Valis88 said:
*sigh* I just wish I could belong somewhere, to someone, to an organization, peoples, and culture...but not the one I belong to now...
The grass isn't greener on the other side?
If it isn't then how can we work on making heterosexuality less the bane of jerks, ignorants, and other complete undesirables.
I can never say that I'm proud of who I am. :/
I can remember feeling that. If you don't fit in anywhere, it's so easy to look at the unified LGBT movement and want in on it, but the fact is that you can't force that kind of thing. If you're straight, you're straight, nothing's gonna change that. You'll eventually find somewhere you fit in, if you just don't stop looking.
As for relationships, stop thinking about it so much. The pursuit of a relationship when there's no-one right for you around has destroyed many a person.
I wonder whether I should tell you to give up completely, but it's unlikely that's necessary. My situation is that I am far too hideous for any affection to ever be reciprocated, yours is different, you could start looking out of town and for anyone who isn't completely abonimable, it's definately possible to find someone, but I don't want to set you on the track to desperately searching everywhere you can. Just try to enjoy yourself, and forget about getting into a relationship as much as possible.
Hope it helps.