friends when I was in high school. It was very therapeutic and heaps of fun:
http://www.youtube.com/user/jvillinger?feature=mhum

Even though friends are supposed to help you out in times of need it kind of defeats the purpose if that time of need is all the time.

Next time is Exams. May I ask what you are planning to do when you leave high school? I'm a Mathematics teacher by the way so this is a teachers perspective. If you know what you want to do then only focus on the examinations that are relevant to that passion. Obviously try your best and at the end of the day you shouldn't punish yourself if you tried your hardest.

As for your Dad? How exactly is he tormenting you by making you do things you don't want to do?:
1) Sexual? Call police.
2) He wants to go fishing with you or spend time with you but always seems angry? Well he is just having a hard time expressing how he feels.
3) He is pressuring you to go into a certain career? It isn't his choice. Just smile and nod and savour the day that you will be emancipated with your own money and house.
4) He is forcing you to study when you want to go out and par-tay? Well too bad. You should be studying, you don't have long to go. Give it your all and once you have finished school you can par-tay all you want. Think of the long-term.

Whatever he is doing or saying to you, do not burn any bridges! You don't want to get kicked out or have a fight where you say something you can't take back. Deep down he loves you (hopefully) and is only looking out for your best interests.

Sexual father things?!?! no never, he's just bothering me over and over, never any nice conversation, never anything other than shut up and do as I say.

 

[Jewrean]

while I'm here, does anyone want to play halo? i'm extremely stressed and need to shoot things with people.

Well, then. I may have a bit of useful advice. I used to go through these phases too, BTW. Just hang in there. You'll always be glad you did .

You say you wish to shoot things. You need a distraction, and you have K'nex.

Try constructing a "K'nex Gun".


And with that project, I'll see you back here in a few weeks.

I like Technic lego better for that sort of construction:
I made many catapults with that stuff when I was young.

 

[Jewrean]

Sexual father things?!?! no never, he's just bothering me over and over, never any nice conversation, never anything other than shut up and do as I say.

Has he always been like this or only lately? And are we talking about your school-work, chores around the house, etc? My Dad is (and has always been) a stress head and I remember hating him from time to time but its common for ALL teenagers to feel this way. Trust me when I say that pretty much every kid has gone through this. At the end of the day he is your father and even if you don't like him you should still respect him. He raised you and well... made you. I'm glad since I moved out because I don't have him on my back telling me what to do but while you are at school and young you just need to put up with it.

I remember when I was living with my folks I spent most of my time in my room and, God forbid, playing World of Warcraft. That kept the social interactions with my father to a minimum. Not the best decision I made to be honest. Is there something you are doing specifically that is making him speak to you in this way? Have you tried having a heart-to-heart discussion? Is he stressed? Is he disappointed in you? Find out and calmly explain that you are doing your best. In the long run bitching / whinging / fighting back is only going to exacerbate the situation so try to be the better man, so to speak, and keep everything calm.