Didn't want to start a new thread, so I figured this one was appropriate.
Dying is my one fear. Not exactly how it will happen, because that's not inevitable (though I think if I lived to be considerably old, I wouldn't like to die in my sleep, preferably awake and then drift off), but that it will happen, and everything I'll be leaving behind. I think it frightens me die when I'm older, as it may feel more inevitable, whereas if it should happen tomorrow it will be less expected.
I don't know when this fear struck me. I think part of it is due to a lack of experience with people dying. An aunt I didn't really know and my 5th class teacher are the closest people to me who have passed, not including a granddad who died before I was born and a granny who went when I was 1 or 2.
It's not a fear that interferes with my life, and it comes and goes. It might not be something I think about for months, but recently it's been unnervingly regular, every few moths or so, usually just when I'm trying to sleep and it's just me and my thoughts. I've read parts of the thread trying to get some comfort, and while some of the outlooks on death were nice, I know it will still be a concern for me.
As I said, it's not the physical act of dying that scares me, it's the thought of leaving behind loved ones, that's it's for eternity and that we could such a depressingly short time here on earth. I'm not religious, though this fear has made me see how the idea of an afterlife is so comforting. So for me death is the epitome of nothing. Even if there were to be an afterlife, it cannot be what we are experiencing right now, and I quite love life as it is.
I know most people here have probably voiced themselves on this topic already, but I guess it feels good to just say it all. The only person I've ever mentioned this too is my girlfriend, because I figure it's not something most people want to talk about and there's little in the way of comfort and it will happen to everyone eventually.
Dying is my one fear. Not exactly how it will happen, because that's not inevitable (though I think if I lived to be considerably old, I wouldn't like to die in my sleep, preferably awake and then drift off), but that it will happen, and everything I'll be leaving behind. I think it frightens me die when I'm older, as it may feel more inevitable, whereas if it should happen tomorrow it will be less expected.
I don't know when this fear struck me. I think part of it is due to a lack of experience with people dying. An aunt I didn't really know and my 5th class teacher are the closest people to me who have passed, not including a granddad who died before I was born and a granny who went when I was 1 or 2.
It's not a fear that interferes with my life, and it comes and goes. It might not be something I think about for months, but recently it's been unnervingly regular, every few moths or so, usually just when I'm trying to sleep and it's just me and my thoughts. I've read parts of the thread trying to get some comfort, and while some of the outlooks on death were nice, I know it will still be a concern for me.
As I said, it's not the physical act of dying that scares me, it's the thought of leaving behind loved ones, that's it's for eternity and that we could such a depressingly short time here on earth. I'm not religious, though this fear has made me see how the idea of an afterlife is so comforting. So for me death is the epitome of nothing. Even if there were to be an afterlife, it cannot be what we are experiencing right now, and I quite love life as it is.
I know most people here have probably voiced themselves on this topic already, but I guess it feels good to just say it all. The only person I've ever mentioned this too is my girlfriend, because I figure it's not something most people want to talk about and there's little in the way of comfort and it will happen to everyone eventually.
