Today I Was Shot.

[sanomaton]

Well, I guess I could share my story here.

I have been penpals with this boy for years. I really liked him, I could tell him anything and when we webcammed he smiled because of me. I knew that he didn't smile a lot but whenever he saw me I could make him smile. However, he lived on the other side of the world. If he had lived here or if I had lived there I think we would've most probably gotten together and we could've been really happy. That wasn't the case though as there was a continent and thousands and thousands of miles between us.

So, I really care about this guy. Truly care about him even if he was 'only' a penfriend. And for years we talked and sent each other snail mail and I even got to see his family. But suddenly, this last summer, he suddenly told me he can't be friends with me anymore. He just told me he wants me to be happy and that he will never let me speak to him again, "I will always love you, my angel." And at that time I saw him cry. I have never seen a guy cry and it hurt even more as I knew he never shows feelings to people. And to see him cry was really painful to watch. It felt like someone had taken a knife and started cutting my body over and over.

I cried for 7 days after that. The first night was the worst because the physical pain was just too much for me. I was aching all over and I couldn't eat because I had this constant feeling that I might throw up any moment. So I just cried without an end. I was aching so much that I didn't know what to do anymore. Every day for that one week I felt weak, had stomach aches and couldn't stop crying. Only when I had to go out of my room to eat I could stop for 5-10 minutes so I was able to wash my face in the bathroom, eat and go back into my room.

I still feel tears building up as I think about that whole episode. I've sent him several letters now but he hasn't replied to any of them... And I will send him another one soon. I don't want him to think that I've forgotten him, he left such a mark on my skin that I can never forget him.

 

[Shoggoth2588]

I was going to let this one go without commenting but I know that pain. Here is what that pained caused me to do:

[link]http://enmadaio2588.deviantart.com/art/Heart-of-131173242[/link]

This story is based around the fact that as much as I loved this one person, She wouldn't feel the same about me. So, I came up with a metaphor which I had to write out into the above story.

 

[EMFCRACKSHOT]

I felt the same when my ex dumped me. I thought I loved her. But i got over it eventually. Ish. Its still quite hard when i have to see her every day but what can you do.

 

[Mozared]

In a way, I envy you. Not for 'being shot', but for being a rational romantic. I'm as rational as you are in your OP, but far from as romantic.

 

[UAProxy]

*sigh* Five pages in and barely any of you have actually noticed the discussion prompt. Let me make it a bit more clear, hm? Check the OP again.

 

[Bat Vader]

Considering the fact that I distance myself from people for exact reasons such as the reasons posted I don't recall much sadness in my life.

Dude. Pretentious, much?

I have a similar story to the OP, this girl I like, she liked me back and man was I over the moon. Then she decided she didn't like me anymore. Note: This was the first girl I've properly liked, most girls have just been about the ladysqueezings.

May I ask how I am being pretentious when I am just telling the truth about myself?

Because your statement seems like the psychological profile of like a survivor of a terrorist attack or a shizophrenic or something 0.o
Just because you don't often get really close to people doesn't mean you have to make it sound like you're a complete social outcast =/

By no means am I a complete social outcast although at times I wish I was. What I meant was a good friend of mine could die and I would not cry about. Even though we are friends I have distanced myself from said feelings of friendship to not feel sad about it.

 

[Bat Vader]

*sigh* Five pages in and barely any of you have actually noticed the discussion prompt. Let me make it a bit more clear, hm? Check the OP again.

Your asking us have emotions have ever caused us physical pain. People have different ways of feeling emotion. Some may feel pain and some may not feel pain.

I just say it is stress.

 

[Kaisikudo]

Spoiler: Click here for a rather large comic on the matter

Once again, not quite. Different kind of caring guy here. Sure, I'm nice, but I learned early on that that approach leads nowhere. This way is slightly more effective, and the fact that she's already had her fair share of bad experiences does heighten my odds a bit. We'll see.

I really don't understand this whole "caring guy" concept. Someone is going to have to explain that one to me. I'm not criticising anyone here, but I hate the prospect of classifying myself under a "type". I am not a particularly funny fuy. Nor am I particularly sweet, or intelligent, or stylish or anything else that would lead a girl to be attracted to a guy.

Instead, I'm just me - which is a little bit of all of the above, perhaps replacing the term "stylish" for "clumsy".

Now being 17 years old, I can't really say I've had a lot of experience dealing with women, but instead young, somewhat idealistic girls who all have their own dream image of how "their story" should be told - a naive fantasy I often find it difficult to compete with.

There have been many girls in my life to whom I've expressed an interest, but only once has there been a time where I've actually fallen head over heels about someone. We just clicked, the way you would expect any good relationship to.

Now the great thing about this girl was that I didn't have to pretend to be something I'm not. With other girls, I would get to know what traits they liked about a guy and do my best to demonstrate that I possessed those traits (even if I didn't really). But this girl proved that she loved me for who I was - she used to even call me "Grumpy Bear", after her favourite Care Bear with whom she believed I shared a lot in common. She'd started doing this while we were snuggled up together on the sofa watching an episode of the Care Bears in the early morning cartoons after we'd stayed up together all night watching movies.

It was a wonderful feeling, to have someone in my life that I felt so strongly about and wanted to love and to cherish, and to receive the same affection back from a girl who loved me not "despite" my quirks, but BECAUSE of my imperfect nature. Human beings aren't built for perfection, which so many girls my age seem to look for in their ideal partner. The stability I felt in being loved, simply for being me was just bliss.

We went out for just over 2 years ... and one day she decided she just didn't like me anymore.

3 weeks after we split up, she starts dating my best friend.

Go figure.

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Sorry to hear that you're feeling hurt aswell, though dude. But that "unlucky in love" attitude will get you nowhere good. I think it's time for you to start taking yourself seriously. You seem like a genuinly sweet guy. Maybe before you're ready to love someone else again, you should think about developing a healthy love for youself.

 

[UAProxy]

*sigh* Five pages in and barely any of you have actually noticed the discussion prompt. Let me make it a bit more clear, hm? Check the OP again.

Your asking us have emotions have ever caused us physical pain. People have different ways of feeling emotion. Some may feel pain and some may not feel pain.

I just say it is stress.

Point being that I'm asking about whether the community has had any emotionally jarring moments in their lives and they seem intent on derailing the thread with pointless bickering about something that's already happened. And it's getting on my nerves.

 

[themightyodog]

its easy, move in with your auntie and uncle in bel air!

 

[Cilliandrew]

Eh, i dated a girl.. First girl i ever truly loved. She told me she'd never loved anyone like this before, she'd never been happier then this before, she wanted to stay with me forever.

In my naivety, i believed her, and was convinced we would spend the rest of our lives together. Was pretty shocked when she ended things pretty abruptly (found out later she'd been cheating on me.)

I still haven't gotten over it, and that was 8 years ago, now.

I really wish i had had someone to warn me about this stuff beforehand. NEVER BELIEVE a word they say... Ever...

Course, that was the final step in turning me into a bitter, self-obsessed jerk.. I've had alot of success with the ladies, since then! Really i should thank that wonderful ex....

 

[Bat Vader]

*sigh* Five pages in and barely any of you have actually noticed the discussion prompt. Let me make it a bit more clear, hm? Check the OP again.

Your asking us have emotions have ever caused us physical pain. People have different ways of feeling emotion. Some may feel pain and some may not feel pain.

I just say it is stress.

Point being that I'm asking about whether the community has had any emotionally jarring moments in their lives and they seem intent on derailing the thread with pointless bickering about something that's already happened. And it's getting on my nerves.

I really didn't see any bickering when I read through this thread.

 

[WlknCntrdiction]

*sigh* Five pages in and barely any of you have actually noticed the discussion prompt. Let me make it a bit more clear, hm? Check the OP again.

Your asking us have emotions have ever caused us physical pain. People have different ways of feeling emotion. Some may feel pain and some may not feel pain.

I just say it is stress.

Point being that I'm asking about whether the community has had any emotionally jarring moments in their lives and they seem intent on derailing the thread with pointless bickering about something that's already happened. And it's getting on my nerves.

You mean kind of like you are? Oh boo hoo OP we feel for you we really do /sarcasm.

OT: She was my first gf, about a year back, I got over it.
EDIT: Just saw the "whaaaaaaaa!" edit to your first post and I'm gunna give you advice anyway, man the fuck up.

 

[Bat Vader]

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By no means am I a complete social outcast although at times I wish I was. What I meant was a good friend of mine could die and I would not cry about. Even though we are friends I have distanced myself from said feelings of friendship to not feel sad about it.

Well a good friend of mine could die and I probably wouldn't cry. But that doesn't stop me having good friends, and it shouldn't stop you either.

I just don't like the emotional properties that go with being a friend to someone or liking someone. Then I have to care about the person and I am lazy to care about anybody really.

 

[WlknCntrdiction]

snip

By no means am I a complete social outcast although at times I wish I was. What I meant was a good friend of mine could die and I would not cry about. Even though we are friends I have distanced myself from said feelings of friendship to not feel sad about it.

Well a good friend of mine could die and I probably wouldn't cry. But that doesn't stop me having good friends, and it shouldn't stop you either.

I just don't like the emotional properties that go with being a friend to someone or liking someone. Then I have to care about the person and I am lazy to care about anybody really.

Me and you are much alike. Just because you distance yourself doesn't mean you care any less, it's funny how you're the one being called pretentious when it's exactly what "Dr Jack" is being like right now. Not everyone functions or deals with emotions the same way, don't be so ignorant.

 

[similar.squirrel]

It's not a nice feeling. Yet, you keep doing it. Again and again, ad nauseam.
Got dumped a week or so ago.