Digi7 said:
As an advocate of emotional complexity and deep thinking on the Escapist (or so I like to think!) I'd like to open this topic for discussion, the most emotionally complex question that an individual can be posed with.
What is the reason you live everyday, the ideal that drives you, that permeates your very being or the underlying emotional attachment that affects every facet of your existence? Has it been affected or (if you wish) guided by religion? Has it been changed by the world you have become a part of, or the life you have lived thus far? Share it and discuss.
First off, I applaud your efforts and thank you for making the thread. I like to encourage such introspection and critical thinking when I can too (I'm a philosophy major actually).
In the depths of my mind, I tend to think of myself as (or intuitively sense that) I am something of an explorer - of all realities and imagination. I generally don't intellectually or superficially attach myself too much to anything of the world in particular, but live for my own existential freedom with the experiences that may accompany it. This means I still can appreciate my engagements with the world and brushes with the eternal: usually in the form of empathetic encounters with other beings, recognition of metaphysical aspects of the world, and their inspirational resonance with my existential core. You might say, in other words, that I live for transcendence (in the form of communion with the absolute).
Though I've never necessarily posited the existence of an afterlife - I sense that some aspect of my existence is also eternal, or at least, would not have it's integrity diminished upon my passing from this world. However, none of my beliefs were formed with the direct influence of a religion, as I've been atheistic my entire life. I would give some credit, however, to the eastern philosophy I read as a child and teenager - particularly the Tao Te Ching and various works concerning philosophical Buddhism and Shintoism. My actual philosophy differs notably from those, but they heavily inspired me to move toward philosophical pursuits. Playing a lot of classic video games during my childhood probably helped me appreciate imagination quite a bit too

. In my daily life I am constantly hungry for new meaningful experiences: learning new things, discovering profound works of art, exploring my own imagination, contemplating the nature of the absolute, and attempting to share my experiences with others in various ways.