It would be nice to think it is just some form of depression, but that is not the case <3Nearing9 said:-Snip-
I don't know you personally but it sounds like depression (loss of interest in things you once liked). I'm probably wrong though
For a start, depression tends not to feel like a positive thing >.>
It made me feel good, happy, a certain contentedness. The feeling has faded over time, with new challenges, but at the time, it was something.