Suicide really becoming the best possible option.

[Relish in Chaos]

I?m in a similar position to you, and I?m not just saying that either. The only reasons I haven?t killed myself are because I don?t want to hurt my family too, I?m too much of a pussy and am scared of death (I once tried self-harming with a knife, but couldn?t go any further because it started hurting too much), chances are I might somehow fuck it up because I?m probably the most impractical person outside of being actually retarded and, as ridiculous as it may sound, I still have the smallest sliver of hope that things might get better and I?ll actually start enjoying life.

So do what I?m doing: get counselling. Get therapy. Get CBT. It might not work, but it?s worth trying anyway.

 

[SpectacularWebHead]

OH PISS OFF!
There are people out there that have worse lives than you, and right now I just see this as fishing for comfort.
What you should do, is either one of three things! Yes! I have three things that can greatly improve your life.

A) Get a penis enlargement.
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Seriously, this helped me greatly, I feel like a bigger man when I walked out.

B)If you have a special skill, grow it, if you don't have a skill, find it.

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Everyone has a special skill that they have for themselves, for instance, I have drawing and painting, I'm a better painter than a drawer, but I do try to improve myself in drawing,since I aspire to become an animator someday, and if that fails, then I'll probably just go into computers.

C)Don't pity yourself, always have respect for yourself and keep your head high.

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Mate, I've been in the same spot in my life, and you know what? I felt like you, that I was a hashbrown who didn't deserve anything, but you know, I started looking on the brighter side of things, even if it was hard from time to time.

Take care and if these answers don't help, then seek help.
For your answers, are not in the end of a barrel.


-The Glorious Manwhore.

...I think the fact that it started with "Piss off" and ended with "The glorious manwhore" makes it a little hard to value your opinions mate.

The reason, why I'm telling you to piss off, is because you need to find something that's well, you. Not just post something on the forums. Trust me, it's better for you that way and also, get some help.

Also, this just sets it in stone for me, this is a pity fiesta. Don't do that to your self.

Also: Penis enlargments? Have you SEEN my penis? (Actually, I'd hope not....) Aaaaaaanyway, thats one of few things I'm very very happy about....Hang on, there was relevancy here somewhere... Ah, yes. Look, I just want the general opinion, unbiased, on this particular option. That's all really.

 

[Glorious manwhore]

OH PISS OFF!
There are people out there that have worse lives than you, and right now I just see this as fishing for comfort.
What you should do, is either one of three things! Yes! I have three things that can greatly improve your life.

A) Get a penis enlargement.
-
Seriously, this helped me greatly, I feel like a bigger man when I walked out.

B)If you have a special skill, grow it, if you don't have a skill, find it.

-
Everyone has a special skill that they have for themselves, for instance, I have drawing and painting, I'm a better painter than a drawer, but I do try to improve myself in drawing,since I aspire to become an animator someday, and if that fails, then I'll probably just go into computers.

C)Don't pity yourself, always have respect for yourself and keep your head high.

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Mate, I've been in the same spot in my life, and you know what? I felt like you, that I was a hashbrown who didn't deserve anything, but you know, I started looking on the brighter side of things, even if it was hard from time to time.

Take care and if these answers don't help, then seek help.
For your answers, are not in the end of a barrel.


-The Glorious Manwhore.

...I think the fact that it started with "Piss off" and ended with "The glorious manwhore" makes it a little hard to value your opinions mate.

The reason, why I'm telling you to piss off, is because you need to find something that's well, you. Not just post something on the forums. Trust me, it's better for you that way and also, get some help.

Also, this just sets it in stone for me, this is a pity fiesta. Don't do that to your self.

Also: Penis enlargments? Have you SEEN my penis? (Actually, I'd hope not....) Aaaaaaanyway, thats one of few things I'm very very happy about....Hang on, there was relevancy here somewhere... Ah, yes. Look, I just want the general opinion, unbiased, on this particular option. That's all really.

Exactly! Always find it very easy to find something good about yourself.
Also, that's crap, if you wanted an opinion that said " hey kid, go kill yourself", then go on 4chan.
Seriously, I don't think anyone here actually wants a person on the internet to die or commit suicide no matter how bad the things look.

 

[Haunted Serenity]

I prefer to think of suicide not really as an option because it doesn't really solve anything. It just opens up a new issue that needs to get relsoved. You might not deal with it but you might have to as well. What happens if you survive your atempt as well? Also a big problem.Get help and talk about it. It's surprisingly easy once you find a person you can onnect with who knows how to help. Then after that it's just a memory you can fart at.

 

[JeffBergGold]

Son, suicide is never an option. Think of the despair you will leave behind for the people that love you. Think of the adulation you will leave behind for the people that hate you!

Both of those reasons are why suicide is not an option.

 

[an annoyed writer]

I was there. I was about to give myself a brand new 11mm "air induction port" through the sides of my head via Sig Sauer GSR. It jammed. I tried overdosing on Oxycontin and Ibuprofen, and yet I still lived. Through a crazy twist of fate, I still have yet to be another transgender kid to have died by suicide. However, my recommendation is to find someone to talk to, because It'll help you find that life is worth living, even if it's not all that extraordinary. And if you want to do something extraordinary, find out how to do it and DO IT! Take a cruise! Go have sex with someone! Go skydiving and wrestle an angry bear! Strangle said bear to death with your parachute! That'd be something to be remembered by, even if it's just by PETA. Just don't kill yourself. Because then, you'd be robbing yourself of whatever extraordinary possibilities life has in store for you.

The captcha has a wicked sense of humor today. At first, it said "call me maybe" and I reloaded it because that song actually makes me want to reconsider the 11mm vent hole option. When it reloaded, It said "alive and kicking". Yeah, that's much better. Now even Captcha agrees with me. You better stay that way OP. Even Cap doesn't want you gone.

 

[Galletea]

Suicide is very rarely a good answer. Your position isn't particularly fun right now, but it will improve. Very few of us will ever get a job that involves our hobby, or even our best skills. I have a degree in languages, and I'm good at art and music. I work in a bookstore. That's just how things are. It isn't perfect, but it's liveable.

Your social position is only going to change if you want it to. You don't have to like everything about someone to be friends with them, and hang out with them occasionally. Your confidence (and therefore, your likeability) grows with practice. A penis enlargement won't help, it will just make your pants less comfortable.

I assume you are in high school, after a sneaky peek at your profile. So remember that high school is worse than everything after it. The people that don't like you are going to be bastards about it, because of the high school dynamic. I hated school. I was bullied and picked on and the few friends I had were constantly stabbing me in the back. In the end I took a chance and went out without them to a gothy nightclub and made new friends there. I failed my As levels, and decided to do them again at the local college and then went to uni. I already mentioned that I don't get to use my degree, but it was worth the experience.

 

[scottaleger]

No No ....................Never

 

[scottaleger]

No No ....................Never

 

[hotdogoctopus]

No, I am not going to say I'll kill myself after this I post this thread. Just getting that out there first of all. I'm saying that I am seriously contemplating suicide as a the most viable option to solve my problems.

I am failing at school. I have horrific social skills. My life will never be the way I want it to be, and quite frankly, if past experiences are anything to go by, it's only going to get worse. I feel bored with life, stuck in the knowledge that I will never do anything amazing, I will never be remembered as more than a statistic, and I will never live up to my aspirations.

I am essentially the quintessential awkward nerdy teenager. I get picked on, ignored, insulted and generally my life sucks. However, unlike most nerdy teens, I have no field I greatly excel in. I'm an okay artist, but the chances of me ever gaining a career from it are astronomical. My life is, as a whole, stagnant in a bad place. I have very few real friends, all of whom I never see for many reasons. The entire world seems heartless and cruel, with very few people in it not intent on ruining life for the rest of us. I have thought of many routes to solve my problems, most involving waiting with hope in a world of hopeless-ness. Suicide has become the most logical solution, and I can't think of many reasons not to. I want to know what the opinion of the majority is so I can base my opinion on consensus. Thoughts?

I think that a post like this is a cry for help. A hope that someone somewhere will tell you that life gets better and that your life in specific is sacred. Yes, life gets better in little ways, but it will always be an ultimately fruitless grind from one day to the next with the ever-present specter of death looming in front of us. I'd say get out of high school and try some 'real life' before you decide you don't like it. I have and I am indifferent to living. But at least I made this decision after hormones could no longer be an excuse for my potential self-demise.

 

[Moth_Monk]

Why does one need a reason to be alive? Just carry on living...just because.

Secondly, so what if you're not "achieving" in a way that society dictates you should be? Who cares what society thinks is important? Society gets almost everything wrong anyway.

The universe is probably going to end in heat death. So, what the hell! Take this on as your life philosophy, it can only be an improvement to your current thinking:

Spoiler

I also recommend that you, at least look on the wiki, find out about Epicurean philosophy In particular the "four part cure":

Don't fear god,
Don't worry about death;
What is good is easy to get, and
What is terrible is easy to endure
(Philodemus, Herculaneum Papyrus, 1005, 4.9-14).[2]

"The fundamental obstacle to happiness, says Epicurus, is anxiety," writes D. S. Hutchinson.[3]

Tertiary edit:

Finally, let the angelically, awesome sounds of The National grace your eyes and ears; always helps me to feel better about things

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[TheRundownRabbit]

So, I am assuming your in highschool yes? Look, you need to keep your head up and stand tall, don't take any shit from the people that are jerks to you. I'm not going to say anything about the friend aspect because when I was in highschool I said "these guys are gonna be my bro's for life", 1st semester of college "wow, turns out my friends in highschool were kinda douches". I am not gonna beat around the bush, suicide is the cowardly way out, but you can be they guy who stayed strong among all of this, you can be the guy that continued to believe in himself when everything seemed dark, you can be the guy that never gave up. You conquer this, and you won't believe what you can accomplish. Plus, your 16, it's too early to be judging your capabilities.

The best people in this world are not the people who never had anything bad happen to them, the best people in this world are the ones had bad things happen to them, but endured.

 

[Erana]

stuck in the knowledge that I will never do anything amazing, I will never be remembered as more than a statistic, and I will never live up to my aspirations.

I've heard this same kind of thing from successful gifted adults, Ivy League grad students, even downright a couple people who are downright child prodigies, plenty of normal people, and sometimes, even myself.

This sensation of disappointment in life is a part of the human condition. It may feel real and personal, but its just a thing to accept and ignore, if it doesn't provide you with positive motivation. No one's ever truly special or will be remembered forever, and on the rare occasion in which it seems that way, it usually winds up being either a miasma of the worst aspects of fame, or people know you as a name and idea and constantly screw up what you stood for.

If you're on the Escapist, you're probably a gamer, so think of it this way: your favorite game is always going to be limited. Your pokemon game isn't going to have a world fleshed out beyond what is relevent to training your 'mons. Skyrim isn't going to let you Dragon Shout mountains into rubble. Team Fortress 2 is never going to let your characters pick up other classes weapons and use them as you please.
For whatever reason, games are going to have shortcomings or areas of disappointment if you look hard enough, but as gamers, we ignore those aspects so that we may better enjoy the game. My question is that if you can do that for a video game, why can't you make due with the shortcomings of your real life, if it means you could make the best of it by doing so?

 

[Vegosiux]

I'm going to go against this entire "Be positive, be positive" thing that seems to be going on around here, cause you can't just flip a switch like that. Motivational talk never did it for me, past me quirking an eyebrow and going "Uh-huh. Can we talk about my problems now, maybe?"

But, death still isn't something to be rushed into. I mean had I killed myself that one time, I'd have missed some fun stuff. That'd be a waste. And I don't like wasted stuff.

My point being, yeah, life sucks, but it doesn't suck all the time. The moment you start overthinking and overanalyzing it though, boy, your're setting yourself up for trouble. In the end, life isn't about being positive. It's about being stubborn.

 

[KezKitsch]

I know at the time it seems like it and it seems obvious to say, but you have to remember : high school is not the world.

I had an awful time at school myself and I got the fuck out of there as soon as I was able. I've suffered bad depression all my life.

But you know what, I have a lot of things in my life that bring me happiness now and I actively feel I would much rather be alive.

Even if you feel shit for years, there's a (very likely) possibility that in a few years time you're gonna be happy or at least feel you have something to live for. You can get out your home town. You can meet someone who changes your life. There are endless possibilities of what can happen to you.

7 years on from high school (and 5 of them spent in a deep depression doing nothing of note and not leaving the house) I have my apartment, I have a guy who's been there for me the whole time and been amazing, I've just started my own business and it's going better than I could have hoped for. If I killed myself when I was 16, where would I be? Well...dead. No matter how bad things are, there's always the chance things will improve and you find happiness. Obviously this is impossible when you're dead.

So follow the good advice in this thread, go to the doctor (seriously I finally found meds that work for me, I can't function without medication), get counselling.

I just felt compelled to sign up now and enforce that "it gets better" isn't just a thing people say to cheer you up, it's true and I'm proof. Take care <3 (and I can't stress enough that you should go about getting help soon as possible, depression is an illness. You wouldn't let a broken leg heal itself, you would put it in a cast. You need treatment for the illness)

 

[Jonluw]

I used to be in a very similar state of mind. I wasn't failing at school though.

What I did was decide that I would stop worrying about the future and just enjoy what I have. I managed to find some friends to hang out with, and got to experience things like alcohol which improved my life by a lot, making me feel socially competent and content.

In any case, what I'm saying is try to pull through for a couple of years while just trying to enjoy what you have. You're likely to stop feeling so depressed after a while.
If it gets really serious, go see a therapist. Try to work out a way to be happy with your life.

Though it may seem at the moment like you'll never be happy with your life, I'm willing to wager there are moments when you are happy, even if they are in the minority right?
Well, just keep going and those moments will start making up the majority of your time.

Also, you're something like 15-16 years old. That particular period of your life is characterized by one thing: You spend the majority of your time in an arena where you're expected to interact with completely random people your age. It sucks. It really does. But that's not what real life is like. Teenagers in that kind of context are unbearable to be around. However, that's not the kind of environment you have to deal with out in real life.
Also this:
http://www.cracked.com/blog/4-things-i-wish-id-known-as-awkward-high-schooler/

 

[Rawberry101]

I'm gonna jump on the "you're only a teenager" bandwagon. How can you know if your life truly sucks if it's only a quarter/fifth over? At least try halfway.

Since most of the important things have been said, I'll say watch Naruto!!! That guy should be everyone's idol, especially those who are feeling down and out.

But in all seriousness, it is my firm belief that those who take their own lives are really quitting at a time when they should be trying. It is regrettable if you do indeed choose this way as an out. Like I said, regrettable, but not sad. I don't want to sound all high and mighty, I'm only a teenager too, but there's so much else left to be discovered by us in these years. Most of it I don't even know about.

 

[SycoMantis91]

Most of the good shit has been taken, so I'll just add this (I didn't read every response mind you): Suicide isn't a logical solution to your problems, because it doesn't resolve anything, it just stops them. It's not making everything better, it's not turning the ship around, it's not any form of problem solving, and it certainly doesn't make the people you know's lives any easier. All it does is stop you from having to deal with growing up like everyone else. I've felt the same way you do, and still do on many occasions. But offing yourself does no one any good.

Things do get better, sometimes by themselves, but most of the time you have to work at it. Even though I'm the nice guy that always gets friend zoned by the few girls that give him the time of day, any time I can cheer up a friend who's down, make them feel better or make them smile with a good pun or something, I feel better about myself because to me, making people, especially the people I care about feel better means a lot more to me than inventing the next iPod or some shit like that.

Plus, you seem very eloquent for your age, perhaps writing is a skill that you possess.

 

[Zack Alklazaris]

No, I am not going to say I'll kill myself after this I post this thread. Just getting that out there first of all. I'm saying that I am seriously contemplating suicide as a the most viable option to solve my problems.

I am failing at school. I have horrific social skills. My life will never be the way I want it to be, and quite frankly, if past experiences are anything to go by, it's only going to get worse. I feel bored with life, stuck in the knowledge that I will never do anything amazing, I will never be remembered as more than a statistic, and I will never live up to my aspirations.

I am essentially the quintessential awkward nerdy teenager. I get picked on, ignored, insulted and generally my life sucks. However, unlike most nerdy teens, I have no field I greatly excel in. I'm an okay artist, but the chances of me ever gaining a career from it are astronomical. My life is, as a whole, stagnant in a bad place. I have very few real friends, all of whom I never see for many reasons. The entire world seems heartless and cruel, with very few people in it not intent on ruining life for the rest of us. I have thought of many routes to solve my problems, most involving waiting with hope in a world of hopeless-ness. Suicide has become the most logical solution, and I can't think of many reasons not to. I want to know what the opinion of the majority is so I can base my opinion on consensus. Thoughts?

You pretty much described the childhood of ever single Escapist here. Now I guess a lot of people here are you going to give you the "its gets better" or "suicide isn't the anwser" treatment. I'm going to tell you what really is going to happen.

You can keep theorizing what your capable of without taking a chance, growing in experience and eduction, which leads to a lack of confidence. You will be sad, lonely, and probably still live with your parents or...

You can stop saying you can't do something and instead just get up say "fuck it" and try for it anyway. You may fail, but it will give you experience. You need confidence, its something that gives you so much power. People look up to you more, see you as more than what you really are, with this you can get a job or a girl. You gain experience and educate yourself. With this you become that person you want to be.

I know its difficult out there, I've been there. I've wallowed in a shit storm caused not only by myself, but by my peers. I have seen myself as a leech opon the world and more worthless to society than the Hiltons. I wanted to die when I was 11 years old, ok?

My advice is not to have that mind set. It settles in, it gets in your soul. It took me almost a decade to get out of that depression regardless of how well my life was going. I know its hard, especially when others seem to be doing so well who are complete idiots.

Look, you owe the world NOTHING. You only need to worry about yourself right now. Strive for yourself by choosing a path you want to do, not what you think you need to do. Try to help others on your travels, but still look out for yourself.

 

[The Unworthy Gentleman]

There is no logic in suicide, in this case it's a quick solution to problems you aren't willing to face up to and put the effort in to solve. You're just playing the victim. If you're dissatisfied with your life then that's a big sign telling you to change as a person.

If you can't get the marks you want in school then maybe you should put more effort into study and learning. Read your textbook cover to cover, make notes and illustrate them to help you remember. If your social skills are lacking then maybe you need to look at some self help. Try and be more confident and assertive, talk to people more and try to keep the conversation going.

The logical solution is to identify the problem and fix it. I hope, rather than play the victim like so many others, you take that option; I certainly hope suicide never goes further than thoughts for you.

Take solace in the fact that you live in the UK and that GCSEs, which I assume you've just gotten results for, don't matter all that much. There's always apprenticeships and getting a job straight away if it does go tits up.

I'm going to go against this entire "Be positive, be positive" thing that seems to be going on around here, cause you can't just flip a switch like that.

I disagree. I regularly choose to be happy rather than unhappy simply because it feels better. It's not something I'm not in control of so why can't I make that choice? I choose to be angry about certain things, I choose to love things, I choose what makes me excited and I choose when I'm happy. Emotions aren't something that eludes our grasp, they're just more impulsive than concious decisions.