Digi7 said:
What is the reason you live everyday, the ideal that drives you, that permeates your very being or the underlying emotional attachment that affects every facet of your existence? Has it been affected or (if you wish) guided by religion? Has it been changed by the world you have become a part of, or the life you have lived thus far? Share it and discuss.
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I should also mention I'm a painter, a writer, a poet and a creator in general. To make something with one's own hands, talent and skill and present it to the world holds a joy like none other. Creation is a big part of my existence, and I sure love doing it!
I am glad I'm not the only one with such a creative outlook on life. I am almost entirely driven by creative pursuits, without it I would be a tree without its lush and vibrant leaves.
I am not religious, but I do not reject the possibility. I find religion to be irrelevant, even if any is true, as my core philosophy transcends religion (it isn't trivial to explain, so I won't). I do however use pretend supernatural concepts and entities as a way to entertain myself or help me explain the world around me, but at the same time I reject all of it and only accept anything which has been well-tested scientifically (it is a form of doublethink that I'm very comfortable with).
I once entertained myself with the idea that the point of our universe is to breed gods, the successful gods being the most creative individuals. From my experience, the love of my own creations, my own fictional worlds, is strongly reminiscent of the love a god has for its creation. It also made me understand why bad things exist, for bad things
feel important from an artistic perspective. But I only take this as an interesting possibility and not as a belief.
I live to experience any and all sensations. Positive and negative feelings are all good and beautiful. I've experienced the most intense feelings in the spectrum of emotions and the incredible nuances therein.
At times my mind can drag me into surreality, where I feel the connections and songs of everything. I live in a word on the border between dream and reality. Everything is beautiful, nothing is ever abhorrent in the right mindset. Moving between mindsets and experiencing the ever changing mutations of the self is wonderful, I can love and hate the same thing in seconds.
Wherever I am and whatever I do, I always want to shape everything around me so to make it aesthetically pleasing. I am very often frustrated when I have immense creative lust bottled up with no proper channel to release it.
At the very peak moments of my existence, I live not in myself, but at the same time live in the things and entities around me.
As I now land with my feet on the ground again, I can summarize it all as 'I live to experience'. Though I doubt that summary is relevant for me in two minutes time.