Yeah, like i said, whenever i come back from a prolonged absence, i lose a lot of the essential reality warping power and insight that i would normally have, and when i come back, since this asylum has become a sort of sub-dimensional hub and contains aswell as produces a lot of this power that can restore my original being, it all rushes back into my mind at such a rate that there is quite a bit of excess energy, so i revert to a sort of supreme-godlike state of being, and it tends to make me act... different, to say the least....