i've been through my fair share of deep depression recently and i think that it has mostly to do with getting caught up in things you cannot control, cannot change, cannot let go of.... things that consume you and make you lose your ability to behave and think rationally. it is incredibly hard to regain the mental clarity you need to excavate yourself from that kind of despair... oddly, maybe sadly, escaping to games that i played in happier times have been a huge help... mgs4, cod4, others... even a few old school nintendo games from online emulators have helped, maybe just as an escape.. maybe more, a faint realignment of my mind that a game i played when i was happy makes my brain go back to that happy feeling. who knows. im lucky though, suicide... though an unavoidable spectre for anyone in an emotional hole has always seemed too much a cheap and easy way out to seem reasonable... so i soldier on, and thank solid snake for his gruff words of kojimic, though sometimes ludicrous, words of wisdom. hang in there brothers and sisters, all good things come to an end, but bad things do so as well and sometimes it is hard to even see what is good and bad until farther down life's road.
enough penny wisdom from a fool, im going back to gaming discussions... happier posts for all!