Your first love

[Lawnmooer]

My first love was back when I was in middle school.

She made me feel happy and not care about when bad things happened (My school work went down the toilet... but that wasn't really a problem because the only thing that matters in school is the exams at the very end)

She left me after a few months in high school and got engaged and pregnant...

She broke my heart and since then I stopped caring about alot of things, and also become extremely violent on Wednesdays...

 

[Paksenarrion]

Ah, first love...you may think I'm being facetious,but I had the stereotypical experience with my first love, which can aptly be described by one song a majority of my generation are familiar with...

Spoiler: Do not click if you do not like reading sappy lyrics!

CRAAAAAAAAAAWLING IIIIIIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN
THESE WOOOOOUUUUUUUNDS THEY WIIIIIIIIIILL NOT HEAAAAAAAAL
FEEEAAAAAAR IS HOOOOOOOOOW I FAAAAAAAAAAALL
CONFUUUUUUUUSING WHAAAAAAT IS REAAAAAAAAAAL

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming...confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling...I can't seem


To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
SO INSECUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURE

CRAAAAAAAAAAWLING IIIIIIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN
THESE WOOOOOUUUUUUUNDS THEY WIIIIIIIIIILL NOT HEAAAAAAAAL
FEEEAAAAAAR IS HOOOOOOOOOW I FAAAAAAAAAAALL
CONFUUUUUUUUSING WHAAAAAAT IS REAAAAAAAAAAL


Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting...reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It`s haunting...how I can't seem...

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
SO INSECUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURE

CRAAAAAAAAAAWLING IIIIIIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN
THESE WOOOOOUUUUUUUNDS THEY WIIIIIIIIIILL NOT HEAAAAAAAAL
FEEEAAAAAAR IS HOOOOOOOOOW I FAAAAAAAAAAALL
CONFUUUUUUUUSING WHAAAAAAT IS REAAAAAAAAAAL

Oh, young love.

 

[ringwraiths48]

My first love meant so much more to me after we broke up. its not that i started to appreciate her more or wished i had loved her when i had the chance, it was more that i don't think we were meant to be romantic. We we much better together when we were just friends.

 

[Jonluw]

That would be my current love, I think.

He has no idea.

I can only suggest that you tell him.

The real purpose of this post is to say Welcome to the Escapist though. Hope you have a good time. Remember: Don't feed the trolls, report and move on and all that.

 

[FallenTraveler]

my first love... A girl who was 1) legitimately screwy 2) fucked me over more than once 3)took and never gave back

So, my first love sucked after about 2 months. It was a good relationship at first... but it got bad.

My second love though! (who I am now with) Is awesome, still a little wacko, but having the other one gave me a reason for this, gave me more than my first love too. I love her Hate the other ***** >:[

 

[Max Goldfine]

Oh, and I dispute anyone's first love being in grade 5. That was just the first girl you tried to date.

Why? do you not think a 5th grader has the capacity to love? who are you to say otherwise?

 

[JokerCrowe]

I don't know if any of my infatuations could be counted as love... I never really got to the relationship part, so I don't think it really developed into love. Thus I have no idea. But my first infatuation was my best friends older sister. I was like 10 at the time.
Right now, I fall for pretty much every pretty/funny/smart girl who is nice to me. So I have like 7 different girls I like. And their appearence and manners are really different.

 

[Mr.Incognitus]

Mine was a horrible choice, I found out after a few weeks just how little I meant to her when she just decided "I don't like you anymore, gtfo"

 

[Leg End]

My First(and only) love:
Sakura Kinomoto

She has turned me from a souless bastard to a slightly less souless bastard.
When she is near, I feel emotion... I feel... happy.

Only she can allow me to feel.

 

[Tarlane]

This is actually a pretty interesting thread, normally when you think about someones first love what you are imagining is exploring those feelings of affection and finding out new ways your heart works before you are too cynical to know better. But I've noticed that almost everyone in this thread seems to think of the crash at the end instead of the good times. I know that seems to be the first spot my mind jumps to as well(it was a big crash) but its interesting to know that I'm not alone in that.

Anyway, my first love was a natively Italian girl and we dated through pretty much all of high school. When we graduated she wanted to go back home so I went with her, but after an extended time of my not being able to get a work permit(and babysitting type jobs not cutting it) I was going to have to come back, save up some money and plan a bit better so that getting the permit would be easier when I went back. She decided she was just going to stay and it would be better to break things off. Rough ending to a four year run when everything was going well except outside factors.

I suppose it really made me a lot more cautious about opening myself up and letting myself have that strong of a connection to someone and blind sided me enough that it probably put down the first step of trust issues that later relationships built a ladder on with their disasters. Still, I find that when I think back on her I can't help but do so fondly.

Man, I feel like I should be laying on a couch responding to this thread.

 

[ChicagoTed]

My first love has turned me off scene girls forever.

 

[Hoopybees]

Final Fantasy Nine. Unquestionably. It was the game that really got me into gaming. I've never been in love with a person but I reckon it probably feels the way that game made me feel when I found the last chocobo treasure. Hell, I'd settle for a relationship half that intense.

 

[emeraldrafael]

The first girl I loved died a few years ago (guess its 2. She died when we were 16, and I'm 18 now, I just dont like to count). UP till then, I fought for her multiple times (in a literal sense) to protect her. She was one of those girls that just needed protected. She never really spoke out. I mean, she wasnt shy, its just... i dont know how to explain it. I guess its easiest to say she couldnt really say no. She was like that around me and my (also her since we grew up around each other for years) friends.

But there were good times. We were awkward teens getting out of our preteens and into our new bodies, trying to figure out how to be adults and independent but still relying on our parents. We did that sappy stuff like go to the movies and get one cup and two straws, go out to hockey games, sneak around (or so we thought) her parents, even though they always knew. BUt it was more then that. we just seemed to be a match. I dont think I've ever felt the same way about a girl as I did Amy (her name). WE shared the same interests, were constantly over each others' houses. We were in separable.

Its sad to think she's gone... but thats life i guess. I moved on from the sadness, cause i cant mope forever, and am dating again. The girl I'm dating now (Meleanie) brings me a lot of happiness, but she's not Amy. Which I guess is good. I dont think i could date another girl like her.

 

[RastaBadger]

Yet to have a first love. This makes me sad

 

[Dr Snakeman]

My first, and so far only, love would be a girl I met in middle school. She was pretty, smart, funny, and a total geek. I would melt anytime I saw her.

However, due to this being middle school and me having had no idea how to talk to people, much less girls, I never acted on it. We wound up going to different high schools, and I moved to Texas soon after. I've never met anyone else that I cared about enough to date, so I'm pretty much chronically single ever since. If I ever meet her again (not too far outside the realm of the possible, since I've met a few people from those days in the last few months), I'm not letting her get away that easily.

 

[Knusper]

My first love was Steam, and if anything, our relationship has grown stronger, as it has given more and more really cheap games. I love that little guy.

But seriously, I'm 16, and so I have certain scepticisms over whether or not you can really feel or appreciate love at that age, or rather just have a lust. Sure, I've liked some girls, but no, I don't think I really could love at the moment. Also, by the looks of things, it's not worth it, so many relationships that people my age last no longer than a few months - they're only in it for the sex, if you want me to be blunt. Then, they get really upset when they split - it seems like it does more harm than good.

Wow, I was just such a downer... sorry.

 

[Skobvs]

That would be my current love, I think.

He has no idea.

Welcome to the escapist! Same here, cept well.. for slightly obvious reasons.. it's a she.

 

[The Stonker]

Rivers of blue
I sing to you
for my heart is lain
and is slain
Before the all mighty game.

For when I saw you cry
then I got crushed
battered,beaten and broken.
For I have never felt like this.
This, weakness.
Shame on you woman.
Shame on you for revealing my true form.

The true form of a lover not a fighter.
The true form of a person that cares and doesn't dare
to cross the people's care.
This is who I am and now I must
Hide in fear forever to gain a baleful
glare.

 

[T-Bone24]

Not sure if it's love, but what love is goes a whole other route, so we'll leave that.
Closest thing I've come to it at least is someone in my IT class who I met in September. We've only spoken a couple of times and even those have just been work-related topics, but there's a soft spot I've got for her that's kinda difficult to explain...

Three cheers for internet anonymity allowing me to admit this!

Pretty much this, minus IT and plus more than just work-related conversations. Internet anonymity for the win!

 

[101flyboy]

I've never been in love with any one person in a romantic way. I love a lot of people. I've never fallen head over heels for anyone, and I've never really been interested/looking for/wanting to either.