The depressing post

[freakydan]

I cut myself, and I not long ago made a half arsed attempt at suicide, due to family troubles, and school troubles.

I hate my father. He was abusive and just a general dick. But he has been kicked out of home. Which is just as bad as good i guess.

I also believe I'm going to fail Year 12(this year) and thus not get into Uni because I fail at English. Even if I get A Grades in my other subjects (Physics, Chemistry and the two hardest Maths) I will probably not be accepted.

I have no direction, no goals, no anything in my life, I only want to go to University because it seems to be my only option, and it's what everyone else is doing. I hate just about everything, and though i have friends, I spend most lunchtimes listening to music and ignoring them. I contemplate suicide all the time and find no reasons not to, besides the obvious fact that it will hurt others. I never thought my life would come to this...

THATS NOT THE ANSWER AND YOU NOW IT THERE IS SOMETHING OUT THERE FOR YOU AND IF YOUR GONNA JUST MOPE THAN YOU WILL GO ON WONDERING FOREVER!NOW YOU GET YOUR ASS IN SCHOOL AND YOU LEARN LEARN LEARN THAN YOU GO LIVE LIVE LIVE THAN YOU GO EFFIN LOVE LOVE LOVE DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME YOUR GONNA HATE YOUR SELF EVEN MORE IF YOU END IT ALL!NOW TELL ME WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU GONNA DO DAMMIT!?

That's...that's not how you respond to something like that. Yelling at someone makes them feel like they've done something wrong, which only makes things worse. Ease on the breaks and off the caps.
Brainpalm, I'm sorry to hear about your troubles, but I'm glad to hear that you are taking other people's feelings into acount. I had a friend who committed suicide in late December, and it's one of the worst feelings in the world to suddenly realize that a good friend or family member was in that much pain and never said anything. My thoughts are with you.

OT: In college, I was madly in love with my girlfriend, I would do anything for her, and frequently gave up entire weekends with my other friends to help her through her own emotional issues. When we broke up, and she told me that she had never been happy with me and that I was a controlling asshole, I turned to writing to keep me from going off the deep end, and really wrote quite a bit of stuff I'm very proud of, and have recieved some pretty impressive praise for.
It's been nearly five years since the breakup, and I'm ready to move on. However, I seem to have the habit of falling madly in love with women who see me as a friend, or a brother, or some other purely platonic figure. To make matters worse, I haven't been able to write more than a couple pages in a year and a half, and I have no idea why. I've started filling the gap with excessive amounts of video games, which I know is unhealthy, but I'm having a harder and harder time giving a shit.

 

[nunqual]

I'm going through the same thing. I wouldn't say I love her though. But she keeps sending mixed signals. Really annoying and depressing especially since she has a boyfriend >_>

Well if she has a boyfriend I wouldn't try to court her dude... Then you just come across as an asshole.

OT: I'm pretty optimistic, so it's hard for me to think of something... Let's see, I think my girlfriend is a hypochondriac, and I can't do anything except enable her further.

 

[Xcelsior]

My Parents are probably going to split. They haven't got on for a long time so I can't say I'm not surprised. I'm old enough to know it's not my needs they need to be considering but primarily their own, but it still saddens me.

Edit:

last night one of my best friends got incredibly drunk and started taking swings at me for no apparent reason

and this sint the 1st time this has happened

That happened between 2 friends of mine, they haven't spoken to each other since.

 

[Timberwolf0924]

Only sad thing in my life right now, I failed a math test.

Oh yea, also had my girlfriend currently leave me for another woman.
Who I introduced her to, because I wanted a threesome (luckly I got it)

 

[Andalusa]

Was recently told I was a stupid, pathetic, selfish ***** for being depressed. Saying things like that really help improve my condition.

 

[amazinglettera]

My girlfriend keeps hogging the big TV... ;_;

 

[ultrachicken]

I helped my girlfriend get over being raped multiple times by a peadophile ring. We spent two years togeather before she told me on valentines day that she only loves me as a brother and not as a lover.

And thats after i bought her an expensive boquet of flowers and give up X amount of my life for her.

So, do you like being around her, or did you do all that specifically because you wanted to get with her?

If it's the former, then what's the problem? If it's the latter, then you deserve it.

OT: I haven't had much depression fuel in my life.

 

[Vitor Goncalves]

Was recently told I was a stupid, pathetic, selfish ***** for being depressed. Saying things like that really help improve my condition.

OMG, cant look at your avatar, WARNING!!!! CUTENESS OVERLOAD!!! GONNA EXPLODE!!!

On your comment, been there, its horrible (and many people do insult you for being depressed), even thought of suicide but then thought about the person I love the most, my mother, who doesnt deserve to suffer such pain as loosing a son, and thought I would be the worst of the douchebags. So if I ever suicide, better be after she dies, of terribly old age (>100 years old). If I kill myself before then I hope there is a hell where I can suffer the worst of all pains for eternity.

OT: Not depressed at the moment, somethimes feel a bit angry and frustrated with some things but I know there are billions in worse conditions so I shouldnt be complaining that much.

 

[Andalusa]

OMG, cant look at your avatar, WARNING!!!! CUTENESS OVERLOAD!!! GONNA EXPLODE!!!

On your comment, been there, its horrible (and many people do insult you for being depressed), even thought of suicide but then thought about the person I love the most, my mother, who doesnt deserve to suffer such pain as loosing a son, and thought I would be the worst of the douchebags. So if I ever suicide, better be after she dies, of terribly old age (>100 years old). If I kill myself before then I hope there is a hell where I can suffer the worst of all pains for eternity.

OT: Not depressed at the moment, somethimes feel a bit angry and frustrated with some things but I know there are billions in worse conditions so I shouldnt be complaining that much.

Thoughts of suicide have been running rampant in my head... the only reason I haven't acted on it is because I'm absolutely terrified of death. [small]I'm not so bothered about hurting my mother considering she was the one doing the insulting... that made it hurt so much more[/small]

 

[LightningBanks]

I pretty much realsing a few things

1) I am almost no effect on my friends whatsoever, Im just a little side on that no one really cares for

2) People generally see me as a shittier version of my 'best friends'

3) My dating side is non existant, and the one relationship I did have I was better off not having (emotion wise)

4) I have no real unique attributes of my own. I just go to school, come home and play games. Every time I try to do something I end up just being bad for ages (as far as 6 years) and just coming home and playing games to cheer me up, even putting of school work till about 4amin the morning, where I rush it and go to sleep to get up at 8

5) Im have so little self esteem,I actually worry walking through school incase someones gonna insult me or something. Im exxtremely shy and always panicing about wha people think of me, even going as far as being upset for like an hour if I tell a bad joke or something. I generally drown out this thoughts by playing games (again)

Im in a hole atm ><

 

[Cap'n Ninja]

OMG, cant look at your avatar, WARNING!!!! CUTENESS OVERLOAD!!! GONNA EXPLODE!!!

On your comment, been there, its horrible (and many people do insult you for being depressed), even thought of suicide but then thought about the person I love the most, my mother, who doesnt deserve to suffer such pain as loosing a son, and thought I would be the worst of the douchebags. So if I ever suicide, better be after she dies, of terribly old age (>100 years old). If I kill myself before then I hope there is a hell where I can suffer the worst of all pains for eternity.

OT: Not depressed at the moment, somethimes feel a bit angry and frustrated with some things but I know there are billions in worse conditions so I shouldnt be complaining that much.

Thoughts of suicide have been running rampant in my head... the only reason I haven't acted on it is because I'm absolutely terrified of death. [small]I'm not so bothered about hurting my mother considering she was the one doing the insulting... that made it hurt so much more[/small]

For what it's worth, some random crazy girl on the internet would miss you. I kind of like seeing your tweets about things at the cathedral, even if I know nothing other than it's a cathedral at the other end of a long, straight track that looks pretty in the winter.

I may or may not have accidentally left twitter scrolling down your feed when I went to the toilet the other night. I kind of found it at the point around when you had those pictures of the deer.

 

[Dapsen]

I seriously miss my girlfriend, and I'm tired as fuck.
I should write an awesome song for my band, but I'm too tired to start working with melodies and rhymes.
These things make me sad.

 

[PrimoThePro]

I don't feel like saying anything from my life that makes me sad, so I will post this.

 

[Someone Depressing]

My Laptop Blue-screened

 

[Vitor Goncalves]

OMG, cant look at your avatar, WARNING!!!! CUTENESS OVERLOAD!!! GONNA EXPLODE!!!

On your comment, been there, its horrible (and many people do insult you for being depressed), even thought of suicide but then thought about the person I love the most, my mother, who doesnt deserve to suffer such pain as loosing a son, and thought I would be the worst of the douchebags. So if I ever suicide, better be after she dies, of terribly old age (>100 years old). If I kill myself before then I hope there is a hell where I can suffer the worst of all pains for eternity.

OT: Not depressed at the moment, somethimes feel a bit angry and frustrated with some things but I know there are billions in worse conditions so I shouldnt be complaining that much.

Thoughts of suicide have been running rampant in my head... the only reason I haven't acted on it is because I'm absolutely terrified of death. [small]I'm not so bothered about hurting my mother considering she was the one doing the insulting... that made it hurt so much more[/small]

My mother would never insult me. Even my father who is usually uncapable of showing any level of empathy and would usually insult me and make me believe I was the worst human being on the face of earth was quite helpful when I was really depressed.