Depressed.
Long story short i left a night job that was very very well paid, but had the hours to boot (Regular 60-72 hour weeks) for a job with my brother as a bike breaker. The problem is my brother is used to working on his own, or with people that are practical/good with bikes, which i am not. Que him being snappy because i dont know what im doing, and then toss in very low wages and then sprinkle over a miserable home life and 2 years of singledom.
serve in a bowl of misery and depression, and you get my current mood.
I also will not go to the doctors to help combat said depression as it may effect the chances of me getting into the police in later life.
Also, before you all say "Get another job" - All the jobs round here are either telesales, on 12k (which is far below what i was being paid, but above what im being paid now, but is not enough for me to live on) and i refuse to work in a callcentre again.
*sigh* I think i need a hug.