My name is Puzzles, I just bought a shiny new tan leather jacket today. It goes nicely with my tan dragon-skin boots. I can't wait to put on my black skinny leg jeans and go out drinking, because I will be the shiniest kid out on the town.
I tend to push people away from me for precisely no reason, and for this reason I enjoy the escapist. I can state my outrageous opinions and if I offend someone, well I won't care.
Life is a roller coaster for me, I suffer from manic depressive (bi-polar) disorder, which can be quite hard for my studies at university. Some weeks I will study hard, attend every lecture and feel full of purpose; other weeks I will drink every night and barely make an appearance, hide in my room and avoid my girlfriend. I echo Christian Bale's weight patterns, one month muscular and energetic, then a month or two later slender and lethargic and about 10 kilograms lighter. My friends have told me I am never the same person.
I, like many introverted people and indeed many people on the escapist, overanalyse every aspect of life. I study relationships and predict outcomes. I go over events repeatedly in my head to figure out their signifigance and try and gauge peoples feelings towards me far more than any sane person should.
I not spiritual, and come from a family of scientists/doctors/engineers who (with the exception of one) do not believe in any sort of god, this has of course shaped my into the critical bastard that I am today regarding religion.
I don't play many computer games, but when I do I get very addicted. I'm still playing CS, after all these years pretty much every day. My favorite passtime is snowboarding, but living in the most isolated, desert encapsulated city in the world (Perth) means snow is a rather large continent width away, and I get very bored without it. Nevertheless I moved to Canada to live in the snow for 6 months last year, which was the best time of my life.
When I came back, a lot of my less close friends are no longer friends. I'm not a social enough person to call them up after so long to meet up, so I know that it is the end. Sometimes I wish I had the drive to befriend people, but often when people try and talk to me I am looking for the nearest exit. I am not shy, but I enjoy my own company more. I don't need to watch what I am saying or worry about anything. It's hard to be yourself when no one understands your sense of humor, so I just react sarcastically to most things now.
I'm a jaded, flawed person. I know this, yet I can't help but point out other peoples flaws.
Well that was longer than I expected, but that is what I'm feeling at 7.00pm.
EDIT: A post a couple above mine reminded me. I had a rather severe head trauma a few years ago, and one side of my body also spasms. Not so much anymore, but when it did, the whole left side would ripple constantly for hours as my muscles twitched, it was distracting as hell but it went away.
I also lost my sense of smell from the head trauma, and I'm starting to think my memory as well. Sometimes I will wake up and my nose will start bleeding for no reason.