Heronblade said:
It really is not as complex as it first appears. Decide what you want out of this life, and find out what you are capable of doing in order to achieve it.
In my case:
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Hah, my process of thinking was basically the exact same as this
That said, my path's been a lot less straightforward. I was extremely unmotivated in high school and got into a life sciences program at university (albeit more or less the life sciences program in the province, if not country) because medicine. After realizing my contempt for the biology courses I took in high school, I decided to go full out on social sciences in my first year. Halfway through, I realized that I was missing physical sciences, and I realized that engineering was a thing I could be really, really happy studying and applying later in my life. Unfortunately, my lack of any science education in first year meant I got rejected from the one engineering program I applied to. I settled with an economics-math degree for my second year studies, where I'm currently applying myself along with first year physics and chem courses. I've already got the marks to get into the school I want to, so I'm ready to settle into another 4 years of education (which is where I guess my advice becomes applicable.)
My motivation was that I wanted to do something that'd let me have a really positive impact on other people, where I could be as philanthropic as I wanted. My engagement in mathematics increased exponentially (hah) through high school and into university, and I've always really loved science. The kind of applications that really interested me; energy systems, transportation systems, economics, agriculture, and the like; gave me a good idea about what I would want to get out of my postsecondary education, and I realized that systems engineering and engineering mathematics were simply the highest common denominator for all the things I liked.
Having fully wasted a year of my life, and having wasted large parts of 4 years of my life, doing things that don't make me particularly happy, I will still say that it's not a bad thing to just be drifting. Keep an eye out for things that interest you, and in the meanwhile just go with the flow. Definitely, if there are any particular fields that interest you, go straight for those as much as you can. But don't feel bad for not knowing what you want to do right now.
My advice would be to take other people's expectations and ideas of what you should do with a grain of salt; don't think you should be doing something just because it's what others want you to do. But on the other hand, make sure you don't get locked into anything that doesn't motivate the hell out of you. It's always been my opinion that the most important thing in life is to do something you enjoy doing. If you don't know what that is, try and branch out. Take some online courses or read books about things you find interesting. Try some hands on stuff, talk to other people about what they like doing and what their life plans are. Or even take a leap of faith and just dive into something, if it doesn't put you at too much risk. And never think that it's too late to change paths and start doing the things that you like!
