Loneliness and you.
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Lonely is not a medical condition or status, it is a state of mind. I'm too busy learning Shakespeare, looking up new music, and watching movies to be lonely.
If it's a problem, find what's causing your loneliness, and fix it.
I find this song very relaxing.
If it's a problem, find what's causing your loneliness, and fix it.
I find this song very relaxing.
I usually get angry, and kill a bunch of virtual things until it goes away.
Thing is, I'm only just starting to admit to myself that I have these feelings. I didn't want to believe it, but my mental wellbeing has become dependent on the presence of that which also poses the biggest threat to my mental stability; human beings. The creatures that can help me away from an abyss of depression, and then throw me back in at will, adding the element of vengeful anger into a psychological mix with outcomes even I don't want to think about.
I have alot of problems socialising. There seems to be nowhere I would fit in. I'm not athletic enough for sports, not smart enough for any of the typical academic things, but seemingly too smart to socialise through drinking; I figure at some point, the alcohol induced mask is gonna come off, and the friends I had ain't gonna like what they see. Most of all though, it's the lack of logical sense. I've made friends at college who I know according to typical social patterns shouldn't want to come near me. One of the popular girls even talks to me sometimes; everything I know about humans says she should be disgusted at the very sight of me.
Do I drop the logic? Put faith in blind emotion? There is alot to lose. I've seen about the worst of humanity in my time, people who made me wonder about the usage of the word "humane" meaning basic kindness. Humans kill for less than just breaking social rules. Just being born wrong can send humans into homicidal mode. If I get something wrong, it could be fine, or fatal.
To be honest, I don't know. I'd like to think more logical thinking would unveil the answers, like a puzzle that merely needs to be thought about long enough to be solved, but really, I know it could never be that easy.
Thing is, I'm only just starting to admit to myself that I have these feelings. I didn't want to believe it, but my mental wellbeing has become dependent on the presence of that which also poses the biggest threat to my mental stability; human beings. The creatures that can help me away from an abyss of depression, and then throw me back in at will, adding the element of vengeful anger into a psychological mix with outcomes even I don't want to think about.
I have alot of problems socialising. There seems to be nowhere I would fit in. I'm not athletic enough for sports, not smart enough for any of the typical academic things, but seemingly too smart to socialise through drinking; I figure at some point, the alcohol induced mask is gonna come off, and the friends I had ain't gonna like what they see. Most of all though, it's the lack of logical sense. I've made friends at college who I know according to typical social patterns shouldn't want to come near me. One of the popular girls even talks to me sometimes; everything I know about humans says she should be disgusted at the very sight of me.
Do I drop the logic? Put faith in blind emotion? There is alot to lose. I've seen about the worst of humanity in my time, people who made me wonder about the usage of the word "humane" meaning basic kindness. Humans kill for less than just breaking social rules. Just being born wrong can send humans into homicidal mode. If I get something wrong, it could be fine, or fatal.
To be honest, I don't know. I'd like to think more logical thinking would unveil the answers, like a puzzle that merely needs to be thought about long enough to be solved, but really, I know it could never be that easy.
Literature, I learned to appreciate being an observer and not part of the fray from War & Peace.
Would you believe my cure to loneliness is and frustration is Video games? Well truth is i actually have more friends now and a girlfriend of 3.5 years so now i have to break away from playing games because of loneliness. Oh and here is some irony my favorite games were rpgs. These are games that u simulate real life and relationships.
Considering I just got broken up with by my girlfriend of close to a year this is kinda fitting.Hoxton said:
To be honest what I do is play Magic the Gathering as it requires alot of focus and attention. I also play Team Fortress 2. Other than that I socialize as much as possible even if I'm not feeling it. Other than that I focus on a goal somewhere in my future so I don't look back.
