ooh, this topic again?
*boots up alt account again for anonymity*
Basically, I get turned on by thoughts of being executed while cross dressing. Specifically, by hanging and in gowns with large skirts.
It's messed up and I'd rather not have it, but it's pretty much the only thing that turns me on. :s
Now that I'm single again (reasons for this are unrelated to my kink), I'm opening up more to my fetish since I no longer have a relationship to satisfy my emotional needs.
Fortunately, I've since found ways to mimic the experience I'm looking for while also being safe. Unfortunately I need a play partner to actually do any of it. :s You just don't DO this kind of play alone. Not unless you want to die, or, if I use the safe method, end up trapped in a harness with no way down. XD
I've recently met up with the local kinky crowd, and they're nice enough. I just hope that I can find people who are into what I'm into, while also accepting my need to play as safe as possible.
Also, I've finally gotten serious enough about it to start buying stuff for it. Just got my first wig the other day and dear GOD it was a nerve-wracking experience. XD