The amount of damn work I'm gonna have, and how pointless it will probably end up being. I want to go into research for a PhD, and actually I've already been accepted, but I'm not going to be able to afford to do it unless I get FULL funding. That kind of funding is something I honestly don't think I'm able to attain. The results I got for the last examination period, while not bad by any margin, are certainly not good enough to qualify for large scholarships. And they were worth a quarter of my final grade. The worst part is is that I was already studying pretty damn hard. Even if I did my *absolute* best, I fear I'm just not smart enough to get it regardless.
The entirety of 2015 is going to be harsh. I wouldn't be surprised if it turns out to be the most stressful year in my life thus far. But whatever. I'm not nervous or depressed, I'm actually kind of excited in a morbid kind of way.
The entirety of 2015 is going to be harsh. I wouldn't be surprised if it turns out to be the most stressful year in my life thus far. But whatever. I'm not nervous or depressed, I'm actually kind of excited in a morbid kind of way.