Raven leaned back on the bed, looking up at the ceiling for a moment as Seth finished what he was saying. Why did I have to breakdown at the meeting? Why.....why did I do that? Why couldn't I just keep that hidden like everything else? Maybe.....maybe I'm just running out of room.
"I..." she started. "I guess. I wasn't sure of myself at all after that meeting yesterday. You saw that. Everyone saw that. Everyone that bothered paying attention anyway. I mean when you are dedicated to a life of keeping everything hidden, inside and outside, and you go into a room with a complete stranger like that and he is just able to break through all those defences and pick me apart with such ease, it just...it just made me question myself and what I was really accomplishing at the academy, you know?"
Raven sat back up. The hood remained down, exposing the black hair and her light brown eyes to her guest. "I guess that's why I bothered coming along on this trip. If I wasn't going to be able to do what I tried to do at the academy, what harm was there in trying another place? Although whether or not it was the right decision, I guess that will remain to be seen. But for the first time in a long time, I'm not really sure of what I'm doing, or even if it is the right path, and if it turns out I was wrong, then that's ten solid years of my life I've kind of wasted. I don't know, there's...there's just been a lot of stuff going on in my head that I thought I had taken care of before I even got to the academy, but has come roaring back since those machine men came. It's...I don't know. It's been a bit hard to take I guess."
"I..." she started. "I guess. I wasn't sure of myself at all after that meeting yesterday. You saw that. Everyone saw that. Everyone that bothered paying attention anyway. I mean when you are dedicated to a life of keeping everything hidden, inside and outside, and you go into a room with a complete stranger like that and he is just able to break through all those defences and pick me apart with such ease, it just...it just made me question myself and what I was really accomplishing at the academy, you know?"
Raven sat back up. The hood remained down, exposing the black hair and her light brown eyes to her guest. "I guess that's why I bothered coming along on this trip. If I wasn't going to be able to do what I tried to do at the academy, what harm was there in trying another place? Although whether or not it was the right decision, I guess that will remain to be seen. But for the first time in a long time, I'm not really sure of what I'm doing, or even if it is the right path, and if it turns out I was wrong, then that's ten solid years of my life I've kind of wasted. I don't know, there's...there's just been a lot of stuff going on in my head that I thought I had taken care of before I even got to the academy, but has come roaring back since those machine men came. It's...I don't know. It's been a bit hard to take I guess."