TheStatutoryApe said:
My ex's friend self admitted to a state run psychiatric hospital. My ex asked if I would call her and talk to her because she was really depressed and just needed someone to talk to every now and again. When I talked to her she was mostly coherent but had just taken her meds and started to trail off towards the end of our conversation. In the background I could hear people shouting and acting out. I barely knew her friend yet she was so happy just to talk to me and was practically begging me to stay on the phone with her and call back another time. She cried when she had to get off the phone. That was depressing enough just talking to her, I can not imagine actually having to be there let alone in an institution for the criminally insane. They don't have to mistreat you. Just being in an environment like that is practically cruel and unusual punishment.
I want to tell a lot of deeply personal stories about life in a psychiatric hospital, but this is the internet and deeply personal stories
do not belong on the internet.
There is a drug that is called 'halperidol' and it basically shuts off your brain.
You just sit there and stare off into space, drooling.
Drooling. Lots of that. Because you can't really feel your face. You really can't feel. You just sit there and stare at really nothing for hours and hours and hours and hours, drooling. Until it wears off. Drooling.
You don't daydream because you can't.
You don't think.
This isn't hyperbole, halperidol makes you incapable of producing thought.
You just sort of sit there staring off into space, unable to hold a single coherent thought together for any length of time.
Not even grasping at threads, there is nothing in there, absolutely nothing at all inside you, all you are capable of, physically or mentally, is sitting in a corner, staring at nothing, drooling.
I do not have sufficient words to describe how very, very,
intensely unpleasant halperidol is and it is not even close to the strongest drug any mental institution has at their disposal.
Those of you who want this man to be locked in a room forever, I promise you,
you are getting your wish.