That moment when you realise you might be a terrible person.

[Fasckira]

-I promised myself that next girlfriend is going to be an orphan because have never been able to stand in-laws.

This is fucking genius. If I were wearing a hat I'd tip it to you.

- I accept myself as i am and feel no guilt.

Yep. Nothing more to add to that really.

 

[suitepee7]

You ever had any of the moments when you realise you might not be as morally clean as you'd like to think?

At the moment, I'm in third year of university. Dissertation deadline impending, major projects all over the place, all that sort of stuff. I usually don't have much faith in my own abilities. I've been procrastinating more than often, that much I admit. Honestly, there are reasons beyond laziness for that. My personal and mental problems have been getting in the way, and I have enough experience with them to know that it's better to wait for the storm to pass and make up for lost time when possible than to try and work through it. Not that my damn lecturers understand even a bit of that...

However, I've found out through social networking that most of my colleagues are not anywhere close to finished yet, whereas I have already submitted a first draft for feedback. I had thought I had left it a little late, but clearly I'm doing better in relation than I had thought.

This pleases me. I feel like, knowing how harsh academic pressure can be on a mind, I should not be taking such a high level of pleasure in their obstacles. Sure, they'll get it done. They always seem to do so without breaking a sweat, but for now, it's nice to know that I, whom they would insult for my coping mechanisms, have gotten ahead of them.

And yet, reading that paragraph back, I feel like the nerdy, unlikable asshole from a high school comedy. I'd feel a lot more guilty if I could help it at all.

Captcha: Creative process. How fitting.

yeah, same here pretty much, third year dissertation joys. had a meeting to discuss my first draft a week ago, got it back pretty awesome. a girl who was also in the room hadn't started, and then a relative died and so still hadn't started it. this amused me more than anything else, and i cannot fathom how people who have not started are not shitting themselves when i know full well i'm not in a bad place, but am still worried...

my terrible person tendencies started much earlier though, just sat in class in secondary school and i had a dawning realization, 'nearly everybody in this room is a massive ****, and i could not care less if they lived or died'. as far as i'm concerned i consider all people terrible until they prove otherwise.

i'm actually a nice person, but people have a habit of getting my attention by being a douche

 

[Lynx]

Recently, yeah. Done some questionable things since my big breakup a few months ago, nothing horrible, but nothing to be proud of either. I've been very out of character lately. I think I was just so exhausted and drained that I went "screw it" and stopped thinking about consequences. I'm beginning to wake up from that haze now though, and it feels good to be getting back on track again.

 

[Tactical Pause]

Yeah, I came to this sort of realization a couple years back. It wasn't really that I'd done anything horrible, but rather that I became aware that some of my thought processes were kind of... wrong, in certain respects (I mean objectively wrong, not just different or anything). Since then, I've been working on fixing the problem, with varying degrees of success.

 

[Grach]

Well, reading all these confessions really made it easy for me to say that I'm kind of shallow and lazy.

 

[Doclector]

( though i would never harm a human being)

Pfft, light weight.

Spoiler: Get this

I actually like Nazeem.

I also get incredibly spiteful to anyone who outwardly displays their own happiness because jelly.

Captcha: what do you associate with Nebraska?
Answer: eiffel 65 doing the splits as they gargle molten burritos made from the meat of the great beaver.

I get that as well. I've always thought there are two kinds of thought. The initial, unfiltered thought, and the rationalised thought after you've had time to think about it. Whenever I see a couple in public whom I do not know my initial, involuntary thought ranges from "Fuck you" to "Grab the nearest blunt instrument and don't stop hitting until they both stop breathing".

Actually, that's probably a bigger sign of being a terrible person than my OP. Though, to be honest, that is my initial thought. After that first ten seconds of the thought being in my head, I realise how batshit insane that is and get all rational again. I have that intitial thought about killing random strangers too much, though. When people get in my way, or look in me funny, especially when they decide to take a trolley to the self check out machines, god, fuck those people. Not as if I haven't seeked help, though. The NHS is just unwilling to listen until someone actually dies.

 

[Someone Depressing]

For a human to think of themselves as pure is disgutsing in the first place.

Oh, I'm sorry, O Gotoma the Buddha, please give us your infinite wisdom. Yes, you pure ************, sing... damnyou, make pretty noises, amuse me!

As for when I realised I was a really bad person at heart... hmm, tough one. There was that time I let a kid's bike get stolen because I remember he threw stones at my sister's car. There was the time I petted someone's dog, it bit me in shock, and although I insisted I was ok and it was fine, the poor dog ended up getting put down anyway...

yeah, I'm a pretty awful person.

 

[The Salty Vulcan]

I named a Magikarp Stephen Hawking