You've got a point. It's more of a gateway depression than a hardcore suicide. First is strongly worded disappointed from someone you love, next is the feeling that you'll never succeed at anything in life, followed by logical apathy, then anger and hatred at the world for not being fair, for telling you that you will always be at the bottom.Sacman said:I can get over that with some mild depression and self inflicted wounds...Paksenarrion said:Being told everything you do is wrong by someone you look up to.
I didn't go through all of that I got depressed and than hated myself for not being good enough to succeed at anything than I just accepted the fact and here I am after two suicide attempts and 1 year of medication later...Paksenarrion said:You've got a point. It's more of a gateway depression than a hardcore suicide. First is strongly worded disappointed from someone you love, next is the feeling that you'll never succeed at anything in life, followed by logical apathy, then anger and hatred at the world for not being fair, for telling you that you will always be at the bottom.Sacman said:I can get over that with some mild depression and self inflicted wounds...Paksenarrion said:Being told everything you do is wrong by someone you look up to.
Then, constant rage at everything and everyone.
That's what I get for mixing my depressions...I have suicidal/homicidal...er, issues. It's like being, um...manic depressive? Well, it's more like rampant paranoia.Sacman said:I didn't go through all of that I got depressed and than hated myself for not being good enough to succeed at anything than I just accepted the fact and here I am after two suicide attempts and 1 year of medication later...Paksenarrion said:You've got a point. It's more of a gateway depression than a hardcore suicide. First is strongly worded disappointed from someone you love, next is the feeling that you'll never succeed at anything in life, followed by logical apathy, then anger and hatred at the world for not being fair, for telling you that you will always be at the bottom.Sacman said:I can get over that with some mild depression and self inflicted wounds...Paksenarrion said:Being told everything you do is wrong by someone you look up to.
Then, constant rage at everything and everyone.
What Tequila Sunrise?Paksenarrion said:That's what I get for mixing my depressions...I have suicidal/homicidal...er, issues. It's like being, um...manic depressive? Well, it's more like rampant paranoia.Sacman said:I didn't go through all of that I got depressed and than hated myself for not being good enough to succeed at anything than I just accepted the fact and here I am after two suicide attempts and 1 year of medication later...Paksenarrion said:You've got a point. It's more of a gateway depression than a hardcore suicide. First is strongly worded disappointed from someone you love, next is the feeling that you'll never succeed at anything in life, followed by logical apathy, then anger and hatred at the world for not being fair, for telling you that you will always be at the bottom.Sacman said:I can get over that with some mild depression and self inflicted wounds...Paksenarrion said:Being told everything you do is wrong by someone you look up to.
Then, constant rage at everything and everyone.
I feel like we're flashing each other with psychological wounds, like in that one movie with Mel Gibson.
I always thought Tequila Sunrise was just an Eagles song! I was thinking more of...the one where he teams up with Danny Glover?Sacman said:What Tequila Sunrise?Paksenarrion said:That's what I get for mixing my depressions...I have suicidal/homicidal...er, issues. It's like being, um...manic depressive? Well, it's more like rampant paranoia.Sacman said:I didn't go through all of that I got depressed and than hated myself for not being good enough to succeed at anything than I just accepted the fact and here I am after two suicide attempts and 1 year of medication later...Paksenarrion said:You've got a point. It's more of a gateway depression than a hardcore suicide. First is strongly worded disappointed from someone you love, next is the feeling that you'll never succeed at anything in life, followed by logical apathy, then anger and hatred at the world for not being fair, for telling you that you will always be at the bottom.Sacman said:I can get over that with some mild depression and self inflicted wounds...Paksenarrion said:Being told everything you do is wrong by someone you look up to.
Then, constant rage at everything and everyone.
I feel like we're flashing each other with psychological wounds, like in that one movie with Mel Gibson.
I had suicidal tendencies for a long time before I had my little... epiphany and, I guess, I just stopped caring about the fact that I will never be good enough and I felt a lot better for some reason I can't explain it. It was like I had a huge burden lifted off of me but I just didn't care that I wasn't good enough anymore, it wasn't that I didn't care what other people thought I just... I honestly don't know I've never thought about it this much before...
the only one I can think of is Lethal Weapon but I don't remember...Paksenarrion said:I always thought Tequila Sunrise was just an Eagles song! I was thinking more of...the one where he teams up with Danny Glover?Sacman said:What Tequila Sunrise?Paksenarrion said:That's what I get for mixing my depressions...I have suicidal/homicidal...er, issues. It's like being, um...manic depressive? Well, it's more like rampant paranoia.Sacman said:I didn't go through all of that I got depressed and than hated myself for not being good enough to succeed at anything than I just accepted the fact and here I am after two suicide attempts and 1 year of medication later...Paksenarrion said:You've got a point. It's more of a gateway depression than a hardcore suicide. First is strongly worded disappointed from someone you love, next is the feeling that you'll never succeed at anything in life, followed by logical apathy, then anger and hatred at the world for not being fair, for telling you that you will always be at the bottom.Sacman said:I can get over that with some mild depression and self inflicted wounds...Paksenarrion said:Being told everything you do is wrong by someone you look up to.
Then, constant rage at everything and everyone.
I feel like we're flashing each other with psychological wounds, like in that one movie with Mel Gibson.
I had suicidal tendencies for a long time before I had my little... epiphany and, I guess, I just stopped caring about the fact that I will never be good enough and I felt a lot better for some reason I can't explain it. It was like I had a huge burden lifted off of me but I just didn't care that I wasn't good enough anymore, it wasn't that I didn't care what other people thought I just... I honestly don't know I've never thought about it this much before...
With me, I went the opposite direction. I realized that no matter what I do, someone will always be better than me, and once they find out they're better, they'll take advantage of me.
Hence, the paranoia and constant rage.
What about being betrayed by someone who is at the same time betraying themselves? It's even worse.Irridium said:Being betrayed by someone you trusted.
I don't have words to describe how bad that was...